tedbedlam

Things thought late at night:

There is a rage in me. Like a burning saint, neither benign nor a cancer, it teaches me from the echoes of the screams inside my soul. The wills that have seen fit to restrict me have never known an enemy such as I. How terrible I may become before my body is burned as a corpse. How wonderful will...
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National Museum of Patriotism wants me to do a tour video for them (no pay, of course) which might be fun. Funny thing though as my first intention when I am able is to leave the country. I suppose one can be a patriot to the original ideal without abiding by the geography or the outcome. A patriot expatriate? Tender tender resignation, so soft and...
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Follow-up: The swine-herd left one piggy out of the courtroom. License re-instated.

One month. One shitburg month. One cocksucking useless anti-political sober month. ALS hearing tomorrow. Hopefully the cop doesn't show. Then my legal problems are reduced by half. If not, my clever-as-he-is-expensive lawyer will finagle the court case to a second date to force the swime into a minor "fuck you" of show up for another unpaid day of court. And I'm all about saying fuck...
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Blight has gathered
Guest at the door
Knock knock knocking
At brittle bone
Teeth will shatter
Bounced off the cold
Re-imagine
Arms to make us whole


Not sure where that was going but I figured I'd write it. Thank god I put down poetry and took up... I don't know. Basically I put down poetry and did some different shit. Being a jackass? Well I...
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Narcissism is an essential human trait, a survival method meant to deter the emotional rigors of the social lifespan. If we were smart enough not to like ourselves or to recognize the issues with what we do, we would probably all be dead. This does not preclude the existence of contradictory influences like guilt, shame, etc. All are built into the premise of the continuance...
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Finally finished and uploading two training videos... guh. Now to choose between "Legend", "Beyond Re-Animator", disc 2 season 2 of "Carnivale" and "The Piano Teacher" for a movie before I go to bed. I'm so brain-dead I don't think I'll remember whatever I watch by morning.

A short piece on pimp culture in georgia for AFNAP, a non-profit organization against the commercial sexual exploitation of minors (a.k.a. child prostitution).

Holy christ I cannot edit this voice over to this footage... I'm rewriting this idiot's fucking script, changing to order to fit his routine (which he obviously didn't pay attention to when he wrote it) and voicing it myself tomorrow afternoon. Hopefully he won't be pissed and he'll be okay with a male voice instead of a inexperienced, stuttering (albeit well-meaning and very cooperative) female...
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Run: C:\Rant against the aged

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I really don't like the elderly, except the ones who work at something until they die instead of maintaining a regressive socio-political atmosphere. It seems too common to me that senior citizens are unable to perform basic mental tasks for them all to have had strokes or otherwise. My guess is too much booze, pills, laziness and an inflated...
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