mtlqueen

thanks so much...these are the words my heart gets full with. i am not published but your question about the nursing thing goes deep. i like my one way roads. the idea of going foward and not getting my head stuck in the cobwebs seems like relief. but i am not sure if i will ever be sure. i want to have a child one day and i am concerned about finances but i guess i am also obsessed with my own childhood. maybe i'll write about having a child, i almost did once..never mind (two spanish coffees later) thank you.

Hey -

If you're at all interested - we are trying to put together a Toronto Hook-up for SG members. It'll be here:

Burlesque Nite
featuring a live performance by
Vampire Beach Babes
Sat. Nov. 23rd
The Reverb
651 Queen St. West
Toronto
Doors@8
Show@11

I'll have more information on Monday or Tuesday in regards to cover, etc....
Lemmeno if you are coming

I'm here baby! And I've picked some lucky ladies to be my favorites (but don't worry girls, you'll all get a chance!) I've finally started my journal too...and now that you've seen my tattoo are you FINALLY going to fucking run away with me to California?? We can join forces on the World Domination Tour..... love ya freeboobs!

Awesome!

Jenna

sounds great....good luck.

AAAAHHH! That's so fucking kick ass! you got the space! i'm coming by all the time to visit you sexy ladies. MTLQUEEN makes me most beautiful jewelry. I have a necklace she made me that I never take off. Woo-hoo! Can't wait to see you tonight so you can tell more.

i have some interesting experiences with pot. both are terrible, well, not so, terrible is a powerful word. it's interesting, alot of people i am around , or at least one of the major people in my life can drink everyday. i can't. my body is pretty sensitive. i get dried out and i don't know enough to drink enough water. lately, too, the drink has been unleashing some angry/ugly parts of myself so that, before i go there, i check myself and i often feel it isn't worth it. one time, i ate so many pot brownies, not knowing they took a while to kick in, i started tripping on them and then exploded the entire night in a firehose stream of vomit. another time, i smoked some and thought i was going to die because my lungs were filling up with liquid. pretty telling, huh?1. afraid of death 2. nieve ahhhh, but this was quite a long time ago...

1: all the cool kids know that Russian Supremetism is where its at.
2: Yes and Yes.
3: covered by #4
4: yes, in conjunction with #2
5: stuff is good. I like stuff.

that kicks ass. nice, inspiration is. i like the pictures. its cool to get in on a bit of your life. i once wrote a letter as if i was in paris to my partner, who was not, and in it i could feel as if i was there, or thought i was. i told him i missed him, but was'nt sure i wanted to come home. to be surrounded by such old beauty everywhere would be quenching, so far, i feel as if i'm drying up.

yep, DJ Leslie was there, she span between bands.
the Record Runner makes me haemorrhage money.
great pictures, I am now officially very jealous of your trip, and I thought that I had the travel-bug under control.

I tried to use a french keyboard once. It sucked. Those cheese eating bastards moved some of the letters and most of the punctuation. The first email I typed took about 40 minutes for a short paragraph.

Pareeee is so nice, I hope you're having fun.
Let us know what you did/saw, when you get back.

Your triumph over Lee Aaron is an epic worthy of a Steve-Harris-penned/Bruce-Dickinson-wailed Maiden Marathon, a la Ryme of the Ancient Mariner... but with that irrepresible '88 "Body Rock" flair.

I bet her last words were "What'd You Do To My Body? ... Baby....ugh...". She's so cliche...

interesting, that you create jewelery. i have a thing for the stuff. i used to make necklaces and braclets with neat items i found when i was younger and would get into these wierd states because i would infuse them with intention, mostly protection, and i am positive they aided me. i then wanted to work with metals, but never did since i was certain jobs would'nt be steady and i'd be dirt poor, not that i'm in any different place now. so, i was thinking about becoming a nurse. i've been going to school - did i tell you that?- i like to heal, see? and they are needed, boy are they, but with western medicine riding my ass, i was uncertain again so, well, there are no easy answers. but that's cool what you do. if you got some pictures kicking around of your work that you can e mail to me please do, although it doesn't sound like you'll have the time and i don't plan on getting married anytime soon. funny when you realize how important your family is to you when you live 3000 miles away, hey!hey!(sorry, scattered) glad you got some work.

i'm with you. when i was younger i believed in alot of things including the power of stones and spells. in fact, when i look back into the past alot of what i experieced could be considered insanity. funny, i was much more happy then. scary how things can nuetralize. i generally lump things into two catigories, even though i am aware that stuff can't fit into easy slots. fear can rule a large percentage of my life. sometimes when i'm riding on the bus i look outside at myself. am i older, am i hopeless, am i wiser? sometimes i feel i'm not half as energetic. i also finally became much more careful with my projections taking responibility in how i percieve things but i have to tell you, it gets tricky. for instance, i am constantly allowing myself the choice to really feel people out, this leads me into a life of isolation because i tend to feel things so strongly from people that i usually get disturbed to the point of not wanting to continue with the interaction. what makes it worse is i most likely am strange to be around because i don't take things at face value and alot of people get whigged about being honest. honesty is a fucking hoot. i strive for it in all relationships. but i could go on. (coffee swallowed on an empty stomach.) i like you, too.

Thanks for the Saturny bit, I find that it's fun to look back on things (the way you would with yesterday's horoscope) and take those changes that seem so out of our control and attribute them to major universal movements that are so out of our control. I had no idea that my Saturn had come back to me... I want to give madshoutoutprops to my Saturn for instigating all the weirdness that has happened since my 28th birthday:
- quit my crappy old soul-sucking job for a shiny new job (note that it was my crappy job that was sucking MY soul.. if my job was sucking souls... well, I'd probably would have kept it.)
- got the fuck out of York Region and moved back north.

... 2 points, eh... thats not as much weirdness as I had thought. Its the large scale of the change that matters.

All of this began to happen exactly 3 months (to the day) from my birthday. Maybe it takes a while for Saturn to haul away all the bad Juju.

So stay alert when December rolls around.

And please tell me that in order to claim the crown of Metal Queen you had to destroy Lee Aaron.

there's a theory about your life changing in 7 year cycles - 7, 14, 21...21's definitely a big one. who knows, but it was an interesting theory. bring it on 35. i don't remember anything too different about turning 28, but i'm not very good at recalling events by age once i got past the teens.

hi honey. i didn't see cemetary man recently. i respect your anger about women being projected in a negetive and fucked up way. i am usually very keyed into such issues, so much that i feel i am in constant time bomb mode, ready to go off about something i percieve as limiting at any time. i am proud of my passionate, and i think, just nature but i sometimes feel i'm hard to be around and in a perfect world everything would be good, tidy,and clean tasting so i mostly wrote that movie in my favs because it effected me deeply. the ending did'nt leave me the same as i was. but goddamn i'm a little ashamed of myself if i did'nt remember a woman being portrayed as if she was enjoyng rape. i just saw a german film das experiment that contained a scene of a woman getting raped. it was terrible. later, my boyfriend said "i wonder how many were secretly excited over that scene." i walked away i was so pissed at the thought of anyone being so base they would'nt consider the reprocussions(i don't know how to spell that) of a rape. anyway....thanks for dropping in.