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It seems that foreign films always hit me in the gut,valways describing in exaggerated detail the relationships In have had recently. This film, "The Caimen" made me laugh at the ridiculousness of my own (and probably all human) behavior. I have a free festival pass to the rest of the PIFF (Portland International Film Festival) and I've decided to take in a film before work...
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mrschainsaw:
I think perhaps it is the ramekins I'm using too. Often they will sit in the fridge for a day before I actually bake them, but having two different sets (both 7oz) I find that one cooks more quickly than the other.

The minimum is still 12 minutes though, which is perplexing. My oven is rather new and logically should be hotter....

Then again I often find little logic in cooking itself, it seems to be more a matter of luck for me tongue
mrschainsaw:
And regarding your comment on seizures - I can only tell you what the mini seizures feel like as I tend to lose consciousness and miss gaps of time before, during, and after a seizure. The small ones though that I sometimes get quite often feel like an intense feeling of deja-vu, of rising out of the body, oftentimes mixed with intense fear or anxiety for a few seconds. And then it passes. I also sometimes smell chalk dust right before, and if I'm having auras that can last for hours my sight of vision starts to take on a video-game like quality.
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Sorry about the cryptic, morose entry. Things are finally calm, after what seems like years of turmoil. Lemon caviar experiments this weekend, I've figured the technique out, just a matter of proportion. How much agar agar to how much water? What temperature? How thick to make the lemon puree? I am also having a creme brulee competition with a friend this sunday, I always win...
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mrschainsaw:
I like my recipe because it came out of a 30-minutes or less book smile
It is the same as yours, except the ramekins can go straight into the oven when filled.
I need to cook for 12 - 14 minutes though to get the right consistency - otherwise when I turn the ramekin over liquid chocolate pours out, which defeats my purpose of a chocolate lava cake. Still trying to work out the timing - it changes sometimes.
ontothenext:
Lemon caviar... thats something I've never had! Good luck with the recipe!
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Funny, I don't feel sad at all. Maybe she was right when she said, "you don't actually feel anything for me, you just feel lke you should." Yet another bridge burned, I wonder how much longer I can continue this way. Time to forge the friendships I already have.

On a less cryptic note, I opened my knife callus again, painful. It seems to happen...
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niobe:
*hugs*
_biblia_:
thanks for the message. i'll read it when i get a good chunk of time!
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[man:] so i say still away sleep close my eyes
an image of your face traced in white sand
underneath undefined i lay down arms outstretched
i embrace the fall.
and all the time i tried
to let you know discomfort comes clearly.

sometimes you see right through me

[angel:] words. you're married to your pain

[man:] although you hit me hard i come back...
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mrschainsaw:
and Happy Valentine's Day to you as well smile
mrschainsaw:
Curious....recovering lying piece of shit?
Don't feel obligated to answer....or answer honestly tongue
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Had an interesting conversation with an old friend yesterday. He is a Christian, but one of the educated new breed of Christians that drink smoke and fuck, he said to me, "I have enough trouble trying to work out my own relationship with God to worry about what others are doing." I think that's beautiful. I love selfish-actualization wherever it may occur. I've grown past...
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redmess:
all i do is try to live by the universal golden rule/kharmic energy exchange. my brain can't keep up with ideologies, philosophies, morals, and values beyond that. blush

and no, i haven't listened to that record or even heard of that guy. so i expect you to fill me in when i get to pdx.
missshell:
awww i/d pick you as i would my boogers...<3
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Lord, it would seem that my journals have been very poorly written as of late.

I've been having this strange culinary fantasy involving meeting Ferran Adria on the streets of Barcelona. I imagine that he would recodnize the madness in my eyes and invite me back for the 2008 season at El Bulli. It would be something else, working at the most sought after restaurtant...
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niobe:
Eek, sorry, I didn't mean to insult you. frown
ashcanrantings:
Rightfully so my friend.
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Yesterday was awesome. I am not a football fan, but I am a fan of wine and beer and of shouting -- so faking an interest in football is easy. I went to brunch with some of my friends and some of their new friends, most work at Carafe, a French Bistro downtown. The chef was there, this massive jolly Frenchman (see the background of...
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niobe:
Yes.
bunny:
Funny...I do a fake football "orgasm" better than any other, but I still can't muster any enthusiasm for the actual game...what a waste! wink

Sorry to be gone for so long...I get so caught up in school that SG often gets put by the wayside. Even now, I am chastising myself for not getting to my pile of homework. biggrin
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"Alexander the Great had asses' ears though only one person knew his secret"

Don't we all have asses' ears?
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redmess:
what a good friend to have!
_biblia_:
haha, thanks. hopefully it scars-- i like having fun scar stories to tell. . . .
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I love my job. However morose I am feeling (see last blog), the boys there always cheer me up. Imagine cooking amazing food all day with the most skilled and talented cooks imagineable, but drinking like it's a frat party and joking like sixth grade boys. Saturday we had "Nacho Fever" and made the worlds largest batch of nachos, fifteen pounds of them, maybe more....
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_biblia_:
man. now i want nachos. and a HUGE bowl of guacamole.
redmess:
i would love to have been a fly on the wall through that epic nacho fest.

and i'm glad writing is going well again!

xo
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mrschainsaw:
I have the property itch, hence why it seems sooner for me....but who knows what the next year will bring, I'm still recovering from 2006, and it could be that my decision to buy is held off longer than I expect. But that's life.
mrschainsaw:
I've always known Toronto is home so its never been a question of where really....I don't even really have a true inclination towards a certain area of the city, where I buy will depend mostly on price and property value....oh, and I suppose whether I can safely walk outside.
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I'd like to think of my work simply as a cradle in which philosiphy could rock itself to sleep, thumb in mouth
-Lawrence Durrell



If I stayed behind,
would you let your hair grow?
I will forget,
the favours that you owe.
i'm dreaming of car wrecks and thunderstorms bright,
let's bury ourselves,
and go haunt someone tonight

i know you tried,
i know you're...
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mrschainsaw:
I have pretty high standards in general, but don't think I'm unrealistic, and I can be extremely forgiving.
mrschainsaw:
I understand, it took quite a bit of drama before I was able to say the same. Better late than never though.