shaneka

wtf. Thanks...Now I really don't want to go to sleep

yea bear hugging heart makes it okay. except if I scroll up a wee bit. there that freaky shit is again.

Being a filmmaker...I didn't learn all I needed to know in school by a long shot, but I met some cool folks who I happen to still work with. As for equipment...GO TO EBAY!!!! Save yourself some $$ and buy 16mm cameras and shoot film. Much better. Shoot shorts and edit them. Learn about rhythm, pacing, shot selection, cinematography, and acting. Read books from Faber and Faber press about filmmakers and learn their methods. Develop your own. Keep a journal. Think hard, devote your life to it, FILM is now your religion.

Because otherwise...you're just wasting your time.

just so you know i took off the wednesday and the friday the week your coming...

that's very sweet of you! but i'm slightly confused. i'm not wearing a corset or fishnets in my new set. i just put up a new one today! have you seen it yet?







[Edited on Jun 19, 2005 5:17PM]

no apologies necessary, i just wanted to make sure you got to see my new nudity!

I dont know anyone who could possibly pass judgement and take resposibility by making a decision on that one...either way you are taking a pretty serious leap of faith into a situation that could potentially not work.

Which would be worse to you? Taking on a HUGE loan, working where you work now, going to school, signing up for another few years of hard work, graduate, and try to find work and make money. ( because, lets face it, we both chose fields that are not at all guaranteed, your direction being way more difficult). Or post-pone school, with the risk of never going back for whatever reason, trying to slam down credit cards and work where you work now, take out a less substantial, but equally as terrifying, loan, and try to do some work to either go back to school or hopefully get steady jobs and make a living?

as for whatever was in the past, it really doesnt make a difference now. you really dont know if you missed you chance then at a good oppurtunity or just a bunch of bullshit. no use allowing the unknown affect your decision.

i'm off work right now. think i'll go have a piece of bread.

I'm keeping my account open for another few weeks...i have unfinished babbling...

Thanks for your concern over my legal fiasco...if only i had MJ's lawyers.

Glad to see you are still around! I had noticed you hadnt updated in a while...

Good luck with the apartment hunting.

Margate can be nice if you are in the right area. Coral Springs is the best hands down, though. But, I'm baised. I grew up there.

Good to hear you still have a heartbeat.

woo hoo, browner!

you are very beautiful.

For that much money I would rather have a tattoo

smart place to work there all the other areas suck assi worked 5 internet services there has them stupid tag shirts burried in closet. any way theres gonna be a cajun fest at quiet waters park deerfield this week end should be fun and great food. Have a good friday 13th

diaper change too?

i'm a bit more anxious than excited at this point....

I agree...gas is WAY too expensive.

BAHHH!!! did not like the clown porn...

Sound like things might be moving at light sped for you. You just broke up with someone else, and you and Mike are already living together? maybe , honestly, you should get your OWN spot. let him come to you. Seeing that he is not completely done with his ex, and he can't tell her about you, which makes me wonder why? I mean, are they trying to work it out? If not, he should have nothing to hide. Your love for him is an asset not a hinderance.

i like that...expecially the part about getting your OWN place, let the thing between him and his wife be completely over...i know its rough to just let it go...especially with strong feeling involved...but well, i sure wouldnt want to feel like i had to be sneaking around and feeling wrong about my life...feeling like i have to hide anything...

sorry to hear the shit is hittin the fan for ya take a step back and see the big picture again that might help. you dont work at T A G do you by chance ?

i don't know honey.

actually you know what, sometimes I don't feel like I'm doing enough. I think that's just the self-torturing side of me talking...

i'd like to think that I'll me better after the invitations go out, i've set the deadline in my head for the end of the month, but I still haven't gotten the addresses from the boy--and as much as I keep asking and asking, he just asn't given them to me. so i'm tired of nagging him. so i don't know what's going to happen with that...

[Edited on Apr 24, 2005 11:38AM]

that sucks....