ugg. depressed. blah. ugly. stinky. ugg.
Took a long walk today. talked too long to terenz on my cell phone. hit a meeting. made some totally annoying phonecalls. 
I hate talking to people that i don't feel like conversing with.Especially if they've recently been rude to me - as is the case. Anywho I just got dressed in my gym clothes, but now have decided to take a nap instead.....(oh what...
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I hate talking to people that i don't feel like conversing with.Especially if they've recently been rude to me - as is the case. Anywho I just got dressed in my gym clothes, but now have decided to take a nap instead.....(oh what... Read More
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elfboy:
Hitting. Hitting.. 
Actually, how can I when I don't even know where you is?
( Drop me an e-line & fill me in on the haps....)
SMOOCH!!!
Actually, how can I when I don't even know where you is?
( Drop me an e-line & fill me in on the haps....)
SMOOCH!!!
elfboy:
Yes. I'm constantly falling in love. I walk down the street, see a beautiful girl, & for a moment or two, fall in love. Paint a model, do a shoot, fall a litle in love...
Meet a beautiful girl @ a party..
It's seeing them again after we part that gets tricky!
Meet a beautiful girl @ a party..
It's seeing them again after we part that gets tricky!
The moon was amazing last night.....
kreatinkaos:
What do you mean you were amazing last night 
hecubus1:
Yes. It was amazing last night.
hello my beauties! My internet connection has been AWOL. Thank you Soooooooooo much for the birthday wishes! They made me all warm and fucking fuzzy inside 
It was super duper sweet. And for those who were wondering , the Ani konzert was so amazing(no suprise there). I was bee-bopping away to Andrew Bird(her totally wonderful + unique opening act), and as soon as she walked...
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It was super duper sweet. And for those who were wondering , the Ani konzert was so amazing(no suprise there). I was bee-bopping away to Andrew Bird(her totally wonderful + unique opening act), and as soon as she walked... Read More
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alli:
thanks for the sweet comments. 
elfboy:
You were probably just nervous....
Which program?
Hey, toots, did I wish you a happy b-day? I hope so...... &....
I just might like your bedroom.....
Which program?
Hey, toots, did I wish you a happy b-day? I hope so...... &....
I just might like your bedroom.....
oh dear i've been neglecting my journals, and all my bosom buddies. tisk tisk tisk on little ol me. So valentines day is tomorrow.....hmmmmmm (gears turning) such a strange time of year for me. I guess all times of year are strange right not, at least when i really mull it over. I am spending tomorrow in Santa Barbara and at night I'm seeing Ani...
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suzy_kabloozy:
Happy birthday, baby!
kreatinkaos:
Hey , birthday girl , where have you been
cut up my shoulder doing stupid out of my nature stunt - fairly bloody - took a poleroid shot. Battling chapped lips - told my therapist to fuck off and then apologized fifteen minutes later ( i really do like the woman). feeling exposed but not really minding it - remembering just lying naked with someone that my heart fancied deeply - knowing they've moved...
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kreatinkaos:
So .... what kind of stupid stunt were you doing when you got hurt ? Was it painfull ? I'm still feeling pain from my day of snowboarding off small cliffs for an adrenaline rush
I'm thinking of getting a Painted Leopard " Ocelot " for a pet , when they are hand raised they are real affectionate , a female will grow to 18 inches high at the shoulder , have a 45 inch long body , and a 20 inch tail , and will weight about 35 to 40 pounds
I'm thinking of getting a Painted Leopard " Ocelot " for a pet , when they are hand raised they are real affectionate , a female will grow to 18 inches high at the shoulder , have a 45 inch long body , and a 20 inch tail , and will weight about 35 to 40 pounds
elfboy:
When you coming to town?
When you coming to town?
today i feel like dorthy. But i have no ruby slippers 
I've always wanted a pair ever since i was a little girl. My princess Emily just got this tiny little pair for her chubby little baby feet. I went over after work and gave her all my wizard of oz figurines....awww it was too cute. Anyway i'm rambling. The reason i feel like dorthy...
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I've always wanted a pair ever since i was a little girl. My princess Emily just got this tiny little pair for her chubby little baby feet. I went over after work and gave her all my wizard of oz figurines....awww it was too cute. Anyway i'm rambling. The reason i feel like dorthy... Read More
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elfboy:
OOOOoooooo!!!!!
I feel all funny inside....
If I was cold, I ain't no mo'!!!!!
(Yer just sayin' that, huh?)
I feel all funny inside....
If I was cold, I ain't no mo'!!!!!
(Yer just sayin' that, huh?)
kreatinkaos:
I recently had to give up drinking after a change in my medications and alchohol is no good for a renal failure patient anyways , so being around friends who are drinking is a difficult thing for me now .
My employer repaired a bunch of scrapped parts without the customers permision " the US military " and a disgruntled employee turned them in , so now I will be spending the next two months months of my life in court as a witness for my employers defense team during the whisleblower trial
What's up with all the doctor stuff , well last August I went into renal failure followed by cardiac arrest and a couple of strokes , then three weeks in a coma . Now I am finally putting my life back together , yes I go in the hospital once a week for bloodwork so I can monitor my kidneys and heart , but I am getting better on a daily basis . While in the hospital I met a hot little pediatrician and we spent a hundred hours or so just hanging out and talking , well a couple of weeks ago we decided to take our friendship to the next level and start developing a more serious relationship , we are taking things slowly , and me having to do my consulting work at night due to spending my days in court limits my time with her , but perhaps it will help to keep us from rushing into things , she has a two year old son who is a key part of the relationship too
Good Night Moontide
My employer repaired a bunch of scrapped parts without the customers permision " the US military " and a disgruntled employee turned them in , so now I will be spending the next two months months of my life in court as a witness for my employers defense team during the whisleblower trial
What's up with all the doctor stuff , well last August I went into renal failure followed by cardiac arrest and a couple of strokes , then three weeks in a coma . Now I am finally putting my life back together , yes I go in the hospital once a week for bloodwork so I can monitor my kidneys and heart , but I am getting better on a daily basis . While in the hospital I met a hot little pediatrician and we spent a hundred hours or so just hanging out and talking , well a couple of weeks ago we decided to take our friendship to the next level and start developing a more serious relationship , we are taking things slowly , and me having to do my consulting work at night due to spending my days in court limits my time with her , but perhaps it will help to keep us from rushing into things , she has a two year old son who is a key part of the relationship too
Good Night Moontide
need to buy new belly ring, tounge ring, and nose ring.....ugh. but first to shower! more from me later.ps : if your a friend reading this could you introduce me to more people? my friends list is kinda small.....
hecubus1:
Feel free to come by and meet my meager friends list. What's important though is the quality of your friends, rather than the quantity.
kreatinkaos:
I stopped collecting friends a long time ago it seems , I will put in a good word for you with the decent ones though , have fun shopping
Seriously a good way to meet people from SG is to join some local groups and others that share common interests with you , 99% of my friends are from SGCT and we used to have weekly events plus a weekly night at a local goth - fetish club , and two nights a month we have an indie dance night and a goth night at the Webster underground , we trimmed the events back to 7 a month now , soon to be 8 events with our after hours movie night at a local theater . Even though I don't have a giant friends list , I have many from the various groups I belong to , and we only communicate on the respective group pages , my core group of friends are the ones I see two to three times a month minimum .
Our best event is our weekly Wednesday night event called FLUX , the event is hosted at Gotham City Cafe , which is the largest night club in the Mass , Connecticut , and NewYork area , though the place is primarily a gay bar the Wednesday night FLUX party is a goth - bondage fetish night , with a live bondage show and industrial house music , there is even a bondage cross for patrons to play on
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Seriously a good way to meet people from SG is to join some local groups and others that share common interests with you , 99% of my friends are from SGCT and we used to have weekly events plus a weekly night at a local goth - fetish club , and two nights a month we have an indie dance night and a goth night at the Webster underground , we trimmed the events back to 7 a month now , soon to be 8 events with our after hours movie night at a local theater . Even though I don't have a giant friends list , I have many from the various groups I belong to , and we only communicate on the respective group pages , my core group of friends are the ones I see two to three times a month minimum .
Our best event is our weekly Wednesday night event called FLUX , the event is hosted at Gotham City Cafe , which is the largest night club in the Mass , Connecticut , and NewYork area , though the place is primarily a gay bar the Wednesday night FLUX party is a goth - bondage fetish night , with a live bondage show and industrial house music , there is even a bondage cross for patrons to play on
[Edited on Feb 06, 2005 12:41PM]
rose early in the morn for an "early risers" meeting. Sinful cinnabon for breakfast (so that means a trip to the gym later) enjoying my wicked witch of the west tights and ruby slippers. Watching Fahrenheit 9/11 but getting more pissed by the minute. Going to watch Shaun Of The Dead instead(love that flick). When I went into the bathroom to wash my face it...
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elfboy:
My dear, you are special. It's just a project I'm working on w/ some SGs....
Please don't be sad......
'Kay?
Please don't be sad......
'Kay?
elfboy:
Hi, Miss Moontide.
okie dokie my internet is truely and finally sent up. Yea! my little laptop is finally hooked up! I have a kinda sickening attachment to my laptop apparently.....
I have 49 days now !
i'm going for my 90 chip. well, that's getting ahead- one day at a time. I just want to say again that Nixon is sooooooo beautiful. I want to play with...
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I have 49 days now !
i'm going for my 90 chip. well, that's getting ahead- one day at a time. I just want to say again that Nixon is sooooooo beautiful. I want to play with... Read More
kreatinkaos:
I used to own a tiny cottage on the beach in Westbrook , Ct . and when I would spend my weekends there during the winter , I would allways sleep in front of the fireplace , but one year I gave in and installed a real heating system and converted the place to a year round residence , before it had been sitting on six foot high stilts and the wind would whistle through under the place and right in front of the fireplace was the only warm spot during the winter .
I want to get another cat now , I had an all black stray that had adopted me , but this summer , a bobcat killed it on my back deck . I had named the cat Mr. Jigs , cause he had been hit by a car and left partially maimed so when he walked he looked like he was dancing a jig . He was the most affectionate cat , and a great hunter who would allways bring me gifts in the form of live birds and live squirels , which he would sneek into the house the moment I opened a door .
Congratulations on being halfway to your 90 day chip , and don't let yourself be burdened with other peoples myths , some things are best left where they belong ...... IN THE PAST . A good way to help make some of your hopes and dreams come true is to just take small baby steps in the right direction , that way you don't fall as hard during lifes little pittfalls .
By the way ......... what planet are you from anyways ? Just kidding , I have to go check out that Nixon set now
I want to get another cat now , I had an all black stray that had adopted me , but this summer , a bobcat killed it on my back deck . I had named the cat Mr. Jigs , cause he had been hit by a car and left partially maimed so when he walked he looked like he was dancing a jig . He was the most affectionate cat , and a great hunter who would allways bring me gifts in the form of live birds and live squirels , which he would sneek into the house the moment I opened a door .
Congratulations on being halfway to your 90 day chip , and don't let yourself be burdened with other peoples myths , some things are best left where they belong ...... IN THE PAST . A good way to help make some of your hopes and dreams come true is to just take small baby steps in the right direction , that way you don't fall as hard during lifes little pittfalls .
By the way ......... what planet are you from anyways ? Just kidding , I have to go check out that Nixon set now
Why you say that?
You are none of the above...
Well, maybe stinky, but that's remedied easily enough...