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so this one time i got shit-faced and slammed my car into a tree...



....and ever since then nothing has really made much sense at all. why am i living here? what in the living fuck am i doing? what the hell happened to everything that was supposed happen this summer? and this past year? and the past three years?

three years is a long...
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gizmo56:
I really hope stuff for you turns around, but untill then if you need someone to talk to hit me up. Maybe a drive will help you come to peace with the life you lead, just know that you really could be worse off and im sure its hard to imagine that because of the world of shit but hold on. I know there were times i wish i could just jump in my car and drive see where life takes me, but im deffinatly too worried about my health which sucks too...random thought aside im saying do something constructive and youll be able to figure it out.
kilcher:
You are actually very insightful as to who you are and what you want. Maybe trust yourself more and things will start going in the right direction? I hope so. smile
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someone stole my identity! fuck! this is really obnoxious. haha

i finally managed to get them out of my email account and froze my bank account, so now they are emailling me from fake addresses threatening to "expose my picture and SSN" if i don't give them my personal information so they can have my [lack of] money......

my life is ridiculous.

i'm feeling like...
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revolutionary:
Five finger death punch. Check em out.
kilcher:
Get out. That sucks. Even though you don't have a lot of money, that's still gotta be a pain in the ass. I hope it all works out. smile
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sooo life is good, once again. it will be even better when i get my ID back, which should be here by now...not really sure what the deal is with that. but it would be nice if i could at least purchase my own cigarettes.

went to warped tour yesterday for the first time, i was skeptical of it being full of 16 year old...
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gizmo56:
Im happy to hear that your doing better, sounds like warped was fun...i think maybe ill go one day. Anywho keep your head up, and if you feel down again ill be around just message me or whatever. Peace!!
skaferret:
Glad you had fun at warped tour! I started going about two years ago, and have been every year since (our is on friday)

That sucks about the car =\ But I know how it feels, i've totalled two of em xD and right now i'm driving an 84 Caprice classic... so it's about 3 years older than me xDD And it's true, short skirts, on girls as cute as you make me forget what I went to the store for all the time xD

and congradulations on the classes! haha AND the mortuary science degree.. sounds "interesting" xDDD
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ladies aaaaand gentlemen.....

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

ok so i had pretrial this morning and saw my probation officer.

EVERY DAY FROM NOW UNTIL AUGUST 26TH (AKA, THE ENTIRE SUMMER) I AM TO WAKE UP BETWEEN THE HOURS OF 6 AND 8 AM....MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY AND SUNDAY. AND CALL TO SEE IF I AM BEING RANDOMLY TESTED FOR ALCOHOL AND DRUGS...
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mtbiker1:
Man, that's messed up.
I hope things work out well for you. If you keep yourself busy with other outlets, I'm sure the time will go by fast.
gizmo56:
You could find an art you like, drawing, painting, photography, literature, etc. Thats a great outlet...
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so the moment everyone in my life has been waiting to say i told you so has finally arrived. i consider this rock bottom. especially because everything was going so so so well in richmond so far.....

until i decided to get my car last night and drive home after drinking. by some miracle after i lost control of my car i ended up missing...
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erichasfinewine:
I understand bottom, I have been there many times for various reasons. Just like what Gizmo56 said, if you are at bottom all you can do from here is go up. Don't think you are alone in this, many of us have been at the bottom. This won't be the first or the last. Now it is all about what you do from here to turn your life around. What ever you do stay true to ones self!!!! You will be fine!!! biggrin biggrin love love kiss kiss
gizmo56:
Well hopefully you will get lucky. I know my friends brother did, he's had two dui's and the judge may let him off after this last one to go work on this cruise ship as a photographer which is way cool...i know im jelous.
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HAHAHAHAAH ok update. so i moved everything into the new place with the somewhat wierd roommate that i at first thought the place was cool enough to deal with...

until he asked me for a ride to his doctors appointment AT THE MENTAL INSTITUTION.

so, needless to day, i found out he worked the next night and by the cover of darkness stealthily moved all...
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eyeambaldman:
That's some messed up shit about the mental institution! Freaky! eeek
kilcher:
Haha!! That's too funny. He probably got home and figured you were just a figment of his imagination. Like that random roommate on Friends. biggrin biggrin
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ugh. i feel like shit. again.

lately it seems like drinking is no longer fun it just results in me being incredibly unhappy, late for work, and with a constant hangover.

i really need to stop letting this get out of hand.

then again i've been saying this for the past 4 years....and i always end up going back to my old ways. i guess...
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gizmo56:
"It takes two weeks to change a/ get into a habit" Thats something that i though might help in this situation...although i guess take this with a grain of salt. Either way i hope you figure it out. good luck biggrin
rexx:
thanks :-)
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sooo for some reason my friends have decided that they are going to start kickin it with a large group of freshly turned 18 bimbos....

i kind of enjoy it because they all sort of worship me for being legally able to drink and because they think its like "sooo totally cool omg!" that i have tattoos and work at nordstrom because they have nothing...
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mildots:
Men just like booty....Sorry you have to suffer because of it though
zepp101:
Men go for the easy prey and it really sucks you have to hang out with those chicks. I can't stand those types of girls, and it a main reason why I stay out of alot of places.

I couldn't do it, even if the chick was a bombshell, if there's no substance then my head will implode from lack of stimulus. Your friends are braver men then I, but you are the bravest..I just hope you don't lash out and wail out on one of them....You should just get them really shit faced beyond belief and see what kind of chaos ensues.... puke puke puke

That's horrible but it'd be hilarious
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so i need to come up with about 300 dollars more than what i have in my posession right now to pay rent/security deposit/electric deposit/student loans/etc....in the next 5ish days.............

i'd sell stuff. but i don't really have anything of value.

hahaha...well..i'm going to go buy beer and liquor and american cheese and take my ass to a cookout. and try not to think about...
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mildots:
Cheese, beer and Jack Daniels make everything better.
r3x:
Any suggestions... for MAKING MONEY or BUYING THE PROPER CHEESE?

For the former, there's the blood bank, drug dealing and the pole (both in the club and on the corner)... tongue biggrin

For the latter, I prefer Monterey Jack or Swiss on my burgers.