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I had to act now if I wanted your present to arrive in time.

I ♥ hearing women talk about the parts of their body they love. Usually you just hear about the parts they hate. (BTW, I am totally guilty of this).

I'm glad to read you are ok,

Thanks for the Birthday wishes and for introducing me to who James is.

whoa, that's fucked up, i'm glad you're ok!

i sure could use something good for my back XD

my pics turned out to be crap, thanks to poor lighting and my external flash didn't work and i didn't want to use the standart flash, cause it ruins all the mood.
other than that it was awesom!!

oh well, it seems like everything is getting better at least, much more complicated, but at least my mood is better and i don't worry as much anymore. i'm not sure how i should handle the whole situation right now, but there's no point in giving it too much thought. i'll see what comes out of it this weekend. XD

Oh thaaaaaaaaaaat! Yeah, you can't blame me for that "whorishness". Try though you may.
pfft!

Why shouldn't you have looked at it? Wish you were AZN now?




p.s. Totally gonna search for you on Facebook. /lurker

yuck, muscles... my eyes are burning... XD
just kidding.

of course it was all because of that girl...
i think things are starting to get better finally.
Death Before Dishonor are playing here on tuesday and i was asked to take pics there, which i would have done anyway, but now i'm getting in for free and might finally get accepted in our scene. ^^
and i was at a club last friday where i met that girl again, she made useless excuses and talked to me like nothing happened (i did write to her about a week ago explaining her stuff). later on some other girl made her move on me and it turns out they're friends... in the end of the night that girl kissed me (which i didn't mind at all, cause how often does that happen??) and afterwards the one i have a crush on was actually jealous, came over and was like:
"you just kissed with Karo!" O_O *shock*
and i was thinking, well i'm not waiting for you forever... but didn't say it.
so now either she realised that she has to be different to me or she'll run back to her ex, which is the main problem anyway and i think that's much more likely.
maybe it was a good thing, maybe not, i'm not sure yet, but it was probably necessary no matter to what outcome

When I die, I will put it in my will that you can have him.

Herro

i'm a bit out of control lately. i was finally figuring out who i am or want to become and everything was rather good a few months ago but i've kind of lost my way and nothing is like it should be lately. so i don't function too good and spent most of the time distracting myself from the world as much as possible, which is not good but i can't deal with stuff.

Wow, you've been through alot lately.

Hope all goes well with you.

ok, i get what you mean. you know what's even worse? white german kids from rich families playing american ghetto gangsters... XD

"mind the gap" is one of our running gags whenever we're in London, just like "fucking german tourists".

i try to spend most of my time with things i'm intrested in and most of the tourist stuff just isn't... XD
and there are tons of good pictures around, so there's no need to take any really. ^^

WOW:
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sure, it's much easier and generally accepted to just copy your friends/other people...
it's not even a concious decission for me, i take whatever i like and it turns out my own thing cause i have so many different influences. the downside is that i never really belong to anything and get sort of excluded by most people, but i don't care much, in the end of the day it's my life.

i usually only shop at Uniqlo and Top or the market on BrickLand. i was very impressed about the quality of fresh foods like vegetables and fruits, everything looked very fresh and delicious!
i don't like german grocery stores cause i usually have to go to at least two just to get my basic stuff.

yeah, i try to get a feel for the city and the people when i'm someplace else.
you should take a few pics of you and your dolls!!
i like the ones with personality most since i'm not as gifted and creativ as you are

Keep searching yourself for your own insights... they are clearly there.

I too am a virgo- and a typical one I am told. It is a blessing and a curse, but I know it doesn't define me. And I took wait for my birthday to start the new year.

Every passing moment is another chance to turn it all around.

Much love and peace to you, sweetie.

How did I miss this blog? I am sorry that I did and that I didn't comment when you posted it.

I liked everything that you wrote, once again, I love your blogs. I love that they come from the heart and they are you being you and putting all of your feelings out on the line. I like that about you!

A month until our birthday!

glad it was more of a relief than a disaster!

Yeah, it's getting worse as I am getting older.

thanks love

I COMPLETELY understand. I have a very, very hard time having sex without becoming emotionally involved. And once I sleep with someone once, I usually want to again and again (and then again).

I try very hard to avoid the "one time only" things because it usually just leads to tears and bad feelings. Then again, I don't always take my own advice. Sometimes the desire to have sex (after a long dry spell) is too strong, and then I end up regretting it royally.

If you would like it to be more than a "one time" thing, you better ask now. Many times I've chickened out and not asked, just going by "signs" or trying to read their actions and it always has ended in disaster. It's better to be disappointed and hurt right now than before you get more emotionally involved.

Good luck!

sure there are others, but i'm not intrested in most of them. way too picky XD
i'll write to her and try to explain everything and if she's not intrested then there's nothing i can do anyway.

could still need some more sleep. my neighbor woke me up this morning, cause she had to play loud music from 9-10am...

when will i what? *confused*
sorry, i haven't been in touch much lately, the last few days were very exhausting for my body and mind. i'll read your last blogs after work, i need some sleep now. have only sleept some 4 hours lately and i have to go to work again in 6 hours... *dizzy*
they did those sirens for about 10 or 15 min or so on a saturday morning. i have no idea what it's about it just happens every few months and i always get a big smile cause it's so creepy.

thank you!! ^^

i only just realised, you're too young to legally drink aren't you? O_O
that's so weird...

sorry to hear about the guy and your struggle. i'm trying to keep straight edge as well, but i think i'll probably get piss drunk soon.

i'm still exhausted, couldn't do anything that i had wanted to do today and it's bed time again already. XD
tea and a massage? sounds good! ^^

when will "i see her again"? not sure, will probably take a few weeks. i'm still waiting for her response.

It works best when it catches you by surprise! You may ask me on details

WoW! And I thought I hated love!!!

I do have to say that after 3 years of avoiding love and all the other stuff that comes with it, I am just now starting to realize that life "with" a lover is better than one with out!!!
NOW if I could only find someone that is worth that commitment??!!??
GOD this town SUCKS ASS for meeting people!!!!!

There's gonna be shity boys & girls that'll come around but we just gotta weed through all that shit and find that one little bud of a rose in all those shity weeds!!!

Hahahahaha I just re-read that and OMG that was a corny one! But you get what I'm saying

Thanks for the add by the way!