opticnerve

when do we get the old Optic back? i don't like to see you sad.

I do hate that feeling... I hope it is a very long time before I'm there again... With any luck I'll never again, but we all know that just isn't gunna happen.

Keep looking at Neve, or whatever else gets you through the days.

Man, I hate those periods in life. You'll look back on these times, and with a gentle smile feel relieved that they are many years past.

If you need to vent or anything, send me an email and let 'er rip.

Keep well.

*checking in and sending a hug*

Describe "screwing up"... I believe in the likes of you ...

I couldn't live anywhere without season changes... I NEED all 4 of them to feel good. On the west coast we get pretty lame winters though. It's more like an extended Autumn but way colder.

i believe you are correct. i hope my rant the other day didn't come across that i am bitter or something. i was mostly just pointing out the double standards in set quality. i enjoy SG and have a good time posting pictures but whether or not i ever become one really isn't of any consequence to me. every once in a while i do my best and take some pics to send in and when rejected i'm usually rewarded with a few months free membership which is nice. i'm pretty much just in it for the social aspect and people like you.

Yep... I here ya. Unfortunately 'the art of endurring' life and circumstance is pretty tough for anyone to master. There are no dojo's I know of that can really teach that. Just try to live up to 'nin' (Nin as in Ninja.. Not Nine Inch Nails.. for those that are confused) as best you can.

Life has been turbulent for me lately... I honestly try to have a spirit of 'nin', but being human is pretty intense sometimes. I think that it is fine to experience all the uncertainty and frailty of being human, but to have a spirit of 'nin' means that you won't give up until you've been destroyed utterly, or you are victorious in your life.

I bet there were melancholy Ninja back in the day. They got lonely, and needed love too. But they had the benefit of having a lot of time for personal reflection and meditation. The idea was to be human and have the full spectrum of emotion and desire, but to not let them control you or make you suffer.

I sometimes think that just trying to keep the spirit of 'nin' in you heart is enough. One may never master that mindset, but to strive for that spirit is maybe a life long quest that may or may not ever get fulfilled. At the very least, striving for 'nin' will make us stronger better people. The spirit of "keeping going" as Hatsumi Sensei likes to say.

you'll put out if i buy you dinner? sounds like a fair offer to me...

Yeah CBC would be harshly missed in those parts.

As for dinner, I'm not looking for manly love so I'll pass for now. It looks like you've got a taker anyway.

Tricia is a good name for sure. Fruity hair and good hugs make for fantastic memories.

Yeah... I....Miss.... you too...man.

Keep well.