phoolsfire

thanks for the birthday wish!

you sound bitter lady. nothing ringing your bell, sorry for ya.

many many times, actually, I think males settle for the biggy and don't know themselves well enough to get anywhere else, get the biggy and dismount, females are much more atuned to their bodies, seem much more complex but I think males are just as such they're trained to not be.

accredi-di-dation, ha. wow she must be a wonder ful lady

nil8, never been into it, bet it'sa rockin show though

holy crap, dude, we're gonna get so lost...
you shoulda sprung that "you drive back" thing when we were half way to chi-town--then i'd have no choice but to accept. but, we'll talk about that a lil later
how early's early? you gotta gimme a call tomorrow or tuesday or something.

i'm beginning to think that artists in the mid-west are just incapable of satisfying me
i have never felt more inadequate and uncomfortable as an artist than now...ever.

porn sometimes makes me more unsatisfied

my profile picture?
are you sure it wasnt someone else with the same tattoo?

did you already get the new tattoo, or are you getting it today?

girls are weird.

"She Bop."....why yes thank you, twice a day now!
well, that explains the tennis elbow

wait till you see my hair cut!
im jittery with anticipation--is it short? no, dont tell me, i wanna be surprised......is it short?

yr still hung up on this guy? i gotta meet him. but i swear, if i do meet him and he's any kinda dork, i'll never let you live it down... because that's the kind of friend i am

katie sounds like such a fucking downer--why you still try is beyond me.

i'm kinda confused as to what transfired between you and him to make him feel bad?
then he called, and we talked, and he felt better.
i've gotta headache.

[Edited on Jun 09, 2005 10:18PM]

awww, that's so sweet. don't read too far into it though. expectation is the destroyer of self

with pure kindness

Foz

you just realized yr gonna have to miss class? i was gonna bring that up...but... i figured you knew it.
is it gonna be a problem?

you gotta go up to michigan? you sure do drive alot. if ya need company on the ride, i'm always up for shit like that.
i super dig road trips... as long as i'm not driving.

some people need to get themselves outta bad places. you cant save someone that doesnt want saved, and all that. what happened last time you went up to get her?

by weekend off, do you mean Fri Sat and Sun, or, Sat and Sun?
or Fri and Sat?
whatever your answer to my question, my answer to yours is "Yes."

so, do you generally listen to the stuctualist, the person of color, or the person?
i found out early in life, growing up in pekin, that you can either Conform, Question, or Die.
i spent my last 6 years there questioning, which made my life hell and gave me motivation to Grow Up.
it sucks that i still see my friends stuck in ye olde rutt of mild to psychotic bigotry, and hearing every excuse from, "Some of my best friends are..." to "I mean it like this..." kinda scares me. makes me sad.
what it comes down to with language is context. so on and so forth.
but again, you cant save people that dont wanna be saved.

i could write for hours on context and misinterpritation, but i dont wanna bore you

YE ARE A SAINT! I get gratifacation from white water IV and V kyacking cause i get my kicks above the waste line sunshine. My song i like to sing ptoq4. dont crash the car its hard to pay for two, just crash into me instead oops

you shoulda kept yr arse up, damnit! by the time i got to bloomington i kinda buzzed and wanted to let off some steam.
i had half-a-mind to just say "fuckit" and wake yr sleepy-ass up, but you were talking about being fatigued and such, so i decided to pulla nice guy and let ya rest.

okie dokie, i stayed right and stuff, looking for 165 and TECHNICALLY found it.
you see, exit 160 takes you to Markett street. after that, the exits drop back to 130. exit 135 takes you to Main (technically it's 165...you know, if they didnt drop back)
Main in, Main out.
you shoulda stayed up.

Yeah, I just have a hard time dealing with it when multiple people leave. Plus, its not like I can go say hi to them in real life. Most of the time, I only know them from here. It is like they vanish from the face of the earth.

Thanks for the housewarming love. I just hope it doesnt get to hot and set the place a-fire again!! Ok, bad joke.

I know the feeling of going completely off my noodle. I think I moved beyond that to the point where I really dont give a shit anymore.

Start reading more existentialist writers. It wont help, but will strangely make you feel more powerful and in control of the lack of control.

for fatigue: take nap, drink water, lotsa water

it's too hot to run, go swimming

fatigue's weakness! or something authoritative like that. for fatigue i generally drink deep from the blackest of coffees.
drink decaf and tell yrself it's caf. do a lil placebo thing. it's all psychosomatic anyways, yeah?

wow...i really--REALLY--wanna know about the other decatur guy.

i'd do the warm water thing, but he sleeps on his couch and he'd pee in the area that i'd be sitting.
and i'd pee on him, cept when sammy is awakened suddenly, he comes up swingin'.
and i dont want my exposed pecker in any danger.
(i believe it's "Peed")

Hmmmm....

What was the gift?

i concur with the fella above me, Blood Money is much, much better than Alice.
But Alice has one of the most psychotic circus songs ever--Kommienezuspadt (sp?). It's worth buying the album for that and We're All Mad Here.

Wasn't Good Ol Rob talking about not commiting being suicide by tiny increments?

There has to be SOME connection between the new guy (Matty i'm assuming?) and the old guy, you know, besides Decatur. What'ja get 'im? Was it a Turtle Statuette? Turtle Statuettes is da shit, yo.

he used to talk about her while we'd be having sex
that's both creepy and kinda hot... nope, just kinda creepy...inna hot sorta way. But, yeah, totally creepy.
and hot.
and ballsy.
i'm surprised you put up with that shit.

really sucks that i missed ya this weekend. if i'd have checked my stuff earlier i'd have stayed in town. darnit.

FUCK THAT!!! I mean the smell is one thing and totally manageable if the person is rockin, but afraid of getting tacos cause of some me-hicanos, they are amongst the most jovial and easy going/ hardest working people I have evere encountered, I say fuck dem bitches and move on.

they are amongst the most jovial and easy going/ hardest working people I have evere encountered
aah, that gave me a nice chuckle. i dunno why.
i know--aaah, never mind. i've given up attacking the community... i'll just say that sometimes it feels like people try too hard.

you dont know funk until Guey takes hit pissing shoes off... that's killer. i actually thought someone had taken a shite somewhere near me.

Dr. Killbot opened, right? i actually downloaded some of their stuff and it sounded decent!

The Grapes: Not inna grape mood. I had a bag of grapes in my fridge for about a month, only eating about half.
The Tea: I like tea. i've only been drinking coffee for the last 2-ish years. That's only a cup a day, as well.
i think the stomach thing is more to do with anxiety than anything else.
it'll go away soon.

The 65$ was for the nil8/MSI show. i was reading about the MSI shows selling out fast and didnt wanna miss the chance. i find that i'm sometimes impulsive when it comes to some stuff.

glad the show rocked, sorry you had to sit with stinky bigots and such.

yeah the double door is a fun place, couldn't throw a rock without hitting 90 hipsters, nil8 I'm not familiar with but I'm sure life seemed muffled after being rocked that hard. maybe the hormones enhanced the experience (iiicky ) I totally agree, males subconsciously submit to the superior power of the X chromosome and the potent estrogen it ferments.

ewwwwww. menstrating

I would have to say that when I first had a girlfriend that was effected by the "time" I was seriously unnerved and in awe at the power and ferocity of it.

what show are you going to?

talking sense to texans, hmmmmm...I once gave a presentation on organic farming to a class of kids whose parents were all "modern" farmers, it wasn't received very well, same class talked about vegetarianism and protein and energy balance...blank stares...turns out some of them thought I was Amish (used to have this amish like beard, but not amish, and I didn't wear suspenders...so who knows)

pipe bomb? well, that might work, worked at the '96 Olympics

i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry i couldnt go to the show. but i've already got the 15th off two weeks before i need it. and the tickets (as to avoid a sell-out). but i so very much wish that i could have gone with you tonite--that would have been super-bad. damnit.

yr, like, onna pipe bomb kick, huh?

i got tennis elbow from masterbating once
there's an interesting story there, i'm sure.

you know what'll learn them hormones? a pipe bomb.