Yeah! i want to be a manatee too!, elfboy. 
My new house is cozy- first time I've had a fireplace in ten years. My hair is thre different colors right now and something must be done! Blonde, pink and black are not the best matches. It looks like a tragedy really. This house has an old fashion shower / tub that has eagle feet holding...
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My new house is cozy- first time I've had a fireplace in ten years. My hair is thre different colors right now and something must be done! Blonde, pink and black are not the best matches. It looks like a tragedy really. This house has an old fashion shower / tub that has eagle feet holding... Read More
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infected with nasty cold. *sneeze* ! Perhaps I'll spend tomorrow in bed watching south park dvd's that i got from blockbuster today. Sometimes methinks that blockbuster is a bit evil. Can't put my finger on why....*sneeze*! I watched cops today - couldn't help but laugh - then I had to remind myself that it wasn't Reno 911. Starting to move within the next few days,...
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p00ka:
Hope you're starting to feel better, Babe. 
elfboy:
Cuddling w/ a manatee! Hehehe! What a metaphor!!!
Emotional security, I would think. Comfort & ease of movement. Nifty!!
Hope it stays that way.
I wanna be a manatee when I grow up.!
Emotional security, I would think. Comfort & ease of movement. Nifty!!
Hope it stays that way.
I wanna be a manatee when I grow up.!
MESSAGES TO THE FOLKS :
Happy new year ladies and gentlemen ! I'm having a hard time with my computer - it's not letting me make comments on other people's journals. So let me say to you here : Thank you Hecubus for the links, youre a gentleman as always - i've been busy making donations as well. To KreatinKaos my condolences about the ex...
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Happy new year ladies and gentlemen ! I'm having a hard time with my computer - it's not letting me make comments on other people's journals. So let me say to you here : Thank you Hecubus for the links, youre a gentleman as always - i've been busy making donations as well. To KreatinKaos my condolences about the ex...
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kreatinkaos:
Happy New Year
p00ka:
Thanks for the well-wishes, Doll.
I know that with all of your hard work, this year will be a great one, but I'm gonna wish you a Happy New Year anyhow!
I know that with all of your hard work, this year will be a great one, but I'm gonna wish you a Happy New Year anyhow!
there are some things I just don't fucking care about today. And I hope I don't care about them again. finding some fucking cool shit instead - practiced a lot today and went to the gym, and at theraphy i got "smacked in the nose with a newspaper." Finding some clue of what I might need to be doing makes me happy as a puppy...
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kreatinkaos:
Ok WOW , that was a bit emotional , I went to Gotham City Cafe tonight for Flux , I probably should have gone to AA instead but I lacked the inner strength for that . So I hung out at the downstairs bar getting free drinks from the bartender , only to find out after last call that the place is a gay bar I'm not sure if I should feel insecure with myself right now....... the free drinks were real nice for a change , I guess I know what it is like to be a hot chick now .... ...Am I wrong to enjoy myself in this environment ?
Oh ...the house of flying daggers ...well it fucking rocks ...if you dont like it you should become a nun
I hope you bitch slapped the asshole who slapped you with the newspaper.... or do I need to hop on a plane and do it for you It has been six months since I've killed someone
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I'm not sure if I should feel insecure with myself right now....... the free drinks were real nice for a change , I guess I know what it is like to be a hot chick now .... ...Am I wrong to enjoy myself in this environment ?
Oh ...the house of flying daggers ...well it fucking rocks ...if you dont like it you should become a nun
I hope you bitch slapped the asshole who slapped you with the newspaper.... or do I need to hop on a plane and do it for you
It has been six months since I've killed someone
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[Edited on Dec 30, 2004 5:18AM]
ok I'm back I've been sick for a week and haven't been able to get out of bed. I sang Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas in my church on Christmas - and made the song all tortured and sad - it was fullfilling. Nobody seemed to notice they have nothing but love for me there. Came home and listened to Dylan Thomas' a Child's...
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kreatinkaos:
I'm sorry to hear you were sick in bed for the holidays , thats gotta suck .
I'm in the middle of moving too , and for the past two days , I went back to bed instead of packing .
The digital camcorder is nothing more than a movie camera that doesn't use film , It is a nifty little gift and I've been looking for victims to film .
It has been five months since I had my stroke and the doctors finally gave me the Ok to begin weight training again , which is a good thing cause I'm starting to feel all fat and stuff like that . In another month or so I will be able to return to work .
I hope your are feeling better and do better at packing than I have .
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I'm in the middle of moving too , and for the past two days , I went back to bed instead of packing .
The digital camcorder is nothing more than a movie camera that doesn't use film , It is a nifty little gift and I've been looking for victims to film .
It has been five months since I had my stroke and the doctors finally gave me the Ok to begin weight training again , which is a good thing cause I'm starting to feel all fat and stuff like that . In another month or so I will be able to return to work .
I hope your are feeling better and do better at packing than I have .
[Edited on Dec 28, 2004 11:43PM]
kreatinkaos:
Anytime
eatin' creme brulee in my undies and knee socks. hehehehe. Listening to the killers. lalalala. hope you guys leave me messages . AA in the morning - working from 4pm to 1-30am tomorrow. At least my work plays nightmare before christmas soundtrack sometimes. (Yea!) gonna go read peter pan now. if you believe in faries clap your hands ! too much caffine - - -I'm...
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elfboy:
You ARE on my friends list... You ARE!
I accepted immediately, my little pretty, but it took me a while to figure out I hadda push both buttons....
(That sounds rood....)
Oh well. Tough week.
It's not easy being Joseph, Adoptive on the Lamb Father of God!
LOL!
I accepted immediately, my little pretty, but it took me a while to figure out I hadda push both buttons....
(That sounds rood....)
Oh well. Tough week.
It's not easy being Joseph, Adoptive on the Lamb Father of God!
LOL!
kreatinkaos:
Happy Holidays
workin t'day then off to NA, get through this I pray, eaiser every day? more later from me in this whymiscal way. oh why the fuck am i ryhming today? -peace/namaste
song:
my spelling suck it ..... whatever it is? whatever. late(r).
kreatinkaos:
Are you bipolar or just prone to have panic attacks from withdrawal symptoms ? Earlier this year in August I went into renal failure then cardiac arrest followed by a stroke , I spent three weeks in a coma , when I finally woke up I didn't know where I was or what had happened to me , and to top things off I had to cope with the temporary loss of my eyesight . During this time I had several nasty panic attacks .
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off to AA - but first warm and very soapy bath, this is a mission for rubber duckie and my PRN. i hate fear factor. they kill bugs. it's solipcism.That would comes from sol - which is the sun and people thought that the sun revolved around the earth. Solipcism is thinking you are the center of the universe.....so there. i hate fear factor.
kreatinkaos:
I hate fear factor too , I don't know how those contestants can eat some of the sickest things out there , and only for a chance to eat more gross stuff and risk life and limb for a few dollars 
Oh , what's your PRN ?
Oh , what's your PRN ?
hecubus1:
Moontide, AA can be a great place, but watch out for the 13th step--don't let anyone take advantage of you. Find a good sponsor and stick with them.
Today was the worst day yet. If I am unresponsive and listless pray forgive me, I will I promise be back to my old self - no, rather a new and better self. And then we can all run about and play, and curse like .....monkey's?
withdrawl is . I need to be shinny again.
. I need to be shinny again.
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kreatinkaos:
Wow , you seem to have tried most of the vices out there , and sadly at such a young age . I hope you have the inner strength to cope with the withdrawal symptoms , many try and fail , I have witnessed this in my own family . I have a cousin who became a heroin addict at the age of 15 , He is 33 now and has spent half of his life in jail , he has alienated his entire family and has a beautiful 17 year old daughter who has never known him . Many years ago as a Navy SEAL I spent time in the Golden Triangle , basically everyone who lives there works in the drug trade , many die in their early 20's , there are no programs or support groups........even young children are involved ...... it's such a sad place 
elfboy:
Hi.
I'm glad you like your new place