sybil

oh just get out of my head,
i can't believe he's even in my dreams
he just pops up out of nowhere,
after more than a year,
i thought this was finally over.
i don't want to sleep anymore
if it means he's going to be there,
the more i become upset,
the more i think about it,
i know he'll be there, lurking like...
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i'm sick of trying to reach, trying to make contact
not feeling so swell, feeling quite introspective
which is poisonous
i always have the ability to make myself feel much more
rotten
than i am.

my video assignment is going to be fun.
hopefully it'll make an impression.
i'm so competitive,
making battlefields everywhere i go.

this weekend was pretty strange
let's see, friday was the big opening
of the show on campus
met two of the painters from london
they liked my roomate and i's outfits
they proceded to touch my tattoos and jewlery
made me happy, made me miss london
saturday went to the art store hoping to find
the nervous boy
instead i dropped a container of gesso...
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back to school
common room looks like an art gallery
my classes actually make me happy
trying to be motivated
must get rid of excess fat
need to go to the gym
adore the boy at the local art store
hoping painting teacher sends me there again
i make him nervous
he remembered the fettling knife
we both need balls
saturday way too much tequila...
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my arm feels like it's been through a meat grinder.

i stepped into the 21st century and got a cellphone, the world has come to an end, finally.
so testing out the nifty pics sending feature on SG.
this is Chelsea, my best friend's "cat". It is widely believed that Chelsea is some sort of wise ancient alien sent to earth to spy on us, but really all he does is try to get as...
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