happy birthday, me.
you're 24. you're so far from reaching your dreams. you've reached everything you wanted so far and yet you lack everything others have (and take for granted).
i'm drunk on sangria and on life. it's a lovely feeling. tonight i had plans to go see the arcade fire but scalpers destroyed my dream. and then, along came 2 brilliant and wonderful people...
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you're 24. you're so far from reaching your dreams. you've reached everything you wanted so far and yet you lack everything others have (and take for granted).
i'm drunk on sangria and on life. it's a lovely feeling. tonight i had plans to go see the arcade fire but scalpers destroyed my dream. and then, along came 2 brilliant and wonderful people...
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i need a new profile picture. i'm so sick of looking at this one every time i sign in. this one will have to do until i find something i'm more into.
today, shortly after viewing Malloreigh's hot new set, i saw sin city with rick. we had plans to go, but what a coincidence that this set should arrive today! i loved it....
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today, shortly after viewing Malloreigh's hot new set, i saw sin city with rick. we had plans to go, but what a coincidence that this set should arrive today! i loved it....
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giddyiguana:
Hey, I just noticed...we share a birthday! You, me, and Vladimir Lenin. What a team!
Oh, and your new profile pic kicks ass too.
Oh, and your new profile pic kicks ass too.
ch1st0ph3r:
Happy Birthday! 
a late update, i know. but i was suddenly overcome by a thought i thought had long been gone. it is so persisnant and hammers at my head at such a rate that i cannot even put into words just yet. i'll let jeanette winterson speak for me. here she comes.
'Will you understand? I am not sure that I understand it myself. Give me...
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'Will you understand? I am not sure that I understand it myself. Give me...
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sebastien:
She's a very textual writer. You feel her words more than you just read them.
teddykev:
Thanks for the awesome read girl.
Meh soul needed that
Your friendly neighborhood teddykev
Meh soul needed that
Your friendly neighborhood teddykev
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strongmad:
That's pretty big for a petite lass like yourself!
foxkilla:
i took middle eastern dancing in my first year of university!
....cant say ive ever been there, the scene in t.o. kinda blows these days--club district is just untouchable (unless of course youre in a tube top, underaged, and enjoy the free feels by pauchy forty somethings), college street is pretentious as fuck and nobody knows how to dance (they all look like they're having seizures), queen.w is so so (the bouncers at the drake are really sweet), and everywhere else is hit and miss depending on who youre with...you should do something totally excessive for your bday! id come
....cant say ive ever been there, the scene in t.o. kinda blows these days--club district is just untouchable (unless of course youre in a tube top, underaged, and enjoy the free feels by pauchy forty somethings), college street is pretentious as fuck and nobody knows how to dance (they all look like they're having seizures), queen.w is so so (the bouncers at the drake are really sweet), and everywhere else is hit and miss depending on who youre with...you should do something totally excessive for your bday! id come
i have been a selfish bitch the last few days and i'd be lying if i said i haven't been living it up and loving every bastardly moment.
thursday night, i went to see stars (and the organ [exclaim tour]) with Chanel and her marvelous friend, ted. it was lovely. third time i've seen stars now. i'm becoming something of an, uhmmm, starlet, let's say....
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thursday night, i went to see stars (and the organ [exclaim tour]) with Chanel and her marvelous friend, ted. it was lovely. third time i've seen stars now. i'm becoming something of an, uhmmm, starlet, let's say....
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19aces:
Very cool...like ice
chanel:
oh my dear dear lady
that was such a fanstastic night
and you looked so damn good. really. teddy was real impressed.
were gonna have to go out more often. oh yes!
that was such a fanstastic night
and you looked so damn good. really. teddy was real impressed.
were gonna have to go out more often. oh yes!
pillango:
out and about with others of my kind
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chanel:
I had the most fabulous night with you last night dah-ling.
cant wait to do it again!!!! Make sure you call teddy and hang out, cause he loved you
Ill come up again real soon so we can go out for a night of pure havoc. boo ya!
cant wait to do it again!!!! Make sure you call teddy and hang out, cause he loved you
Ill come up again real soon so we can go out for a night of pure havoc. boo ya!
copillia:
oh and !
[Edited on Apr 16, 2005 11:16AM]
oh and
!
[Edited on Apr 16, 2005 11:16AM]
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strongmad:
Wow, A must be busy! Hope everything's going well, frenchie poo.
copillia:
Hi darling
It was nice chatting with you online the other daysorry its taken me a while to get back to your comment.
Choosing a career because your parents want you to never seems like a good idea to me! I hope you at least find it somewhat fulfilling and stimulating. Otherwise, why bother? Well, I suppose there are lots of reasons to bother, money being one of the biggest. But I completely understand the position youre in You are a creative, dynamic person and your talents should not go to waste.
All I know is that when I write articles and do the layout for Indigo, Im happy. Im fulfilled. I can work for three hours straight without realizing it. Sometimes I can get really excited about teaching, but often times I feel like a stranger who doesnt belong.
Ack such tough decisions!
Anyway, I hope things work out for you. When do you leave for France by the way? I hope we get to talk before then.
Kisses.
It was nice chatting with you online the other daysorry its taken me a while to get back to your comment.
Choosing a career because your parents want you to never seems like a good idea to me! I hope you at least find it somewhat fulfilling and stimulating. Otherwise, why bother? Well, I suppose there are lots of reasons to bother, money being one of the biggest. But I completely understand the position youre in You are a creative, dynamic person and your talents should not go to waste.
All I know is that when I write articles and do the layout for Indigo, Im happy. Im fulfilled. I can work for three hours straight without realizing it. Sometimes I can get really excited about teaching, but often times I feel like a stranger who doesnt belong.
Ack such tough decisions!
Anyway, I hope things work out for you. When do you leave for France by the way? I hope we get to talk before then.
Kisses.
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zzshing:
hey, thanks for your (well-hidden) birthday greeting ! btw, i think ur picture looks lovely; i remember when i got my grad proofs back, 17 out of 20 were burned immediately, never to see the light of day.
! btw, i think ur picture looks lovely; i remember when i got my grad proofs back, 17 out of 20 were burned immediately, never to see the light of day. 
steve_huge:
oh no... i dont think life is to broad a statement... take any aspect of life at all... any single point... in any aspect of life it is far easier to get things wrong than it is to get them right...
a really basic example... 2+2.... that question is so easy to get wrong when you dont know the answer... or even worse the values... think of all the billions and billions of numbers you could give as an answer... but out of those billions of numbers only 1 is right... 1 out of billions and billions...
so if you dont know the value of 2 your screwed... or if you dont know what + means... you're screwed... what if its 2+3... even worse... you need to know the value of 2, the value of 3 and the meaning of + and =...
so if you apply that to life... most situations in life look like this 2+8-&x4-17+83x17... and so on... so you need to know all values and meanings of all symbols.... and once you have that you still have to calculate the correct answer... that one number in billions...
as i said... far easier to get it wrong than right... even when its as simple as 2+2... which it never is...
but i'm not unhappy honbest
just the scale of things weighs me down at times
hope you're feeling all groovy though you certainly look it in that picture
a really basic example... 2+2.... that question is so easy to get wrong when you dont know the answer... or even worse the values... think of all the billions and billions of numbers you could give as an answer... but out of those billions of numbers only 1 is right... 1 out of billions and billions...
so if you dont know the value of 2 your screwed... or if you dont know what + means... you're screwed... what if its 2+3... even worse... you need to know the value of 2, the value of 3 and the meaning of + and =...
so if you apply that to life... most situations in life look like this 2+8-&x4-17+83x17... and so on... so you need to know all values and meanings of all symbols.... and once you have that you still have to calculate the correct answer... that one number in billions...
as i said... far easier to get it wrong than right... even when its as simple as 2+2... which it never is...
but i'm not unhappy honbest
just the scale of things weighs me down at times
hope you're feeling all groovy though
you certainly look it in that picture today i attended the last class of my undergrad degree. i can't believe 5 years boil down to this. i found the class bittersweet at best.
i feel like i really fell into my own this year. it was one of the most challenging years i've had thus far, the ripe old age of (almost) 24, but yet i made so much of myself...
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i feel like i really fell into my own this year. it was one of the most challenging years i've had thus far, the ripe old age of (almost) 24, but yet i made so much of myself...
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strongmad:
Swung on and missed! Twice! (although I admit I do like your pictures)
flaneur:
It's funny how all the major phases in life -- undergrad certainly being one of them -- tend to end with a whimper, eh? It's so inarticulate, it's all just suddenly over. And there you are.
Do I ever know what you meant about the alone-ness. I still don't have a handle on how to find worthy adversaries in London. If I had to sum up my current mental state in a t-shirt, it would say "I am fucking cool, are you?" on the front and "START IMPRESSING ME THX" on the back.
(Which, um, might go a long way towards explaining why I'm feeling a bit alone these days. Yeah. Not a good t-shirt.)
Do I ever know what you meant about the alone-ness. I still don't have a handle on how to find worthy adversaries in London. If I had to sum up my current mental state in a t-shirt, it would say "I am fucking cool, are you?" on the front and "START IMPRESSING ME THX" on the back.
(Which, um, might go a long way towards explaining why I'm feeling a bit alone these days. Yeah. Not a good t-shirt.)
pillango:
when you got no pride, you got no shame
darling boys and girls.
on this day in 2003
the oscars were quite disappointing. aside from the wonderful surprises of peace sign and the like.
school sucks today. i dont want to be here.
i went to the travel agency to check for ticket prices. $1439 was the cheapest. i almost started crying as my heart just sank. i cant afford that. its way way...
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on this day in 2003
the oscars were quite disappointing. aside from the wonderful surprises of peace sign and the like.
school sucks today. i dont want to be here.
i went to the travel agency to check for ticket prices. $1439 was the cheapest. i almost started crying as my heart just sank. i cant afford that. its way way...
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flaneur:
Well, I don't think I'll be stopped on the streets of Edmonton any time soon, but hey...fun.
Thanks for the music recommendation, I've been meaning to check out some m83 for a while.
Thanks for the music recommendation, I've been meaning to check out some m83 for a while.
shayne:
thank you for you sweet comment on my new set
that's some good hair you've got there
that's some good hair you've got there
Don't you wish you had complete knowledge? Like, someone you could be completely happy with would glow a blue aura or something? You could spot them in a crowd, and go forward without any doubts. When I think about that it makes me wonder how many I've walked past in my life, or been introduced to fleetingly at some party or something.
I really need to stop thinking about this.