Last July I quit my job at the restaurant Blue Hour, effectively telling the Sous Chef to fuck off for being a douche, also the company was insanely micro managed and becoming more and more corporate every day -- roundsmen employees hired to fill shifts at their three restaurants. I now work at the restaurant called ClarkLewis, and it's wonderful, I was hired in a... Read More
sorry about ur job what was last night's call? hope you have a good weekend either way, i'm applying for yet more jobs as i recieved a rejection yesterday for the box office job. they haven't returned my feedback call but i'm hoping they think i'm over qualified, because i'm so experienced it's not funny!!! arrghh. hehehehe
Life imitates art. Sometimes I wonder why I do such stupid things -- perspective most likely. On a happy note, I'm going hiking on the coasrt with my friends later this week, some trees and fresh air will do me wonders.
I am undertaking the most ambitious reading adventure ever. I am re-reading the modernists, Joyce, Lawrence, Camus as well as a few books of criticism. The first paragraph of "Lady Chaterly's Lover" is one of the most profound and profetic statements ever made in literature.
Ours is an essentially tragic age, so we refuse to take it tragicly.The cataclysm has happened, we are among the... Read More
i don't know about wise decisions....maybe you just wanted to spend some alone time with your bedside lamp because you are embarking on one of the greatest literary journeys of all time
(that isn't strictly true, and even if it were i'm in no position to judge it. but i always wanted to be a voiceover and that made it sound kind of exciting eh? )
anywho, if you are, please read Gertrude Steins 'Autobiography of Alice. B. Toklas' because it's a lovely little book and that woman fascinates me to no end. (again. i'm being really dramatic. there probably is an end to that somewhere.)
And I would go on to recommend F. Scott Fitzgerald's Tender is the Night if you have time, and some poetry; T.S. Eliot and Auden but not Ezra Pound because I haven't got to grips with him yet although I'm trying...... )
oh. and as for your comment, i'm fearful my circular treading is already so far ingrained
that my feet would find any new land foreign and cease to function. or that could be the lamest excuse i've ever made myself to write a sentence that is yet again dramatic, and as always, quite devoid of meaning
Tired, but in a very good way. Last night saw another epic meeting of what is coming to be called "The Nerdy Boys Club". Myself, my friends Dave and Sandy (she's the only girl, but she has the largest cock, so she's in by default), Alex and Traci (it's not his fault he has a girl's name, he's Irish). We got wasted and talked music,... Read More
I understand her reasons behind why she is making the decisions she has. I just wish she had the strength to do what she knows is right. It upsets me as much as it does because even though we're not the same person, I wonder whether I would make any decision differently in her shoes....her successes I feel are my own, in a way, and same with her failures.
Sometimes I wonder if I will ever get a good night sleep. I stay up late, yet somehow am unable to sleep in.
Today has been mellow, bought some ferns and flowers for the house, I think I want to see a film tonight. The novel seems to be on hold, we'll see if I can muster any productivity after a late afternoon nap.
Well, the marriage "just didn't work out." I wanted to move and attend law school, and he didn't. So I went anyway!
And I'm in law school in San Diego; it's called Thomas Jefferson School of Law and is pretty laid-back. I just finished my last second-semester midterm today, so I'm preparing myself for a week or two of good old-fashioned debauchery!
And I haven't been doing any writing lately, unfortunately. Law school, boys, and work have been taking up too much time for my own good!
And you? Why the big move? And Barcelona?! I'm officially jealous!
Literature vs. life. I have been spending much time with a writer who writes political novels under the pen name "Francis McCay". When I first read her writing I was struck by the delicacy of her words. My ego poked (an egoists hates the idea that anyone is better at anything -- Falacy one), I scrutanized her poems, reading and re-reading. Last week we shared... Read More
Ups and downs lately. I have decided to not smoke weed until I get my shit together -- when I'm uncertain about myself I get ridiculously paranoid, yet my conscious self is aware that I'm being absurd, so there's nothing to do but try to sleep (ussually failing to do so). I made a passive aggresive comment at work yesteday, one of the exact sort... Read More
It seems I am immersed in non-virtual living. I stare at your wonderful and thoughtful blogs and think about how I should have something to say, but I just don't feel like writing it. I'll be around, albiet in an abbreviated way. Joy be with you all!
i am so glad to hear that because it won't be long now before we two will be bummin around your town.
and i'm right there with you on the sentiment expressed above. i feel like i've got nothing to reciprocate to the virtual realm right now. the real world is much better. and we will know that for a fact in a matter of days.
(a)With every advance from the known to the unknown, the mystery increases
(b)Here I am, walking about on two legs wioth a name-- the whole intellectual history of Europe from Rabelias to de Sade.
(c)Man will be happy when his Gods perfect themselves.
(d)Even the Saint dies with all his imperfections on his head.
(e)Such a one might be above divne reproach, beneath human contempt.... Read More
It seems that foreign films always hit me in the gut,valways describing in exaggerated detail the relationships In have had recently. This film, "The Caimen" made me laugh at the ridiculousness of my own (and probably all human) behavior. I have a free festival pass to the rest of the PIFF (Portland International Film Festival) and I've decided to take in a film before work... Read More
I think perhaps it is the ramekins I'm using too. Often they will sit in the fridge for a day before I actually bake them, but having two different sets (both 7oz) I find that one cooks more quickly than the other.
The minimum is still 12 minutes though, which is perplexing. My oven is rather new and logically should be hotter....
Then again I often find little logic in cooking itself, it seems to be more a matter of luck for me
And regarding your comment on seizures - I can only tell you what the mini seizures feel like as I tend to lose consciousness and miss gaps of time before, during, and after a seizure. The small ones though that I sometimes get quite often feel like an intense feeling of deja-vu, of rising out of the body, oftentimes mixed with intense fear or anxiety for a few seconds. And then it passes. I also sometimes smell chalk dust right before, and if I'm having auras that can last for hours my sight of vision starts to take on a video-game like quality.
what was last night's call? 
hope you have a good weekend either way, i'm applying for yet more jobs as i recieved a rejection yesterday for the box office job. they haven't returned my feedback call but i'm hoping they think i'm over qualified, because i'm so experienced it's not funny!!! arrghh. 
hehehehe 
