The worst thing about quitting C is that nobody thinks you can do it. I go into a bar for an hour and I must be buying it. I am a liar, I am up to my old ways. All I want is for that to go away. I feel like I should move somewhere distant.... If there is one thing that I despise it...
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mutual independence and smashing fascism. it was true love.
i'm dizzy and i didn't fall asleep last night. it could be warmer, my lungs are getting pretty bored of the cold. i still want to go fishing in mexico.
i'm dizzy and i didn't fall asleep last night. it could be warmer, my lungs are getting pretty bored of the cold. i still want to go fishing in mexico.
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doozer:
Peter Pan, Pshhh. It's all about the creamy goodness of JIF 
It is a terrible comparison! but, knowing your few true quality friends and chronic is much better than a large quantity of questionable associates and bags of swag.
Your strength and will power are astounding!
That's so cool you have a cat. Awww
I like the cold and unfortunately so do my lungs. They and my bronchial tubes are having a continuously loud party.
Happy reading.
It is a terrible comparison! but, knowing your few true quality friends and chronic is much better than a large quantity of questionable associates and bags of swag.
Your strength and will power are astounding!
That's so cool you have a cat. Awww
I like the cold and unfortunately so do my lungs. They and my bronchial tubes are having a continuously loud party.
Happy reading.
talisman:
more to the last post: staring into the world stone cold sober makes for some interesting viewing.
Drinking myself into a numb stupor was, for the longest time, the only way I knew how to deal with the constant barrage of insanity this way-fucked-up-at-times country of ours spews.
The world is still bonkers, but I'm mostly okay with it now, even after the last two or three beer-free years.
Oh, and you've always been hot. Nothing sexier than one grown into her own skin tho
Drinking myself into a numb stupor was, for the longest time, the only way I knew how to deal with the constant barrage of insanity this way-fucked-up-at-times country of ours spews.
The world is still bonkers, but I'm mostly okay with it now, even after the last two or three beer-free years.
Oh, and you've always been hot. Nothing sexier than one grown into her own skin tho
I turned on the television. Tonight on the news "Peter Pan peanut butter on RECALL!!!!!"....This is the most important piece of information on the local news, complete with it's own theme song. I fucking hate television. Oh Jesus, get in the basement, take my protein pills, and for fuck's sake don't eat the peanut butter. But don't forget to buy more now and take your...
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mobprod:
Good for you dude! If you can pull this off in the midst of an Oregon winter, I'm doubly impressed.
repoman40:
Stay sober and keep your eye on the prize. Whatever that means...
i finally hooked up this stupid computer that has been rotting away in my living room. wow, i can communicate with the outside world. i can work. i can write you back!!!! how long has it been...two or three years? fuck.
i get all the green skinned women, just like captain kirk....
i get all the green skinned women, just like captain kirk....
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coman24:
Nice to have you back. You have been missed.
inks:
hope things are getting a little better
I have been hiding out in my house for about 5 weeks. When my head feels clear and I stop feeling so sick, I guess it will be the right time to come out. The trail of who I was, or who I wasn't. I go to the grocery store or to the library or the coffee shop. People come up to me everytime I...
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jnthn:
once upon a time there was another life, seems like a long time ago, no?
chain letters, exquisite corpse comment trail and strange letters placed next to each other not seeming to make sense to the sane. that train. funny how different it all looks now, right?
back to paris in 3 weeks. come along this time.
chain letters, exquisite corpse comment trail and strange letters placed next to each other not seeming to make sense to the sane. that train. funny how different it all looks now, right?
back to paris in 3 weeks. come along this time.
miloryan:
First I was like 5 weeks of being sick, man that's some flu bug or something. Then I was like oh, some other kind of sick. Don't know what from but I do know it's prolly not that kind of sick. It sounds like the sickness I get when I try to quit the Paxil which is no friggn joke, they compare it to heroin withdrawl for some people and I happen to be one of the some. Head shocks, shakes, palpitations, speeding heart, flu like, cold sweats, hot, cold, hot, nausia, cramps, panic, more anxiety. No good at all. Anyway, sorry to see that you feel all alone I hate that feeling, good thing I got a roomate that is always home to keep me company. Well I know I've only smilled, said hello or had a few lines of dialogue with you but if you ever need someone to talk to or want to come across the river just let me know, I've been told I make a pretty damn good friend. Take care!
blessings of the state
blessings of the masses
buy more now
ahhh sober xmas. 3 weeks today. no more heart attacks...and only the small possibilty of that blood clot taking a ride to my brain. i feel fucking amazing.
and i am still poison....just let me get a grip on your heart. trust me. it will hurt and it will be worth it
blessings of the masses
buy more now
ahhh sober xmas. 3 weeks today. no more heart attacks...and only the small possibilty of that blood clot taking a ride to my brain. i feel fucking amazing.
and i am still poison....just let me get a grip on your heart. trust me. it will hurt and it will be worth it
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gameboy06:
can snow come out to play?
dallasablaze:
You are absolutely amazing. The sincerity in your work & words stands strong, & it's truly a pleasure. Congrats on 3 weeks!! Quite an accomplishment. Recovery from addiction ain't no easy road but that "fucking amazing" feeling makes it worth the while, no? Hope you're well. x
and out of nowhere i feel the need to be dancing again in front of 3000 people
and i don't want to be alone
i want a plane ticket and a random destination
a hotel with a down comforter and a $42 a day room service tab
because 42 is the perfect number
someone to whisper in my ear "goddamn"
one friend who doesn't move...
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and i don't want to be alone
i want a plane ticket and a random destination
a hotel with a down comforter and a $42 a day room service tab
because 42 is the perfect number
someone to whisper in my ear "goddamn"
one friend who doesn't move...
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doozer:
Whatever you celebrate, cheers to satisfaction.
good ol bing crosby...so smooth. a train full of class on the way to vermont.
i need a new job. i was thinking personal assistant. not just any personal assistant...i want to wear a metallic gold bikini and drink blended mango drinks while i work. so go ahead just give me a call. you can pay me in cash and fur and pearls.
i just...
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i need a new job. i was thinking personal assistant. not just any personal assistant...i want to wear a metallic gold bikini and drink blended mango drinks while i work. so go ahead just give me a call. you can pay me in cash and fur and pearls.
i just...
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doozer:
No Stress? I second that motion.
talisman:
yup, soon as i find that winning lottery ticket i'll send a tailor and chainmail maker to get going on a nice 24 karat mesh bikini for you.
and your first task would be to fly to all the mango orchards in brazil, india and australia to discover exactly which ones would suit your drinking taste the best...
and your first task would be to fly to all the mango orchards in brazil, india and australia to discover exactly which ones would suit your drinking taste the best...
it feels like i am bending the bars of my cage
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talisman:
it's been more of a "flinging poop" mood in these here parts...
jacksin:
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where would i be without my mystery. would you love me just the same if i didn't disapear for months at a time? random encounters at my favorite bar. you buy me drinks, but i still sit alone.
i'm as single as i will ever be. i almost wish i was going on tour. it feels good to start over this time. it would be...
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doozer:
I'm sure there are plenty of reasons for the re-enactment of your set on CSI:NY without you and my final conclusion is: Had you been on the show you would have put on a Meryl Streep-esque performance that was so well blended with mystery that you would have distracted all attention away from the plot.
Yeah, that sounds about right.
Yeah, that sounds about right.
sasso2u:
I don't like going to bars, though I go anyway. Clubs are worse. You wander around looking a people you want to meet or hope they don't talk to you or can't get away from. Talking to idiots laughing a stupid jokes, meeting new people. It's hard and tedious, but it's better than sitting at home alone...sometimes. Keep the faith girl you know you have friends somewhere or sometimes and someone always holds you in their heart somewhere or sometimes just when you need it.
my cell phones were both smashed to pieces and my sim cards cut up. so now i'm fucked again.
i'll have to update later this week on all of that fun and excitement.
i'll have to update later this week on all of that fun and excitement.
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doozer:
Hopefully you have a regular phone book so all your info. wasn't lost....
Both cell phones? You must be one popular woman.
Way to keep the sarcasm through it all. Least it wasn't your labtop.
Hopefully you have a regular phone book so all your info. wasn't lost....
Both cell phones? You must be one popular woman.
Way to keep the sarcasm through it all. Least it wasn't your labtop.
pulse:
uhuuu!!!!!! finally...
i dont car...i dont have your phone number...
solo quiero que subas un set nuevo!!
y que por lo menos me dejes un beso...
how can you let her goooooo.-................
i cant stop watching you dance on the dvd.
finally...
i dont car...i dont have your phone number...
solo quiero que subas un set nuevo!!
y que por lo menos me dejes un beso...
how can you let her goooooo.-................
i cant stop watching you dance on the dvd.
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