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i hope you are doing okay your in my thoughts love always trin

-Written on The Walls of Hatred-

Within these walls of Sin, I create my Own story.
My Life has nothing for me, Your life is my Fucking Glory.
The hate creates My anger, the Anger transpires thoughts.
Deception depicting Laughter, Ridiculed by all your taunts.

Im burning inside and the only thing left to do is explode.
Hypocritical Friendships create Lost grips on once strong holds.
Reality is a word, and You read it with your general illiteracy.
I've come to far to stop now, So I scream freely, "fuck Peace!"

If you want to speak your opinions,
Ill give you a pen so you can note them.
And if that's not sufficient enough,
Ill add a knife to slice my throat with.
Speak what you need to speak,
to make you smile before you sleep tight.
When deep down inside your just a bad actor with stage fright!

Hahaha ill Laugh with you, Isn't it funny ..
We are both laughing at someone who only wanted Somebody.
It feels good to kick the weak
when they are down on the ground Crying.
But what about the weak ones that have gone past the fear of Dying.

The Weak ones, that Could give a fuck if you die fast or slow.
The Sweet ones, that spend their time fighting in the undertow.
The Meek ones, that only wanted to make you smile with love,
Become the guns that are aimed your heart behind your false hugs.

Isn't it funny how somebody can control
another's emotions and twist.
Everything that you say and do
could create an anger beyond slit wrists.
Im not laughing anymore, Not dropping another tear over your hate.
My Mistake was caring to much, and for this Im damned by fate.

Choice your actions and words wiser in the event of a next time.
For the next person writing this, may be the last person you blind.
The hatred you create can disgrace those who slowly disintegrate,
but the love that you carry can erase the taste of all human waste.

I still posses the ability to love, and the heavy heated fist of Pain
I still react on track with the carnage of evil, in these eyes of shame
I wish you good luck ... you will need it .....

[Edited on Mar 27, 2003]

love you babe love trin

you deserve so much and i am glad we got to talk tonight love you love trin *big hugs*

pls call me i e-mailed u my cell number love trin

The Door To Nowhere-

Drifting in the Seas of Self Hatred
Depicted in a Third Person
Watching My ship sink
Laughing At what
Is Uncertain

Damned Since Birth
With a thirst to be understood
I have failed myself
I have failed my future
My Hatred is Good

My beating Heart Has Been replaced
With a Taste to rot in this sin
Its where I have been
Ever since I was Erased
This battle I cannot win

Your lies Torture my inner strengths
Leaving my will unable to stand
The world you live in
I am Jealous of
I try hard to learn
But I fail to Understand.

Every door that has been open
I have walked in with an open heart
Behind me the door slams shut
Im caged, Im lost, Im Crying
Im torn apart

A vicious circle Built by my mind
Fine tuned with the hands of Infinity
Adjusted and disrupted
By the Sands of Time

I am Tired of this pain
The black hole I live in
I am Tired of these tears
Left in my own shit
Left unforgiving

I will never be Understood
I will never find one to understand
I am in this battle alone
Fucked and Tortured
I am Damned

My emotions are the only things
that keep me alive, I strive to Survive
even when they are
Sodomized from inside

My Crime is Trusting
In all that you Speak
Can you understand Why I cry
Do you see why I retreat
Fuck Me with your Defeat

I am dead .. But my Blood still flows

oh dear

what am i gonna do with you.... =/

so when you coming up again??

love
trin

I made a small contact with Gina today. I just wanted to end on a brighter note, even though I know she thinks im a fucking loser ... I still couldn't try to move on in life when I had a mental image of being a loser to somebody in my head. But the hell with it .. Whats in the past .. is in the past.

the past isn't just the past most the time it can bring up some sort of pain down teh road having closure is a better way to seal things once and for all as well.love u lovr trin

um, good luck and i love you always i don't know if i should cry or just smile and feel happy for you b/c i can still feel inside you are not happy for yourself. you just seem so confused and hurt and are willing to do anything to get away from anything that seems to try and care for you and when one lil bump comes along you run and hide and fear the outcome good or bad. all i know is that you need to sit down and figure out life and not run away from life.

love you always
trin

trin= biggest fucking loser then anyone. i am fucking stupid and beyond anything else.. woohoo goo me..

your not a loser babe and stay strong
love
trin

Ok now I'm scared.

keep ur head up babe everything will be okay.. i have some things planned inmy head right now and i will go over them with as soon as i can love you love trin

Well once again It's been another day of getting the run around by jobs. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr I hate job hunting!! Maybe I should be a Drug Dealing,Porn Star Pimp! Just a Thought!