Thursday Mar 29, 2007

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Things happen so fast, all of this, everything I see will be so far that it will barely exist. I will me this place. I will miss these peope. I only wish I had met them sooner.

For the first time, I am afraid of my rusty flamethrowers, of my burnt out torches. Why?
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mrschainsaw:
Oh yes, leg warmers and tights are all the rage, I may decide to jump on the bandwagon because I've actually kept the legwarmers that I wore in the '80s as a child. Just one of those things that I never threw out.....along with my Rainbow Brite blanket.......
redmess:
ugh, sorry i didn't call last night. i went with the rinster to get pad thai then came home and passed out on the couch around 9. i don't think i've done that since high school. and i slept ALL day today. jeez. i'm leaving the house to get fresh air. are you working tonight? probably. i'll be up late if you wanna call. otherwise let me know when would be a good time.

Sunday Mar 25, 2007

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Ok, sorry about that. I am out of the funky hole (whole?). I am still employed, my friends are still astounding, my cats are still adorable -- what right do I have to complain? My finger is healing beautifully, courtesy of neosporin and latex gloves. My hand should be back to normal (minus a few nerve endings) by the end of the week, I just...
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redmess:
"Ick, head in a fog today. caffeine seems to avail me not."
man, i've had three -3!!!- americanos today and i still feel like i've been hit by a train...
why?

and i am very intrigued by the thought of shatner as a serial-killer circa 1974. what movie?
redmess:
if i weren't so terrified of the telephone, i'd totally call you right now. blush

and they told me alcohol was liquid courage? liars...

Friday Mar 23, 2007

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I am in a funk, a serious funk. Yestreday was epicly exhausting. I am terrified about my job, I met a friend for coffee who works at one of Bruce's (the new owner) other restaurants, and he keeps his ear to the ground. I find that massive staffing restructuring will happen in the kitchen and my "meeting" with Bruce tommorow is in essence a job...
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dinah:
durka durka..... tongue haha. I think I came across you in the beat group, or one of the writing groups. Oh, I know EXACTLY what you are going through. It seems like the entire world is in transition. I had all of my plans fall at my feet and there was nothing I could do about it. So, I am living completely on my instincts, and just last night, after a few months of total freak out, I feel like I am exactly where I need to be. Unemployed, yes, settling into a new home, yes, but, things are looking up. Just don't forget that things will change, and they will get better. Hang with your friends, have fun tonight, laugh lots. It's the best thing for you at the moment. smile
dinah:
where are you gonna go? Everyone I know seems to be moving to Portland right now. And you're leaving...what are you doing in Portland? My job hunt is going pretty good...I start cocktailing at a blues bar next week, I was offered a job at an organic caf today, and my good friend of mine has offered me a job at the local organic market...I have a few choices to make. AND I just jumped onto a film project, which won't pay for a few years, but it's worth it to me. So, life is good and looking up in a big way. biggrin I be so happy right now.

Wednesday Mar 21, 2007

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Last July I quit my job at the restaurant Blue Hour, effectively telling the Sous Chef to fuck off for being a douche, also the company was insanely micro managed and becoming more and more corporate every day -- roundsmen employees hired to fill shifts at their three restaurants. I now work at the restaurant called ClarkLewis, and it's wonderful, I was hired in a...
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blackink:
sorry about ur job frown what was last night's call? whatever hope you have a good weekend either way, i'm applying for yet more jobs as i recieved a rejection yesterday for the box office job. they haven't returned my feedback call but i'm hoping they think i'm over qualified, because i'm so experienced it's not funny!!! arrghh. mad hehehehe
dinah:
woah, durka durka. I used an aweful lot of 'todays' in that last post. yeesh. "What's with today, today?" blush

Sunday Mar 18, 2007

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Life imitates art. Sometimes I wonder why I do such stupid things -- perspective most likely. On a happy note, I'm going hiking on the coasrt with my friends later this week, some trees and fresh air will do me wonders.
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redmess:
can't say that i am.
redmess:
yeah, yeah, yeah, and i'm only on suicide girls for the articles tongue

i've got the nerve and am gonna go listen to that song now.

Thursday Mar 15, 2007

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I am undertaking the most ambitious reading adventure ever. I am re-reading the modernists, Joyce, Lawrence, Camus as well as a few books of criticism. The first paragraph of "Lady Chaterly's Lover" is one of the most profound and profetic statements ever made in literature.

Ours is an essentially tragic age, so we refuse to take it tragicly.The cataclysm has happened, we are among the...
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blackink:
i don't know about wise decisions....maybe you just wanted to spend some alone time with your bedside lamp because you are embarking on one of the greatest literary journeys of all time biggrin

(that isn't strictly true, and even if it were i'm in no position to judge it. but i always wanted to be a voiceover and that made it sound kind of exciting eh? tongue)

anywho, if you are, please read Gertrude Steins 'Autobiography of Alice. B. Toklas' because it's a lovely little book and that woman fascinates me to no end. (again. i'm being really dramatic. there probably is an end to that somewhere.)

And I would go on to recommend F. Scott Fitzgerald's Tender is the Night if you have time, and some poetry; T.S. Eliot and Auden but not Ezra Pound because I haven't got to grips with him yet although I'm trying......blush )

oh. and as for your comment, i'm fearful my circular treading is already so far ingrained
that my feet would find any new land foreign and cease to function. or that could be the lamest excuse i've ever made myself to write a sentence that is yet again dramatic, and as always, quite devoid of meaning whatever
redmess:
wow. i feel so illiterate compared to you. i'm heading to the library. smile

Sunday Mar 11, 2007

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Tired, but in a very good way. Last night saw another epic meeting of what is coming to be called "The Nerdy Boys Club". Myself, my friends Dave and Sandy (she's the only girl, but she has the largest cock, so she's in by default), Alex and Traci (it's not his fault he has a girl's name, he's Irish). We got wasted and talked music,...
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redmess:
^^^
yeah, what she said. wink
mrschainsaw:
I understand her reasons behind why she is making the decisions she has. I just wish she had the strength to do what she knows is right. It upsets me as much as it does because even though we're not the same person, I wonder whether I would make any decision differently in her shoes....her successes I feel are my own, in a way, and same with her failures.

Thursday Mar 08, 2007

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Sometimes I wonder if I will ever get a good night sleep. I stay up late, yet somehow am unable to sleep in.

Today has been mellow, bought some ferns and flowers for the house, I think I want to see a film tonight. The novel seems to be on hold, we'll see if I can muster any productivity after a late afternoon nap.
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redmess:
enjoy your morning and i hope work goes by quickly tonight. i'm off to get coffee.
can't wait untill we will be doing the same. kiss
shivasshakti:
Well, the marriage "just didn't work out." I wanted to move and attend law school, and he didn't. So I went anyway! wink

And I'm in law school in San Diego; it's called Thomas Jefferson School of Law and is pretty laid-back. I just finished my last second-semester midterm today, so I'm preparing myself for a week or two of good old-fashioned debauchery!

And I haven't been doing any writing lately, unfortunately. Law school, boys, and work have been taking up too much time for my own good!

And you? Why the big move? And Barcelona?! I'm officially jealous!

Sunday Mar 04, 2007

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Literature vs. life. I have been spending much time with a writer who writes political novels under the pen name "Francis McCay". When I first read her writing I was struck by the delicacy of her words. My ego poked (an egoists hates the idea that anyone is better at anything -- Falacy one), I scrutanized her poems, reading and re-reading. Last week we shared...
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ninjatoes:
You can crack my rib anytime baby wink

Thursday Mar 01, 2007

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Ups and downs lately. I have decided to not smoke weed until I get my shit together -- when I'm uncertain about myself I get ridiculously paranoid, yet my conscious self is aware that I'm being absurd, so there's nothing to do but try to sleep (ussually failing to do so). I made a passive aggresive comment at work yesteday, one of the exact sort...
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mrschainsaw:
I must get some recipes off you one day....but for now, I go home early!
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redmess:
oh my god. apparently i'm partially retarded.
but i still blame the lack of caffeine.

and i'm sure there are ways to prevent you from being grumpy in the morning time.
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Sunday Feb 25, 2007

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I think I'm going to be fairly quiet for awhile.

It seems I am immersed in non-virtual living. I stare at your wonderful and thoughtful blogs and think about how I should have something to say, but I just don't feel like writing it. I'll be around, albiet in an abbreviated way. Joy be with you all!
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mrschainsaw:
Come back soon, I like your blogs smile
redmess:
i am so glad to hear that because it won't be long now before we two will be bummin around your town. smile

and i'm right there with you on the sentiment expressed above. i feel like i've got nothing to reciprocate to the virtual realm right now. the real world is much better. and we will know that for a fact in a matter of days.
kiss

Thursday Feb 22, 2007

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(a)With every advance from the known to the unknown, the mystery increases
(b)Here I am, walking about on two legs wioth a name-- the whole intellectual history of Europe from Rabelias to de Sade.
(c)Man will be happy when his Gods perfect themselves.
(d)Even the Saint dies with all his imperfections on his head.
(e)Such a one might be above divne reproach, beneath human contempt....
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redmess:
Dog is love!

rain i can handle, except when i'm hobbling at a snail's pass due to my current condition.
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