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Home from another weekend in Canada. Just made my first car payment - just had the car hit for the first time this morning. Fucking tractor trailers on NJ Turnpike.

Ok, so not going #2 for a couple of days + 1 corned beef ruben + Popeye's Red Beans & Rice = death gas.

I hope I don't get tossed off the airplane tomorrow for creating a potentially lethal situation for the other passengers. khoos will kill me if I don't show up tomorrow.

So I crashed last night... HARD. khoos sat on Skype with me and watched me come apart - crying on and off, feeling so emotionally fucked and just wanting to be held. It really sucks when the person you want to hold you is watching from 500 miles away and feeling completely useless. The part that really scared me was the fact that I all...
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Ok, so it's an alone weekend for me. I have to babysit Chococat because Anne is going away and the person taking care of the kids isn't capable of taking care of the diapered wonder. khoos can't afford to come visit this weekend and next, so she picked up some side work for the weekend and also has an SGCE event that she'd planned that...
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Ok... I'm a fucking moron. About 10 minutes ago, I realized I'm missing the jewelry from one of my piercings. I remember it being there last night, but I'm not sure about in the shower this morning or any other time I went to the bathroom today... HOW THE FUCK DID I NOT NOTICE A 12G BARBELL MISSING FROM THE SHAFT OF MY COCK?

It's Saturday... guess where I am? Here's a hint: Continental Airlines + $105 round trip airfare = OTTAWA!!!

Ok, a truce has been declared. Apologies were made, agreements that drama gets us nothing and just delays the inevitable. Now the goal is working towards getting the house prepped for sale.

Hopefully it's a more stable truce than any between Israel and Palestine, eh?

Ok, time to lighten the mood. A weekend of movies, sushi, video games and roller coasters, a.k.a. a weekend of much needed fun with my girl. I'm still a little paranoid, waiting for the next bad/stressful thing to happen. It will, most likely when I'm least expecting it, but I'm growing more comfortable with my current support system. It helps that the person I need...
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Ok... so things are looking better. khoos is almost here and we're going to work this out. She's an incredible and wonderful woman, which I obviously don't deserve. She sees something in me worth fighting for and I love her to pieces, so I'm not going to argue with her wanting to make it work.

I probably won't be around here anymore. I've lied to and cheated on someone I love very much with a woman who has done nothing but hurt me.

Thank you to all my friends on here who have supported me when I needed it.

Justin

My weekend without a woman was moderately successful. I say moderately successful because I spent a lot of time in chat or on Skype with khoos and got a few phone calls from Anne to make sure I wasn't secretly going to off myself.

Things I did accomplish this weekend:
1) Setup my MAME stuff. I got a wicked deal on Xgaming.com's X-Arcade Tankstick a...
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Day 3 of "Justin should be in the Looney Bin":

Made it to work today. Feeling drastically better, but still not good. For those of you who don't suffer from chronic bouts of depression, you not only "hurt" yourself, but you tend to destroy those closest to you. There is a lot of healing I need to do and apologies that I can only attempt......
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