neon

i just have to keep telling myself: six more days six more days six more days......

i think i can do it.

p.s. mornings are the worst.

bart says this is the part where i always die in the end.

i'm gonna shoot my cramps in the head. and then bury them in a far away deserted forest.

i'm in a giddy, bitchy, fuck it kind of mood. yes!

i had a conversation with my best friend [catherine] over the phone today. it was one of those talking about lipstick conversations. i miss that girl so much. i don't feel quite complete without her around. i miss raven too. can't wait to share an appartment with that girl. she's one of the only...
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i'll snap out of it. in just a few more days. i can't wait until this stage of my life is over finally. i can say with confidence that i am never ever ever comming back to richmond to live again. one of the worst ideas i've ever had. i'll still visit my family offcourse.

god i fucking hate this place.

i'm so fucking depressed these days that sometimes i just feel like i'm going to die.

i had my first day of community service yesterday. and i had to stand for 5 1/2 hours in the freezing cold sorting christmass stuff for this thrift store. i was already aware of this before but yesterday put a big giant stamp on the fact that christmass is sooooo fucking tacky. 30 hours to go.

i'm thinking of dying my hair brown. i don't...
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i just had a nightmare. it's 4:30 in the morning and i'm scared to turn off my lights and go back to sleep. it was one of those where you wake up kind of willingly but after being completely terrified. i laid there frozen in the same position for about ten minutes before i finally gathered enough balls to pull the blanket over my head...
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go here and witness me become raven's bitch!
http://suicidegirls.com/boards/Lifestyle/7193/

today i will attempt to pack. i will call the comm. service place. i will probably drink two or three cans of coke. i will quit my job. i will probably look at this site a lot. i will emotionally and mentally prepare myself for the shoplifting group therapy class thing tomorrow. i will read comics. i will probably not leave my house.

what will...
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Bart did it !

i just finished watching a movie called malena. i strongly recomend it. and if you're a crybaby like i am make sure to have some tissues nearby so you don't have to user your sleeve.

it's snowing outside. it's pretty pretty.