So everyones life is going well and dandy and mine ... well mine has been treading water since I turned 18. I don't like the idea of being an adult cuz really Im just a frightened little child... jealousy is a childs emotion and thats all I can feel these days. that and desperation.
..... sorry I've been negative lately. There isn't much going on...
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..... sorry I've been negative lately. There isn't much going on...
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sigh .. sorry everyone I was mass trippin on shrooms when I wrote that last entry. If you wanna read it you can press the backwards journal button. if not well I guess your not missing much.
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jj_r0x0rz:
hehehe craazy crazzy aww i still think yer kewl hahaha
xatreyux:
oh contrare! i love them! and its funny because my elementary school was called Evergreen and i live in Mountlake Terrace (which is also my high schools name)
Im having this battle locked away in a dark room .... so deal.
Everytime I take this in I come out with a new perspective on myself.... very well
I've learned to discover that there is just something different, not bad nor good about the way my mind works. Just different. I long to find that type of connection with someone else.... someone who can...
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Everytime I take this in I come out with a new perspective on myself.... very well
I've learned to discover that there is just something different, not bad nor good about the way my mind works. Just different. I long to find that type of connection with someone else.... someone who can...
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stavrogin:
Vive la introversion![?] it's even better than colecovision.
lil_billy_ben:
Therapy worked for me. 
Billy
Ben
Billy
BenSo today was interesting. It started off with a weird dream... my dreams have been weird these days. The dream involved three people falling into a lake one was the girl Im in love with right now, the other a stranger and the other a girl who has a crush on me that I have been as what uninterested in as she has told me...
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klonopin_chugger:
sounded like a pretty heavy duty dream.oh well, video games solve everything. 
ryan:
nope your pizza adventure is safe-it is a small hole in the wall independent place, and not like domino's right? basically we have to stay away from mcd's, arby's, carls, etc... you know FAST FOOD joints.. like say you want a burger really bad and you know there is this diner down the street that has kick ass food.. go get yer burger on... just no fast food dude... i had a craving today... but i ate a salad instead.. hahah... i would love me a turkey burger with swiss and bacon soon tho... man oh man...
so friend says: I need me a girlfriend 
Scattershot replies: Yeah me too ... Scattershot gets cut off.
friend continues: But its tough man ..
so scattershot replies: Yeah I have a hard time with it.
friend keeps going: It is hard for me too cuz blah blah blah blah blah
Scattershot continues his though: Its hard for me cuz Im hideously ugly
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Scattershot replies: Yeah me too ... Scattershot gets cut off.
friend continues: But its tough man ..
so scattershot replies: Yeah I have a hard time with it.
friend keeps going: It is hard for me too cuz blah blah blah blah blah
Scattershot continues his though: Its hard for me cuz Im hideously ugly
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hopesfall:
if it makes you feel any better, my toilet will not flush and i have to take a shit
rustgiraffe:
don't be blue about the whole g/f thing. it will happen soon enough! sometimes 'friends' is the best way to start out anyways. so...feel better!!!
Today I move on back to the residence in the hammer. Maybe I'll have a roomate maybe they'll let me have my own room for a while. In that case party!! rock on!! but hey maybe if they do give me a new roomate right away he'll be a cool guy that respects other people instead of a loud mouth annoying jack ass.
new years...
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new years...
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ryan:
hahaha.. yhea too bad it's all the CNS!!!!!!
something like speed racer or scooby doo would be so much more fun!
something like speed racer or scooby doo would be so much more fun!
superscott:
hey you know what i was about to make a comment about mohawks xforce tattoo thing, then i remebered scattershot was the ninja guy from xforce. is that where you got the name? or not? word.
I DECLARE THIS THE SUMMER OF GEORGE!!!!!
well those are the words, or at least a close faxcimille of them from seinfeld that bare like a strong inspiration with this new year. (I tried to make that wordy and smart but I don't even know if I spelled half the words correctly), I digress. I am inspired to make this year the year of Scattershot...
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well those are the words, or at least a close faxcimille of them from seinfeld that bare like a strong inspiration with this new year. (I tried to make that wordy and smart but I don't even know if I spelled half the words correctly), I digress. I am inspired to make this year the year of Scattershot...
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littledeadkid:
freddy vs jason fucking kicked ass!!! and the sequil should be badass as well and where the hell can i here ur band dammit im really courious on whut u all sound like
jasperellah:
fast food will be the killer of all man! -Its soo good though.. and fast. hah. 
I know all about the shy thing. really sucks huh? -What sucks more is when people dont believe you're really shy.
-Good luck with dem reselutions..er whatev' its hard to find someone who actually recipricates too... You're not too shabby lookn' i sure you'll find someone great for you!
I know all about the shy thing. really sucks huh? -What sucks more is when people dont believe you're really shy.
-Good luck with dem reselutions..er whatev' its hard to find someone who actually recipricates too... You're not too shabby lookn' i sure you'll find someone great for you!
"and new years eve was as boring as heaven I watched flys fuck on channel eleven, there was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink."
that about sums it up, thanks Alkaline Trio. Although its not really my fault that I was sick was it. I did have a house party to go...
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that about sums it up, thanks Alkaline Trio. Although its not really my fault that I was sick was it. I did have a house party to go...
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jj_r0x0rz:
yea the sides are growing out haha
cereal_killer:
nice quotations man...
well, think of it this way if you had gone out you would have spent excessive amounts of cash that you probably can't afford to be wasting on alcohol.
get better man.
well, think of it this way if you had gone out you would have spent excessive amounts of cash that you probably can't afford to be wasting on alcohol.
get better man.
dizzyness, sore throat, exhaustion .... if I had any real plans for tonight I'd be pissed that Im this sick.
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klonopin_chugger:
bah new years parties are overated any ways......really they are...
jasperellah:
hahahaahh! someone else SICK too eh?!? haha! I dont feel so alone now. So what did you do for new years?
The only thing about autum to ashes, in my opinion that sounds anything like the used, is whoever the lead singer is sounds a lot like bert....but, that is in my opinion And the music is clearly a different style than the used. - but when i fisrt head autum, i thought it was the used. -Still, just an opinion, and still theyr a great band either way.
xoxo
haha! I dont feel so alone now. So what did you do for new years?
The only thing about autum to ashes, in my opinion that sounds anything like the used, is whoever the lead singer is sounds a lot like bert....but, that is in my opinion
And the music is clearly a different style than the used. - but when i fisrt head autum, i thought it was the used. -Still, just an opinion, and still theyr a great band either way.
xoxo
Okay so this was gonna wait till tomorrow, but Im excited about it.
Our meeting with Paul at Mastermind recording studios was awesome. We signed a contract to record 4 songs with them.
Holy crap they are a professional studio and we get to record with them. Oh wow Oh wow Oh wow. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! Our dates are set to record in the middle of...
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Our meeting with Paul at Mastermind recording studios was awesome. We signed a contract to record 4 songs with them.
Holy crap they are a professional studio and we get to record with them. Oh wow Oh wow Oh wow. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! Our dates are set to record in the middle of... Read More
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jasperellah:
woah, i dont think i can beat Germanys comments!! hah
they sound a lot like The Used to me for some reason... Autum to ashes, that is.
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they sound a lot like The Used to me for some reason... Autum to ashes, that is.
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ryan:
that's why i love my dog... she's always there...
have a safe one tonight!
have a safe one tonight!
kill no, I would sell my soul for you
I can still smell him on you
the one you love
my biggest mistake was taking part
in this unrequited love, and now
you're down for making me feel this way
so sing me a song
soft and delicate, and I will sing along
loud and angry
theres an idea in my mind
have to snatch...
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I can still smell him on you
the one you love
my biggest mistake was taking part
in this unrequited love, and now
you're down for making me feel this way
so sing me a song
soft and delicate, and I will sing along
loud and angry
theres an idea in my mind
have to snatch...
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klonopin_chugger:
good times!
dogslife:
Bwa?! Beat the Geeks? Why would you say that?
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I was hella-excited yesterday to be jamming again with the boys in even when empty (my band) and usually when we haven't practised in a while we have a really good jam and yesterday was no exception.
It was mine and jamie (guitar player) idea that I scream my lungs out at the end of a song for 7 minutes. Wow... and then we had...
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It was mine and jamie (guitar player) idea that I scream my lungs out at the end of a song for 7 minutes. Wow... and then we had...
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ryan:
yhea, you should totally read it... and we should give it up for new years together-that way we can support each other thru the withdrawls. cause you KNOW there's gonna be some withdrawl action goin on...
ryan:
sweet... ya you got only a few days left!!!
i just want a fucking bacon burger soo bad... you don't even know!!!