razorshimmy

Yes. Things are right. My mistake.

I miscalculated in some way. I've offended the person I love the most, I fear, above all others.
But then, I've been known to overreact. I'll live, one way or the other, things will turn out in some way that will allow me to live, and them to live, and me to fulfill the purpose i've endowed my life with.
Passion is so terribly tricky....
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Hah! Haaaaaaaaaaa!
This cry rings out of some ragged throat, echoes through halls of tattered walls and eroded frames. When one looks to the left: decay. To the right: the same.
And so, there's this mind. I would claim it as my own, but it doesn't seem right, exactly. Though neither does it belong to someone else.
Let's call it ours.
It looks at our...
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Lessons for the week:

1: It's hard to find housing within a small price bracket in Los Angeles. I expected this would be the case. What I didn't expect was that it would be not as a result of finding places that were for lease for reasonable prices, but rather because the people that were selling them simply refused to get back to me about...
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It's all set! I'm moving to Los Angeles on Wednesday. I'm excited. I may 'splode.

Hmmm, well, my mind is, I believe, starting to repair itself. I have opinons again, which is a good or bad start, depending on yr point of view. I feel odd, still, things still evoke a certain mindset that I might rather not maintain, but I'm getting back that pleasent sense that maybe things are the way we think and aren't the way we think,...
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Something has gone wrong with what has been/ something is not right, my brain is, I think, something is very strange with the way I'm thinking. I feel badly, sick, I think. My mind feels as though something, when I see pictures, they remind me, sometimes, of something that bothers me very much but that used to make me feel very good. There is something,...
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Lessons for the week:
Understand that she might die someday, without ever loving you. What does that mean? Well, obviously, you might keep living after. You should live to be the sort of person that could be admired by everything you believed she might represent. That's important, yes?

Keep in mind that life isn't about being loved, despite how much of your own life you've...
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Oh, hmm, golly...
I've begun work again on an old screenplay, one I filmed with some friends as a short and have been meaning to expand for some time, but have never gotten around to it. But, new ideas, things to pursue, have led me to think it might be worth chasing after all.
I'm also working on the primer for that movement I had...
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I thought, after such a lengthy period of inactivity, that I might leave. Though now, I think, I'll stay.
Yep. That's what I'll do, for th' time being.

I'm not sure why, but I just remembered a quote by my dear friend Jaquelyn, as she stated "I look like I just got fucked in a gangbang."
Ladies and gentlemen, this is the company I keep. I love my friends. Even those I havn't seen in over a year.