redfirefaery

.~everything i possess given with tenderness wrapped in a ribbon of glass...~

that song, being moody and smooth, is what is keeping me from being seriously irritated about anything today. i got up half an hour ago, and already i have: gotten bleach-water in a big paper cut, considered that my manager must be off his rocker to create next week's schedule, thought...
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sunday morning i woke from a dream filled with warm august sunshine weather feeling desolate and forlorn. i recognized the major player in my dream as a coworker at my new job, and someone i would like to be friends with outside of work. i saw her, walking along a sidewalk framed by dark green leaves and tall golden grasses, quaint brick buildings lining the...
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i think hell must have frozen over.

seriously.

i went to visit ma today and to do some laundry.
while i was there, she didn't once mention:
1. my relationship with spott, why we are together (i.e. our common life goals), and why the hell i'm not with a man (she is spazzing about having grandkids).
2. my name. she insists that my "benton" family...
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finally... an apartment to stay in for at least a year, and internet back! WOOHOO!

i am off to wade through months worth of yahoo mail...

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hey! i miss this site... no internet for now at the temp apartment. once spott & i move again, we are going to see about getting hooked back up. until then, i have to survive on weekly trips to the 'rents' house. anyway, i miss everyone! if you have my # call me just not before 8am and not after 10pm... spott & i both...
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packing/moving/cleaning all this week. last night went to dave & busters for the first time--that was pretty fun. not much time right now, but still alive (thanks to the wonderful healing hands of a holistic healer named pat!), and gotta go pack up another load!

today is the last day i ever have to work in erie county. no, i'm not going to milk the system, i'm moving to fairport. but first things first--tonight is the party.

i went. old people tried to convince me to take communion (which i entirely expected). i sat or stood at all the appropriate parts. i even hummed along to some of the songs. but the whole time i was thinking why do these people need this every sunday to remind them of god?. honestly, the sermon was a little slow-i told my friend not...
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i went. it was weird. tell you later.

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i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. right now, i'm wasting time before i absolutely have to decide if i'm going to go to the church where my friend is a pastor or not. this weekend is the first time he's been approved to do communion. he knows i won't take communion, because he knows my beliefs (and amazingly supports most of them),...
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