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We have been going on searched since Saturday. I'm going to go check a few places today for the hell of it. Game Stop and EB already said its not on sale til tommorrow, which is bullshit.

Damn west coast people!!!

Was that like thanks A LOT *with arm twisted and something sharp help to temple* or thanks a lot because it gave me something to do far longer than I thought it would take?

It didn't look that long, then I was like damn! scroll...scroll...scroll...shit. Well, I already started it I might as well finish it now.

If you don't mind.... a request.

Zero communication about things of importance. He could rattle on and on about computers, cars, his work, home theater stuff and I could engage him likewise but after 4 + years we are going to occasionally have to have a conversation involving his feeling and thats when he would clam. Eyes closed, no expression, no words. It was pretty painful. Once he even fell asleep. I would go from calm, to asking questions about how he feels, to giving him multiple choices hoping he'd pick one, to assuming, (that's NEVER good) and finally I realized I couldn't do it. I would end up in tears it was so frustrating. Then I started acting more and more like him which wasn't any better Great two people that can't communicate their thoughts and feelings. Wonderfuckful. He would always tell me I was lecturing, it would make me think of a college professor, one who was asking questions of a roomful of students who didn't know the answers. I wanted a two way street if I wanted a relationship at all. I had spent so much time doing all the work... looking for houses to buy, all the shopping, and housework. I started thinking maybe I should focus more energy on myself. He had a really demanding job as a plant mgr for an automotive supplier warehouse and he's young with no college degree so they can really take advantage of him. When I met him I had 2 jobs to his none though. Finally I felt like I was the only one investing anything in the relationship, he doesn't like change much, and seemed to be pretty miserable with me around and vice versa even though he blamed it on the job. Life is too short to be miserable. I figured screw it, I tried to make him happy, I'd like to see him happy, only he can make him happy and sooner or later he'll figure that out but for now he can be miserable without me...

Then there was the concrete billboard that I ignored last year that hit me in the face....

It was in my journal a while back....he had trouble defining authority *his own* and how exactly to get your workers to respect you, like if you kissed your girlfriend in front of them. *gasp* They don't have someone they love be it a mother, aunt, or sig. other?

I got through to him at the hospital. When he came into the room in the ER and tried to kiss me, the curtain wasn't drawn and there were people around so I said, "Not in front of these people." There were tears brimming my eyes but I don't think I let them go. I'm pretty sure the nurse guy thought I was nuts, then again I did hit my head.

Sorry for the long post....

next time make it A. B. C. or D

Don't forget there is always "Ball and Chain" too.

Maybe the grass is always greener on the other side....

what is your ideal? What are you REALLY looking for? surely not some chick that is invloved with one of your friends.

on the monk issue..... 1. monks are cool, they have no self doubt and 2. Murphy's law always works for me and everyone else I know.... go ahead and say never.
Just when you don't want it to, it might just appear. If for any other reason than to make fools of us. Life really is a bitch like that sometimes. She loves making us go back on our word to ourself and change our big plans.

I've been down here with you for a while myself.....AND I don't get paid the big bucks. wow, just when I thought I couldn't feel much worse. heh.

Ha! Good deal..

I was going to suggest you do the switch thing to where it's her deal to make the move. Now, no worries.

It sucks you don't have any decent coworkers to hang with. It always gives you something in common. I guess that is one thing about having as many jobs as I've had. I've managed to make friends along the way. I haven't kept in touch with them all, but I suppose if I put forth the effort... they would be there. I always have that one moment of stupor when I recognize someone when I have to place if it's one of the 3 high schools I went to or a job I've had. Helps if they are much older than me and I can eliminate them from the school reference.

Plus there seems to be staggering differences between single/no kids and married with kids. There hasn't been many kids I've ran into that I've actually liked hanging out with and to get to know people you usually have to hang out with them and their kids. It seems hard to find people in the 25 and up age bracket that don't have kids anymore. I too am happy when I get carded. I attribute that to not having kids most of the time. Although I hear once you have them you grow up quick.

Glad you found your ring. It's odd but I usually find things once I stop looking for them.

I've never lost my septum ring but I'm constantly losing the studs in my nostrils., much cheaper to replace though.
I can't even remember the last time I took out my septum, I think it was for a dental X-ray like 5 years ago?

Gamecube is a wonderful thing. I'm very partial to it, but thats because I just love the weirdness that is Nintendo.
Games to get, if not now eventually:
Harvest Moon A wonderful Life, and if the cuteness doesn't kill you and you have a lot of free time on your hands I'd pick up Animal Crossing too. I played for a year straight, and because the characters exist in real time you'll go crazy and do weird things like wake up at 6am just to pretend to work out or skip real holidays to celebrate virtual ones.
Super Monkey Ball, 1 or 2 is great. 1 I think has dropped in price, 2 has better part games. They are both insane amounts of fun...and monkeys in balls...what can be better!
Metroid Prime, its breathtaking and the game play is smooth and fun.
Legend of zelda the Wind Waker, the cutesy thing is a bit unnerving at first, but the game play makes up for it.
Mario Kart, you can be Donkey Kong
And then there is of course Resident Evil and Eternal Darkness...creeepy.

I would avoid like the Plague Resident Evil 0 and Super Mario Sunshine. I tried to play Mario but I just couldn't get into it, and the voice of the vaccum cleaner was sooooo irritating.

Thats wordy...my apologies. Let me know what you pick up!

She expects you to call her...... I wouldn't....

Just friendly advice on how to throughly confuse your prey...er a girl. From one girl that is.

Wise, plus you can scope out her reading material.

Liquid language lubrication, relax and have fun letting her get to know you.

Well did you just move to Philly? Sounds like you did. It is hard moving to a new area and making aqaintences, I had to do it more times than I can count. Hey, since you have a car, you're always welcome to come over my apartment and hang with me, my boyfriend and some friends if you're ever bored.
If that came off as creepy, I apologize in advance.

What kind of VW is it?

Just thought of who could have called....Then again... your dad could have been fucking with you... it could have been a telemarketer.....



how will you go about getting him back? No salt in the sugar bowl sh*t will work....

My car is currently dying a long and tedious death so i've been doing the looking at cars dance too.

I think we're really hooked on the Scion XA. i know its a dorky kids car but it comes with a crap load of stuff standard and its cheap for a new car. i want a Pirius but I'd have to rod a bank to afford that.

Old school beetle sounds like the way to go.
Good luck with the search for credit!

Hmmmm... maybe some girl saw you at the dealership and overheard that you get up early to go to work and thought she'd call you? you never know....... would be slightly psycho but then all love/lust starts out that way.