well still no luck in finding a job.
i do have an interview today, on the most "unluckiest" of days but thats just nonsense.
ive never felt luckier.
so wish me luck!!
And I had to tell him.
I owed him the truth.
You made two mistakes. First was you "made out" with another guy but this hardly meets the definition of cheating bad judgment maybe but you are also 20 and not 30 or 40.
Second was you told your boyfriend. What did you expect to happen? Did you think he would congratulate you on your honesty? You told him to make yourself feel better and this only served to hurt him too.
You live and you learn. Your journal entries show that you are a good, caring, and loving person who does not seek to harm others. You will either work this out with the bf or not. Do not beat yourself too much over this it was a mistake and not a world or life ending event.
And if you want to be "making out with this guy again" end it with the other guy first.
Good luck and you will be fine.