shakti

Soon: Tea, cuddling, fig newtons, sex, booze, and love!

hooray for dates. and for gay hubbies.

Awwwwww, i LOVE the pictures ~ very cute ! did u just get married ? CONGRADS ! the makeup is AWESOME too !

YOU LOOKED AMAZING. My mom said you looked beautiful and to tell you she loves you. AND I LOVE YOU TOO.

smooch smooch

I love you so much.

congrats!

i was sad i couldnt go ~ do u have pics

sounds like a great time!! i missed the show in philly

I love it! And yeah, youre right. Columbus was a fuck face. We should just celebrate to celebrate and take a day off. No need for all this historical bullshit that is mostly lies! I feel bad for children. They get lied to more than anybody.

im broke ~ i want to meet you too !

Holy shit.

I really don't know what to say right now.

-TM

Picking off the scars of the past can be terribly painful--Especially when you realize in some ways you enabled it because you simply wanted to be loved--And a person like "him" thrives on making others feel worthless and nurtures self-loathing and hate--It's about power because deep down all people like "him" are amongst the most insecure and to live they must redirect it to someone else--And please I make no excuses for this person--He knew what he was about and did nothing to change it--The consequences of his life will certainly haunt him for the rest of his life--And good riddance--Be proud sweetie--Your not a victim your a survivor--When I was being sexually abused as a child my tormentors loved to play a game--One held me down and the other put his hand over my mouth and nose until I couldn't breathe--That's the first time I died--And the "mentor" of the duo would take me in front of the mirror and would in the coldest voice tell me I was the ugliest person he knew--I was shit,scum,and no one would ever want me because of this--And sadly I believed him and even today still do though I battle with myself now--Like you I am slowly moving away from the long shadows of my bogeymen--It is hard and painful as hell--But worth it--*hugs*--I have no doubts you will succeed sweetie--I sense a great strength in you and it will ever move you forward--Even on those bad days....

Alexis

P.S.--E-mail me anytime if ya need to talk or vent--Hell for any reason sweetie my door is always open


[Edited on Oct 10, 2005 12:13AM]

Pervert.

-TM

Alas we can't catch them all lol--Giving a name to something (like asking them if they are gay or not) can really send someone running because names (i.e. labels) have power and some prefer the ambiguity of things--But hey I'm sure you'll bait someone sooner or later Take care sweetie

I already filled out that application, I"m pretty sure I've interviewed too.

LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU.

You're hot.

Do me.

Love love lovey love love omg love love.

You're great.

Very nice.

-TM

Hmm thank you for your kind words in my journal--It always feel good to connect seeing I do so little of it--And intamacy with strangers--Well I see that as the best kind--Means the world still has some surprises-Good ones that don't tear at wounds to horribly--A reminder the world isn't such a damned lonely place as it can be for some--Anyways I found your words to be just as beautiful--Well and besides the pics above lol --Take care luv

-TM

Hmm having been at the hands of sociapaths myself I can completely empathize--They teach you some of the darkest truths in the worst ways--Your right wisdom and experience needn't not be in the guise of something evil and loathsome--I am glad that you have taken the strength and turned into some peace though I understand there are just some days that you just can't forget--Like the shadows in the room become threatening and you feel so small--But here's to ever moving forward madness and all --Take care luv

[Edited on Oct 03, 2005 5:49PM]

Somehow I ended up on your page... I dunno... a few random clicks and here I was.

Just wanted to say hi and say that I'm so glad that you found Eric (your partner?) who is open to you having other partners as well. It's not an easy road to travel unless you have great support...