monovox

COOOOOOOFFFFFFEEEEEEEEEE!

*yelled like marlan brando in a street car named desire*

Today I sucked on a morsel of lucid self awareness like nothing I have tasted in years. The aftertaste lingers... I long to draw these moments out. to make them last like an everlasting gobstopper.

I pray that I don't wake up back in the fog.

What a great day off. Other than having to deal with my poor dog kira getting sick on my bed in the middle of the night. That's a papa's job though. She seems to be feeling better now. It's hard to watch your babies when thier sick

I had a great ride today. lots of windy backroads out in the middle of nowhere listening to...
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Today I am numb.

should I be feeling anything?

should I care?

You turn death into flag waving.

You fuck the heart of meaning.

You scoop out all of the meaningful insides and fill it with corn syrup...and call it the same.

You fien understand and yet act with hate.

You understand nothing and are full of fear.

You know that you can't deal with...
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What a lazy day. I'm being lazy. the dogs are being lazy. the air still has a bit of a chill to it and I just want to cozie up. I really should get some shit done cleaning & such...

nah. fuck it. I probably should at least put some pants on though, eventually.

things are lookin up. the air is cooling off and the night is coming a little sooner. I can smell autumn. It's not here, but soon. I can hardly wait.

*titters like a school girl*

"I've never been lost. I've been mighty bewildered for a bit... but I've never been lost"

Right now I'm really fuckin' bewildered. Maybe more so than I have ever been. I'm tired and my emotional/mental/psychic compass is totally failing. I am wondering if I may truelly be lost. I can't get a bearing... the landscape is indistinct and I think that I am wandering in...
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No molestia esta grooooove, baby!

Computers really don't like me lately. I have always felt that the machines that I used the most many times would mirror my emotional state. Well right now I really have to wonder what the hell I must be going through emotionaly to have all of these problems on so many machines...

Fuck computers. I just want to make art and ride my motorcycle. At...
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My 3 day weekends end on labor day weekend. I wish that we could do 4 day work weeks all year round, not just in the summer.

I have lounged around all morning. It's been nice. I really need to get out in the sun and take some photographs. My SFMOMA visit last week really was inspirational; both the American bauhaus photographic design show and...
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What a fucking shitty day! I feel like every cell of my body has been scraped out and filled with sand... my brain feels like it has been dragged behind a car for miles. I beg for sleep. All day, one after the other we had computer problems. Do I look like IT to you?!? I didn't get a bit of creative done, helping one...
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Ya Hooo! my biz partner gave me a trip to SF for the weekend for my b-day. Leaving tommorow. Gots to get a packin! She is even having her daughter watch my pups. Should be a well deserved break from the daily grind here. I am excited.