1.) I feel very mortal today.
2.) I'm so fucking lonely I feel like I'm going to fucking die.
Lovely day, huh?
2.) I'm so fucking lonely I feel like I'm going to fucking die.
Lovely day, huh?
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How many people can say they've had a tamandua lick their fingers? Or had a night monkey about a foot from their face, just watching intently? Or how about a sloth directly over head, waiting for you to give it dinner?
I love volunteering at the zoo!
I love volunteering at the zoo!
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estrada:
You had a sloth over your head and you fed it?
I am so envious. I love sloths.
I am so envious. I love sloths.
enzo525:
I have a friend at the fire station who works as an EMT there.
I hope your not mad at me. Every time I see you on line I IM you and you never respond. That, or your not around your computer.
I hope your not mad at me. Every time I see you on line I IM you and you never respond. That, or your not around your computer.
Be warned: I'm going to sound like a crybaby. Also be warned: I don't give a fuck.
I feel like none of my "friends" like me anymore. People who used to come over to my place and watch TV and just chill... don't anymore. People who used to invite me over for movies, or out for food, don't anymore. People who used to love coming...
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I feel like none of my "friends" like me anymore. People who used to come over to my place and watch TV and just chill... don't anymore. People who used to invite me over for movies, or out for food, don't anymore. People who used to love coming...
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travisja:
Change can be good. There are a lot of people that will be friends for awhile because it suits their purpose. Not meaning to be too much of a cynic, but that ends up being the case. Your real friends will be with you forever, wherever you go. You should go somewhere else. Life should be about living not existing.
grandillusion:
For whatever its worth...i think friends are overated!
I'm going to steal Elise's and Flick's kitties. Cuteness overload.
In other news, I almost burned down my apartment last night. I got home from volunteering at the zoo and preheated the oven. Forgetting that I had a huge plastic bowl with leftover popcorn in there so that my cats wouldn't eat it. I was on the phone with EricAllen when I opened...
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In other news, I almost burned down my apartment last night. I got home from volunteering at the zoo and preheated the oven. Forgetting that I had a huge plastic bowl with leftover popcorn in there so that my cats wouldn't eat it. I was on the phone with EricAllen when I opened...
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volkov:
if you steal those kitties plus your kitties PLUS yourself there, that apartment will officially violate public statute and zoning laws for overwhelming cuteness quotient!
I'm glad you're ok and the kitties too!
that sucks about the oven though.
but I'm REALLY REALLY glad you're ok.
I'm glad you're ok and the kitties too!
that sucks about the oven though.
but I'm REALLY REALLY glad you're ok.
johnnyvonbondie:
it is TIME to STOP now, mac!
There's something wrong with me.
You know, no one's ever been in love with me? No, honestly, I've fallen head over heels in love several times, and not one of them fell in love back...
Sometimes I wish I could disappear.
You know, no one's ever been in love with me? No, honestly, I've fallen head over heels in love several times, and not one of them fell in love back...
Sometimes I wish I could disappear.
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minimalism:
Sometimes it's falling in love with yourself first that helps. At least for me when I'm feeling most confident and secure is when things usually go well.
justcraig:
I have suuuuch a hard time believing that.
Wow.
Oh my god.
IT'S SO DIFFERENT!! I think I'm getting used to it after playing with it for a little bit, but.... wow.
And now I have three favorite girls!!!! Yay!
And... wow.
Oh my god.
IT'S SO DIFFERENT!! I think I'm getting used to it after playing with it for a little bit, but.... wow.
And now I have three favorite girls!!!! Yay!
And... wow.
tawnya:
i think , like your friends lists, we can't see them. cause i sure don't.
luminaire:
Yup, all her stuff is secret! Shhhh! 
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luminaire:
You bet I am.
I mean, who would want to miss our big gothy troop ruining the day of some poor child at the magical kingdom?
I mean, who would want to miss our big gothy troop ruining the day of some poor child at the magical kingdom?
luminaire:
Oh, and thanks... 
MY NEW SET WENT UP! FINALLY! YAY!!
Wow, what a surprise! I'm here in Ohio, seeing my family, and I get a message on my cell phone from Jesse, saying congrats that my new set's up!
I hope everyone likes it! You just wait till you see the next one
I'll reply more to everyone when I get back to Seattle, but thanks so much...
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Wow, what a surprise! I'm here in Ohio, seeing my family, and I get a message on my cell phone from Jesse, saying congrats that my new set's up!
I hope everyone likes it! You just wait till you see the next one
I'll reply more to everyone when I get back to Seattle, but thanks so much...
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volkov:
I wish I was up there too. It's ridiculous, almost funny, but I have more friends it would seem in Seattle and the NW than I do here where I am. I'm already looking into heading up there sometime later this winter perhaps.
*a thousand hugs*
v
*a thousand hugs*
v
johnnyvonbondie:
the monkey has a butler? great.
jesse
jesse
I'm pretty happy today. I sorted through some emotional issues, and I feel much better about some things in my life My job is still crap, but what are ya gonna do?
Also, this Thursday I'm leaving on a jet plane (insert music note here) for Ohio!! I haven't seen my family in so long, so I'm going for a short little visit. I'm mainly...
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My job is still crap, but what are ya gonna do?
Also, this Thursday I'm leaving on a jet plane (insert music note here) for Ohio!! I haven't seen my family in so long, so I'm going for a short little visit. I'm mainly...
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arik:
hey, where in ohio are you coming anyway?
it would be super rad to see you again and catch up and stuff
it would be super rad to see you again and catch up and stuff
marymary:
i like penpals. as long as you dont mind boys.
xoxo
xoxo
I guess it's time for a new journal entry. Not really much going on, I'm kinda down today. Why do I trust people?? It never works out when I do.
Been working a lot lately. Too much, in fact. Way too much. It's starting to kill me I think.
Someone come rescue me, please?
Been working a lot lately. Too much, in fact. Way too much. It's starting to kill me I think.
Someone come rescue me, please?
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babyblue:
Sorry you're not having a good time of it right now. Try not to get soured on the whole trust thing. When it does work out, it can be really amazing. But I know what you mean, I'm always really cautious with people when I am getting to know them. I'm very protective of myself, physically and emotionally. The problem is that if you stay too closed off and keep too much to yourself, you miss out on what others have to offer you. It's like walking a tightrope sometimes. Or all of the time.
atomic_tiki:
you need a vacation
just grab randy & get your asses to LA.
big hugs kiddo
just grab randy & get your asses to LA.
big hugs kiddo
i was so excited to be single again for like......2 months or more.
then one night, boom! i'm so fucking lonely i'd ask a crackhead for a hug.
i took a bath. didn't help. walked the dog. nope. cleaned. worse. drank. worst idea ever.
just hang in there i guess. at some point someone will come along and sweep you up, and then 6 months into it you'll be wishing you were single again.
cosmic irony.
but loneliness is the fucking best thing in the world for creativity. and your relationships with your friends gets better, too.
i'll stop rambling now.
good luck
Hang in there things will get better!