Sunday Dec 08, 2002

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I think I will stop keeping a journal here.

Thank you and goodnight.
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liquid29:
smile MERRY CHRISTMAS! smile
notwolf13284:
...well, thank the goddess.

Saturday Dec 07, 2002

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Not sure what's going on in my life right now. All I know is that I'm constantly, inevitably confused. Every time I think I have one little thing figured out, it turns out I don't.

My heart and mind are just an awful whirlwind of thoughts, emotions, feelings... a lot of sadness, regret, and lonliness up there. Thankfully, there's no self-loathing though. But I say...
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go_lately:
heh you just summarized my life. i know exactly how you feel. *sigh*
photonix:
Hi Roxy, I think many of us can relate to your whirlwind of thoughts. Hang in there. I've always felt uncertainty and discontent is what pushes ourselves into new forms of understanding. The road to self discovery is not an easy one. In fact it can be a curse..but it's also a blessing. Trust yourself, and follow your instincts! They are never wrong....

Sunday Dec 01, 2002

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My Thanksgiving break was very enjoyable, I must say. First I went to Fredericksburg, and spent some time with an old friend I hadn't seen in awhile. Getting drunk, watching movies, playing video games, making out... always good times. Plus the whole Thanksgiving thing wink We had dinner with his family, people I hadn't seen in awhile... and lots and lots of super yummy food. It...
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mirkwoodmaiden:
hi roxy love

(3 times a charm eh?)
tara81:
MEEEOOOWW! Come take me over!! I love being sub, never have been to a girl yet either :-)

Sunday Nov 24, 2002

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Sorry I've been kind of MIA lately, on the boards and on AIM. I've just been thinking a lot, going through a lot, trying to sort out my life and the best way for me to live it.

It's rough being a 21-year-old me. It's rough and yet enlightening at the same time. I'm learning a lot about myself. There are so many ideals I...
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freyja__:
good for you, hon.
hope you're smiling!
*smooch*
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charlie_stars:
hey beautiful. missed you. as for the crazyness it gets better with time and medication hopefully you get everything ironed out and i'm sorry i wont see you in philly this weekend

Wednesday Nov 20, 2002

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Well, it looks like I'll definitely be kicked out in about two weeks. Thanks to everyone who helped, but in the end I'm still $230 short of the rent.

I'm not really sure what I'm going to do yet... I might just pack what I can in my car, and just drive. I may end up back in Fredericksburg, VA... or maybe Tom will still...
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bishop:
They said the money is still there waiting; and I get paid again Thursday.
bishop:
Ok - switched to VA this morning from PA. All done. Sorry 'bout the hassle. More coming after payday this week.

Tuesday Nov 19, 2002

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Maybe I shouldn't dump my sadness on all these people that don't know me. I think a better way to let it out may be to discuss what it is that has me so down, and confused, and frustrated lately. Kinda let you into my mind to see the way I work, the way I think. That is, of course, if you want in wink

I...
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catdad:
i really see much of the discussion on this site as a kind of group therapy. you have an audience, so go for it.

{sending luck}
khaotik:
ehehheehheh. You said dump. *snort* ehehhhee



*snort*

Monday Nov 18, 2002

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I've never wanted to die so much as I do right now. Looking over my life and seeing that every aspect is completely destroyed and a wreck. I wish I could run away...
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demigauge:
roxy...hey i've been there and things do get better...can all after you hit the bottom all there is ..is up...so don't despair...*hugs* tongue bok
khaotik:
*snirkel* I think that's a little ... *struggles to think of word* drastic!
C'mon, just remember to always look on the bright side of life.
*whistles Monty Python song*


But in all seriousness:
We all go through rough spots, yours just happened to come now, and you'll get through it, cause you're a strong person and deserve to have happiness and contentment.

My two cents, however worthless they may be.

Saturday Nov 16, 2002

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For those of you who are anxiously awaiting a kitty update, here goes.

I brought Arwen home from the vet yesterday morning. She has this huge cast on her entire leg, from hip and covering toes, and so she can't really walk at all. When we first got home she was extremely frustrated and kept trying to walk but couldn't, and she was flopping over...
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goatsgotohell:
This is why you are an awesome mommy to your babies...

*giant hugs*

I hope your kitty has a speedy recovering hon...give her lots of smoochies and hugs
demigauge:
awww....i hope i never have to go trough that with my kitty Isis...hope your kitty feels wel soon.. biggrin

Wednesday Nov 13, 2002

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Just when things seem at their worse in pretty much every way... Along comes something that just knocks you back. Some of you will I'm sure laugh at me for the affect this has on me... but oh well, it's who I am.

Last night when I came home Arwen (female kitty) was laying in my closet, not a usual place for her. My roommate...
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eris:
oh no, roxy! that's awful!

i'm sure everything will be alright though. it's just scary.

i'm trying to figure out how to make my kitten remember he isn't a lion.

you'll both be ok though.
quijybo:
awww!! poor kitty!~
i will give my kitty extra love to increase the positive kitty karma.

Monday Nov 11, 2002

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Moving to New Jersey... that sounds sooooo tempting. It would be fucking great. It would be a big deal, but I'm young and this is the time to be crazy and take risks, right??

Ooooh, and to be that close to the city!! And I'd meet so many new people!!

*drool*

-Roxy
XOXOXO
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mirkwoodmaiden:
i would say come down south but since i plan to leave here eventually i wouldnt recomend that. have fun in jersey hun.
bishop:
one word...Atlanta....
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