renshai

As far as I'm concerned, I was diagnosed as being bi-polar two years ago. Never went through treatment for it, mainly because of our shitty American healthcare system. Such a shame people that are mentally ill seem to get the short end of the stick, eh? At the time I was very suicidal too, and in the worst place in my life that I have ever been. But I've made some other changes in my life over this past two years that have improved my mental state immensely! That does not however mean these issues have somehow magically disappeared altogether. I have not revisted therapy since I was diagnosed, and I know I need to take care of that at some point. It's currently on my "To Do" list.

So yeah, basically I get pretty down on myself for my actions when my emotions get the best of me. I tend to irrationally freak out on people, then later feel horribly guilty and stupid about it and apologize as best I can. So I beat myself up over it. But really, I probably need more help than simple will-power to overcome the issues I have.... And this is me spilling way more beans than necessary, I'm sure!!!! But you said you'd dealt with the bi-polar stuff, so I felt compelled to jibber jabber about it.

P.S. The above mentioned issues are also why I don't drink much anymore. Alcohol majorly compounds my emotional instability and sends me into a tailspin. Not to mention the hangovers!