Goodbye King of Pop, Michael Jackson... I'm still in shock.
Goodbye Farrah Fawcett... You will always be an angel!
Bleh.
I'm being emo for lack of a better well word.
Feeling a bit unaccomplished. Sure, I am only 20 turning 21 soon, but either I've been a lazy ass or other people are over-achievers making me feel like crap, in a way. I don't like it. I was looking at one of my favorite SG's flickr and she has a collection dedicated to her loft, which is awesome! It mad me feeling sort of insignificant.
I've been doing good. Hanging out with people I know... And I get to hang out with my peanut butter soon. She is the other half of the perfect sandwich... Unless you're allergic to peanuts. Then that just sucks. Cause I love peanuts. I eat them all the time. With a lot of stuff. Its amazing... Am I being mean right now...?
So... some shit went went down... I don't think Tyler and I will happen. And well I'm stuck.
That's nothing new. I want him, and how do you let go of someone you want. when you don't know what the problem is. Why is it, that guys never say shit? They tell everyone else, but the person who needs to know what the fuck is going on. I've been crying off and on for days. And yet I still think... maybe?! I'm that fucking stupid and naive. I want out... I want to be able to breathe... I just feel like love isn't meant for me. Someone can reply that's not true, but no. I think it is. Cause in this year so far, I've had one guy be completely adoring of me and then not talking to me at all, and we seemed great together, and one guy that just had to move to New York for school. Hit me by surprise. That's just this year. Six months in, while dealing with a guy whose gone maniac because I wouldn't love him, and he couldn't that. I hate this. I can't handle this....
Now I need to go shower and get some tea.
A picture of me pretending to be high in Best Buy with my friend Sara.
Love, peace, and chicken grease.
Goodbye Farrah Fawcett... You will always be an angel!
Bleh.
I'm being emo for lack of a better well word.
Feeling a bit unaccomplished. Sure, I am only 20 turning 21 soon, but either I've been a lazy ass or other people are over-achievers making me feel like crap, in a way. I don't like it. I was looking at one of my favorite SG's flickr and she has a collection dedicated to her loft, which is awesome! It mad me feeling sort of insignificant.
I've been doing good. Hanging out with people I know... And I get to hang out with my peanut butter soon. She is the other half of the perfect sandwich... Unless you're allergic to peanuts. Then that just sucks. Cause I love peanuts. I eat them all the time. With a lot of stuff. Its amazing... Am I being mean right now...?
So... some shit went went down... I don't think Tyler and I will happen. And well I'm stuck.
That's nothing new. I want him, and how do you let go of someone you want. when you don't know what the problem is. Why is it, that guys never say shit? They tell everyone else, but the person who needs to know what the fuck is going on. I've been crying off and on for days. And yet I still think... maybe?! I'm that fucking stupid and naive. I want out... I want to be able to breathe... I just feel like love isn't meant for me. Someone can reply that's not true, but no. I think it is. Cause in this year so far, I've had one guy be completely adoring of me and then not talking to me at all, and we seemed great together, and one guy that just had to move to New York for school. Hit me by surprise. That's just this year. Six months in, while dealing with a guy whose gone maniac because I wouldn't love him, and he couldn't that. I hate this. I can't handle this....
Now I need to go shower and get some tea.
A picture of me pretending to be high in Best Buy with my friend Sara.
Love, peace, and chicken grease.
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Having the same exact problems when you're 35!
Hang in there, chica. Every time I think love is done with me, it turns out it's not.
I think I sorted it out, the love thing that is. Once you forget about having someone to love YOU and start loving everyone else equally, it'll be just a matter of time to get someone that feels the same about you. It's not about being happy and wanting someone just to become 'better' or feel better or look better (in my case, I only date hot girls and most of the time just to look cool, heh) it's about being better for the others. I've always wanted to be better for those I love (parents, friends), I want them to feel proud of me and if I ever love a girl, I'd try to be perfect for her, I'd be just awesome. I am awesome... and so are you. You just need to stop calling those chemical products "tea" and you'll be alright, skipper.
Start opening with new people, just for the heck of it.