pammy

OK truth be told I HAVE been busy, but also I come on SG and check what's going down with friends and check what's up with groups and end up getting fed up and leaving. The group I have been most active in since the beginning just has me stumped. It used to be a pretty tightly knit community of wonderful people but this year it seems weird and different. I have always loved posting comments and sets there, but havn't for a bit just to see if things will settle down again. I know that memberships of our fave groups change all the time and we need to welcome new people or people who are coming back from long periods.It just seems harder than ever to connect with the core group that's been around forever.I'm not trying to sound snobbish about it or anything, I'm relatively new in the grand scope of things myself, I just rememeber not jumping in with a thousand shitty opinions from the get-go when I did first join up. So very sick of seeing drama and flaming. Sometimes the "flaming" isn't even what I would consider flaming, just a difference of opinion and somone ELSE decides it's flaming.I just don't want to be a part of all that.
I miss it. Alot.
I think I will most likely try to slowly get back into the swing of things there, post a set or two and hope for the best.
Maybe the big deal is that some folks take the pic taking way too seriously. I have never had any illusions that I would be a big famous model. Mostly because I AM a BIG model.I have been thrilled to death at the wonderful comments I've recieved in groups and hopefuls, etc. and pretty much push the modelling idea as much as I can anywhere they'll have me, tattoo shops, ports on modelmayhem.com, promotional stuff with The Gypsy Queens, etc.but, I can accept some things about myself like my body, my look, and my crappy height. It seems to me that some people aren't even considering these things about themselves and thinking SG will somehow make them famous and glamorous. Unfortunately except for about as many chicks as I can count on one hand this will never be the case. In fact, in some professional circles, you just better not mention AT ALL that you have anything to do with SG or you won't have even one pic snapped of you by an entire group of people.
Doing pic sets here has been some of the most fun I've had in years and I will continue to do it, but only for what it really is, FUN.
I just wish some other folks would do the same ad then we may get rid of the bit of snarkiness and jealousy going on in some sections of the site. That being said none of said jealousy or snarkiness has ever been directed at me (that I know of, I can be dense) but I've seen plenty of it and avoid those moments at all costs.This i think is pretty much the reason I have been so quiet.

Ack I'm ranting like a moron. My point was i miss you and will really try to be more active.
love and kisses,
Pammy