mya22

I don't know what to do anymore... I feel like I'm doing something wrong, but I know in my head that I shouldn't feel like that because it's just completely illogical to. I've done the best I can. I've been the best person I can be. I can't help but feeling that's not good enough...

I ruined my cutie's naptime yesterday... Hopefully she'll forgive me eventually.

I'm evil and naughty and i surprise people... hehe

For the most adorable girl ever...
From Dubtribe...

All my life
I sit and wonder
Why you put yourself down.
What's so bad
What's so bad
What's so bad
About what we have now?
Raise your hands in the twilight
Raise your hands to the skylight

And say, I love you
No fear anymore
Happiness is found like a love come down that shines inside...
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I'm watching the movie "Skipped Parts" and there was the cutest line in it. The girl came to the boy's house in the middle of the night and wanted to sleep in his bed....

Boy: "Well, I'm gonna go sleep on the couch."
Girl: "No, that's too far away... I might need you."

I haven't heard this song forever, but it came on the radio today while I was driving to the bank. I just realized how much I like the words...

Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls

And Id give up forever to touch you
cuz I know that you feel me somehow
Youre the closest to heaven that ill ever be
And I dont want to...
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As I sit here and realize how extremely lucky and fortunate I am, I'm swept into a place where I feel safe and cared for, where everything is simple and I don't have to worry...

So I had a little fun with the webcam for someone special yesterday... I thought I'd share a few with everyone though, just for shits and giggles. So there are new pics posted. Let me know what you think.

UPDATE: I'm watching the most beautiful person in the world sleep right now and all I can do is stare. This is one of the best...
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It's 4:30am and I woke up in a fit of anxiety. Now I can't sleep - I keep fighting the air around my bed and I can't breathe. No one else is awake right now... I'm all alone in the middle of the night and I don't know how to make it go away. I just want to go back to sleep...

On another note,...
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I float through the night and wonder what I did to deserve the brightest star in the sky. There are no clouds to stunt my view as I look past the darkness in order to find a place that's real. I enter a realm where everything's new, where it's easy to lose my path, but I look to the sky and know that my star...
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I'm feeling the need to fly. I want that sense of weightlessness that only that can give. I want to get away and take someone with me. I want to be where I can't. My head's full and I'm scared...

I just had an amazing weekend... I really can't describe it any more than that - I think that it might just be beyond words or something. And that's okay with me, for once...