A strange melancholy has descended on me this week, I feel as if I am balencing on a wire above icy water. What makes me sad and what I still fear I cannot yet define. I lose my shoe in the icy depths below, and shudder to think what will happen if I should fall.
I must now look ahead and not down, breath deep...
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I have absolutely nothing to say today, and it kills me!
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threestares:
greed is an insatiable appetite that never finds fulfillment. dangerous.
freyja__:
i dont believe that.
Yesterday was my first hike since moving to the northwest, saw not one, not two, but three and a half waterfalls, found a medow in the middle of the woods. Life is good! 
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palindrome:
sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushisushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushisushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi sushi
... so what did you want for dinner tonight, baby?
... so what did you want for dinner tonight, baby?
palindrome:
Nevermind...
[Edited on Jun 26, 2005 2:00PM]
[Edited on Jun 26, 2005 2:00PM]
Idiot wind,
blowing through the buttons in our coats,
blowing through the letters that we wrote,
idiot wind,
blowing through the dust upon our shelves,
it's a wonder we can even feed ourselves...
A call to end all thoughtless action and miscommunication.
The time for confusion and doubt is over, to be replaced by an overabundance of endless and unequivocal love.
blowing through the buttons in our coats,
blowing through the letters that we wrote,
idiot wind,
blowing through the dust upon our shelves,
it's a wonder we can even feed ourselves...
A call to end all thoughtless action and miscommunication.
The time for confusion and doubt is over, to be replaced by an overabundance of endless and unequivocal love.
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palindrome:
Main Entry: mendacious
Pronunciation: men-'dA-sh&s
Function: adjective
Etymology: Latin mendac-, mendax -- more at AMEND
: given to or characterized by deception or falsehood or divergence from absolute truth <mendacious tales of his adventures>
synonym see DISHONEST
- mendaciously adverb
- mendaciousness noun
Aww, I said you needed some new adjectives. Yay for you!
Pronunciation: men-'dA-sh&s
Function: adjective
Etymology: Latin mendac-, mendax -- more at AMEND
: given to or characterized by deception or falsehood or divergence from absolute truth <mendacious tales of his adventures>
synonym see DISHONEST
- mendaciously adverb
- mendaciousness noun
Aww, I said you needed some new adjectives. Yay for you!
figmentation:
there's a difference between conficence and boasting
Saw "I ♥ Huckabees" last night. Amusing as it was I found it to be a very shallow read of post-modern existentialism, yet still nearly as tedious as reading being and nothingness.
For me; existentialism is a safety reaction, a defense against an ever growing understanding of how fucked up the world actuallly is. I am inclined to bury myself in hedonism and selfishness,...
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For me; existentialism is a safety reaction, a defense against an ever growing understanding of how fucked up the world actuallly is. I am inclined to bury myself in hedonism and selfishness,...
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freyja__:
this entry reminded me how much i disliked reading the unbearable lightness of being.
wtf:
I have to laugh at freyja's comment. But I feel deliriourly happy myself so I just laugh at most things.
Holy fuck my life is serendipitous sometimes! 
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palindrome:
Theres a blues club that I had forgotten I wanted to check out... maybe we can break the vicious Basement cycle. Or not. 
With your sheets like metal and your belt like lace,
And your deck of cards missing the jack and the ace,
And your basement clothes and your hollow face,
Who among them can think he could outguess you?
With your silhouette when the sunlight dims
Into your eyes where the moonlight swims,
And your match-book songs and your gypsy hymns,
Who among them would try...
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And your deck of cards missing the jack and the ace,
And your basement clothes and your hollow face,
Who among them can think he could outguess you?
With your silhouette when the sunlight dims
Into your eyes where the moonlight swims,
And your match-book songs and your gypsy hymns,
Who among them would try...
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palindrome:
Happy birthday, a day late.
It wasn't really as bad as all that, was it? I thought it went off rather nicely, aside from the pouding in my head this morning...
It wasn't really as bad as all that, was it? I thought it went off rather nicely, aside from the pouding in my head this morning...
shivasshakti:
Happy late birthday - the pictures were indeed brilliant! It's amazing how the most innocent moments are often the most artistic. Sounds like fun!
"The sufferings are enormous, but one has to be tough, one has to be born a poet and I've come to realize I'm a poet. It's wrong to say: I think. One has to say: I am thought ... I is another. Too bad for the wood that finds itself a violin, to hell with the unaware who babble and cackle about things they can't...
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palindrome:
I love you!
palindrome:
Ass.
I'm here, I'm safe, I'm having a great time. The isolation of being alone in a strange city is a powerful tool for reflection. I feel somthing gestating inside of me, something that will spill out in the near future in the form of long rambling prose. I'm considering buying an old typewriter, I cannot finish anything with a pen, only anotate. I am pleasantly...
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threestares:
yes, and things are also simpler than i make them out to be. therefore no more shoulda, coulda, woulda....
catdad:
Welcome to Portland.
Monday morning I'm gone, I may not have internet access for a few weeks, so I could be incognito for a bit. There is so much about my last week in California that I want to say, but for the moment I am at a loss. Perhaps it needs to be reflected upon, to ferment before I can speak.
through this open world I'm a'bound...
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through this open world I'm a'bound...
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freyja__:
dont die please.
thanks.
thanks.
shivasshakti:
Good luck with all your travels...
Enjoy life - it's good!
Enjoy life - it's good!
sometimes i make an assumption and then another and so on until i am sitting up on a whole heap of them. i sprinkle on some expectations and viola it is a tower of power. albeit doomed to fall.
today i saw it happening and realized that it will inevitably crash. this will occur sooner than later.
i decided to take the alarm approach. like the ferry captain who blew the horn for 4 minutes while the ship crashed in slow motion.