pelirojo

I have not been well even after 3 days after my ECT treatment I've been feeling bad. I'm tired of of it, only feeling better for a few days, than blam down hill quick after that. I've been drinking more lately, not abusive but getting there. I don't have the life left in me to handle past addictions or even new ones. I haven't used...
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Last night was horrible, then today was worst. I've been very depressed and angry the last few days. I feel a bit like I was when I was in my early twenties. I don't want to be like that again. When I finally got out of bed today, I at least won a kings hockey jersey on ebay for like 13 bucks! so yeah me!...
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January 19th was the Jeopardy online test for the west coast at 8:00 pm. I fucking blew it! Somedays I'm on fire and others not so much. I'd like to blame my dog for being over excited, my neighbor for fucking bothering me with a half hour to go, and the rest I blame on my ECT treatment for robbing me of my memories. After...
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I made some extremely potent "edibles" a few days ago, and then finally tried 1/3 of one last night. Yeah I can still feel it a bit. I tried a new flavor "ginger" for my caramels. They are really good but I didn't heat them to a high enough temperature, so they are a bit soft. I make coffee, licorice, peppermint, vanilla, and almond flavors.

Well today was not fun. I went to the bank and got a new phone to get away from the evil t-mobile. Then kept getting bothered by my neighbor to hold money for him because supposedly people keep stealing it from him when he's asleep, and looked up a couple unknown pills on some pill indentifier site for him as well. kept one of his...
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After a long hiatus and by good graces of some awesome caring SG member I'm back! I hope to catch up with all of my friends here in SG and make new ones too. Its been quite a while, but I still remember you all (or at least I hope I do!) If my brain fails me and I don't send you a message, please...
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I still feel very depressed missed the last two days of work.
I wrote sorry I have to lose you. (I guess its nicer way of saying get lost. )

been working a lot still, my one day off today (I'm house sitting for my Grandparents) I cleaned up my gramma's wood shop. She has tons of tools/equipment, my grandparents and auntl and uncle went up to Big Bear so I thought I'd do something nice, plus I felt kind of hypomanic the last couple days. But I'm tired right now.
A few days ago...
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I'm taking seven of these bright orange pills (depakene) as a mood stabilzer (up from six) I think if anything it might have given me a slight case of Tourettes syndrome. Fuck! I deposited some checks from my real job to my old jobs credit union today and spotted some horrifying middle-aged myopic fuck brainless zombies I used to work with as well. I was...
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I feel a bit better today. Worked from six in the morning to noon and got paid for eight hours, yeah
lilgreenfrog cheered me up last night with her drunk words of admiration and silliness
I tested the hot water pipes in my house yesterday. Three leaks, which is a lot better than I thought I would do. So hopefully I'll fix them this week...
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