saintwithascope

I wrote something else in a drunken stupor last night, I'm not sure what I wrote because I deleted it before I read it...

Anyway... somehow I have to make this year better than all years before it. I'm really not sure how to do that... but I sure as hell have to try... unfortunately

For instance, my music for example... I can write a hundred songs... but if no one cares to listen to them... I've done all I can do... except write a good song I guess...

And women... it seems like I fall into two categories...

#1 - the "You're a great guy, you just aren't my type"
You know, that's basically them saying your ugly or boring or (and yes I've heard this) don't have cool enough hair or enough piercings or tattoo's...

#2 - the "It's not you it's me"
Which I heard last night, "I can't be your girlfriend because I'm a terrible person and you're too important to me, I cheat on people and I would inevitably cheat on you" Which is really just a polite way of saying "You're a great guy, you just aren't my type"

I know I shouldn't let it bother me so much... but after over four years... it's really starting to get at me... not being worth it to anyone...

I guess those are the two things I'd like more than anything... people to just listen to my music and someone to actually care about me enough to give me a chance at being a boyfriend... who knows maybe I'll suck at it, I wouldn't I haven't been anyone's in so long...

Here's to the new year