fuck this, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck......!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can't things just look up for once??? can't they go good??? can i be happy for like, more than one day ever??? what the fuck? my dad means more to me than the world its self. NO ONE will EVER compare in my head to what he is. he is a price among men. he's done...
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can't things just look up for once??? can't they go good??? can i be happy for like, more than one day ever??? what the fuck? my dad means more to me than the world its self. NO ONE will EVER compare in my head to what he is. he is a price among men. he's done...
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tracyramone:
im so sorry doll!! if you need to talk you know where to find me!! 
ice009:
i emailed you
so i'm decided....i'm gone on friday. hopefully my dad can help me out financially. i hate asking him for favors, but i have to. this kinda of fucks steve over, but not quite. i'm really really appriciative of what he's done for me. and i'm sorry this changes some things. but it's for the best. this is what i need to do. i need to...
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krim:
awwww 
Love you too 
come talk to meeee! where did you goooooooo! 
Love you too come talk to meeee! where did you goooooooo! 
lv:
"I could go crazy on a night like tonight,
when summer's beginning to give up her fight;
when every thought's a possibility,
and the voices are heard but nothing is seen;
why do you spend this time with me, may be an equal mystery..."
when summer's beginning to give up her fight;
when every thought's a possibility,
and the voices are heard but nothing is seen;
why do you spend this time with me, may be an equal mystery..."
VICTORY IS MINE! ah ha!!!!
derrrr *cracks up*
derrrr *cracks up*
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waxangel:
Jesus Christ, I can't keep track of who you are. You almost got me in trouble Saturday night.
necrolicht:
interesting name choice........
i'm feeling good today
Quote of the day-
"OMG, you're so emolicious, i want to hump you and make you cry about it"-LTrain
hahahahahahaha
Quote of the day-
"OMG, you're so emolicious, i want to hump you and make you cry about it"-LTrain
hahahahahahaha
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supremepizzaman:
I like this name...keep it. 
steveneurotic:
Nice new pics dork!
i need my music before i go insane. listening to the same stuff over and over again makes it all turn to musical mush in my head......and grates at my nerves.....i get ANGRY whne it comes on again.
i miss my emo, and my hardcore and my screamo angry angst ridden youth music.
i miss my emo, and my hardcore and my screamo angry angst ridden youth music.
ice009:
the emo is inside of you... look deep and you will see the inner cry baby... and you will understand
use the force
use the force
williamj:
britney spears is the new black. you should get into her stuff. that toxic song rocks lol
i just read his journal...
he leaves in four days...
there goes any sleep i was planning on having tonight.....
my tummy hurts now
Am I peeking if I look?
Do my kisses feel invasive?
Am I crying when I smile?
Who am I to say?
Can I see this from the inside?
Am I dying just to say?
With all these words hung 'round...
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he leaves in four days...
there goes any sleep i was planning on having tonight.....
my tummy hurts now
Am I peeking if I look?
Do my kisses feel invasive?
Am I crying when I smile?
Who am I to say?
Can I see this from the inside?
Am I dying just to say?
With all these words hung 'round...
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williamj:
dont go making yourself sick over it.
it will be okay *hugs*
it will be okay *hugs*
ice009:
cute lyrics in my journal... i like that song... i will return the favor... but i am so tired right now... i feel dead... im going into work an dtelling them that im going home as soon as someone else comes in... ehhhhhh.... youre beautiful... and me being far away is only temporary if you want it to be temporary... you know?? lots of love... lots of hugs... lots of kisses
i need to sleep more
ps... i lied... i want you online all the time... sitting and wait for me so i can talk to you whenever i want... because as much as you miss me... i promie you that i miss you more
[Edited on Mar 02, 2004 5:31AM]
i need to sleep more
ps... i lied... i want you online all the time... sitting and wait for me so i can talk to you whenever i want... because as much as you miss me... i promie you that i miss you more
[Edited on Mar 02, 2004 5:31AM]
talked to joe tonight on the phone. it's been awhile. it felt so good to hear his voice. the sound alone made me misty eyed. he's such an awesome person (sorry jason...ah-some) anyhow....so i went to the mall here tonight. it was cool. met one of steves friends, who was funny, he's cool beans. i found a rubber band i kept shooting at them both....
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ice009:
no words
just
no words
just
0theamazingrando:
WoOooooO! You are the new SG midget! Midgets rule!
happy mode.end.
back to the self loathing
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stormy:
oh ill be back.
nyc has stolen my heart.
god damnit i wanted to go dancing so bad!!!!!
nyc has stolen my heart.
god damnit i wanted to go dancing so bad!!!!!
rockepidemic:
Dizzamn girl, cut it out. Self loathing is my job.
its gorgeous out and i've got my fishnets on, my cute lil black undies, a hot date (le lovely limbo gal IGGY) and a huge grin and its time to let lose and be the lil dork i am. its weird how you instantly miss people when you think you won't be seeing them again. SGNY HERE I COME!
haha
haha
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ice009:
good luck tonight.
ymonster:
Suffice to say the dream was dirty... and odd.
i'm sitting here with a ferret in my lap and a smile on my face. its sunny out, and i have plans to hang out with friends tonight and dance my boo-tay off wiff steve and IGGY!!!!!. feels good. today should be a better day.
Quizilla Thinggy :what bright eyes song are you"
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Quizilla Thinggy :what bright eyes song are you"
You are "Waste of Paint". You can be a very over analyzing...
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tracyramone:
i'm soooooooo jealous!! i wanna go too!!!
the more i talk to you the worse i feel 
but it's not like i DON"T want to tlak to you. i wish we were okay, and we're not. we fight on a daily basis. you think i don't listen to you, and you're wrong. i do, sometimes i just don't know how to react. agh......i'll shut up. anything i say will make it worse....
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but it's not like i DON"T want to tlak to you. i wish we were okay, and we're not. we fight on a daily basis. you think i don't listen to you, and you're wrong. i do, sometimes i just don't know how to react. agh......i'll shut up. anything i say will make it worse....
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trucker_fiction:
well, shit... sorry, i was just trying to ask directions to the nearest slaughterhouse.... finding a quality blue-collar job these days has become quite a chore.... maybe i should look into that organ donation for money program....
lv:
*hugs Lush* I hope you do feel better and move on with choosing life soon, rather than continuing to pick the scabs and wounds you've experienced. It makes me sad to see you upset, and maybe it's selfish in not wanting me to be sad, and in wanting you not to be upset...but I like to think I truly would rather you not be upset.
I wish I could say more, but I don't want you upset with me or angry with me at all...I guess I'm not close enough to really know how you'd react to me and things.
At any rate, hugs to you lushy, and hopefully things start looking up soon.
I wish I could say more, but I don't want you upset with me or angry with me at all...I guess I'm not close enough to really know how you'd react to me and things.
At any rate, hugs to you lushy, and hopefully things start looking up soon.
"you need peoples approval... thats why you drink as much as you do... thats why you have to go out a lot... thats why you cant be single... thats why youre a memeber of all these communities... b/c you need them... and right now you dont have them... its been a littlw while since you were out with people... and thats why you feel so...
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peart:
I know what it is like to be alone, I have been alone all my life. I am used to it. I expect it. It is my future. Things for you though will improve, eventually it'll take time. There will be ups and downs, peaks and valleys, but hopefully you'll be there. Don't ask me where there is though. Have a good day and know that at least one person and mostly likely many more think that you are pretty nifty, and I'm sure a good book will think you are nifty too.
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If I could wave my magic wand...
I am made from the dust of the stars
And the oceans flow in my veins
Here I hide in the heart of the city
Like a stranger coming out of the rain
The evening plane rises up from the runway
Over constellations of light
I look down into a million houses
And wonder what you're doing tonight
If I could wave my magic wand
I'd make everything all right
I'm not one to believe in magic
But I sometimes have a second sight
I'm not one with a sense of proportion
When my heart still changes overnight
I had a dream of a winter garden
A midnight rendezvous
Silver, blue and frozen silence
What a fool I was for you
I had a dream of the open water
I was swimming away out to sea
So deep I could never touch bottom
What a fool I used to be
If I could wave my magic wand
I'd set everybody free
I'm not one to believe in magic
Though my memory has a second sight
I'm not one to go pointing my finger
When I radiate more heat than light
Don't ask me
I'm just improvising
My illusion of careless flight
Can't you see
My temperature's rising
I radiate more heat than light
Don't ask me
I'm just sympathizing
My illusions a harmless flight
Can't you see
My temperature's rising
I radiate more heat than light
Presto written by Neil Peart
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If I could wave my magic wand...
I am made from the dust of the stars
And the oceans flow in my veins
Here I hide in the heart of the city
Like a stranger coming out of the rain
The evening plane rises up from the runway
Over constellations of light
I look down into a million houses
And wonder what you're doing tonight
If I could wave my magic wand
I'd make everything all right
I'm not one to believe in magic
But I sometimes have a second sight
I'm not one with a sense of proportion
When my heart still changes overnight
I had a dream of a winter garden
A midnight rendezvous
Silver, blue and frozen silence
What a fool I was for you
I had a dream of the open water
I was swimming away out to sea
So deep I could never touch bottom
What a fool I used to be
If I could wave my magic wand
I'd set everybody free
I'm not one to believe in magic
Though my memory has a second sight
I'm not one to go pointing my finger
When I radiate more heat than light
Don't ask me
I'm just improvising
My illusion of careless flight
Can't you see
My temperature's rising
I radiate more heat than light
Don't ask me
I'm just sympathizing
My illusions a harmless flight
Can't you see
My temperature's rising
I radiate more heat than light
Presto written by Neil Peart
tracyramone:
you know where to find me if you need anything!!!! (((hugs)))