neisha

That song that I posted in my last journal... last night was my brother's 17th birthday party and i'd convinced him about how cool that song is.
We got drunk, i put that song on really loud, and me and my brother danced around and yelled the lyrics, and his friends ended up joining in.
Fuck it was fun.

this song is dedicated to my ex:

well first off all i'd like to say fuck off,
fuck off!
fuck off,
fuck off!
if you don't get it why don't you go
shove your head back up your ass
and don't waste my time, i don't need your opinion
cause you don't know what it's like
you don't know what it's
you don't know what...
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...valentines' day sucks.

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will...
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I just saw Jarhead.... interesting movie...

not much action or anything, but it made me think about war i guess. and how a lot of it would be just waiting around for something to happen.

I think i expected more of it because Sam Mendes directed, and after American Beauty I was expecting Jarhead to have some similarities. But it wasn't a bad movie.

Damn...
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Doing well. Better every day.

...oh and today I realised what an fuckwit he really can be, when he sent me weird scary messages. God they were scary... I had relentless_hate to look after me though

He also showed up at my house tonight... my brother went outside and told him that i didn't want to see him. He gave my bro a letter to...
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So... what i was scared of...

Last night my boyfriend - now ex - came over and before he did i had made up my mind that I had to end it once and for all... I was terrified of how he would react.

things had been going okay but then he really freaked out at me about a week and a half ago and...
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I'm scared.




Tell you why next time.

Aussie Aussie Aussie! Oi Oi Oi!


...or something along those lines.

Okay it seems that some people jumped to conclusions about my last entry. Let me clarify.

There is no fucking way in hell that i am, or was, or have ever been, pregnant. Got that? Good.

Boyfriend has found a house that he wants to make an offer on. Which means if he gets it he wants me to move in with him.

I am...
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I'm in a strange place in my life at the moment. I know somehow that the next big decision i make will decide which path i take in life....

I won't elaborate until i've made it. Which should be pretty damn soon actually, by the way things are going.



Ooh I am just so mysterious aren't I. lol.

So you'll all just have to wait...
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