melvina

i feel like i should start packing. i wish i was coming home tomorrow.

dreams were weird but i can't really piece them together, i just know that i'm still pissed off this mornign.
well. actually. i was fine until house boy came and plopped down on the couch when i've said time.and.time.again.
in the morning, i get ONE HOUR of alon time to myself, every day, and i enjoy it and to LEAVE IT ALONE.
he took it personally when i sighed and went back into the bedroom.
i'm tired. and i really didn't want to start my day like this. but you know what.
fuck it. you're home in 15 days. and counting.

i sent you my itinerary. got the ticks. flying into lex on the 20th, should be in somerset by dinnertime.

yay.yay.yay.
except there's one problem.
i leave that morning to go to dallas. i won't be back until the 28th.
but.
you will be here until the uhm.. 6th, right? right before Our birthday. that will be lovely and i can't.fucking.wait.
now if only i can stuff you in my duffle bag (which I]is body sized, you know..) and get you to dallas with me for a few days...

o.k. i am off for sure the weekend of x-mas. but i might have to work the 20th, which means i couldn't leave until the 21st. or. 22nd... but, i have more. negotiating to do. later tonight. before work. ug. wish me luck. i'm going to try to get new years weekend off, which is looking good. so that means i'd be home for a little more than 2 weeks. i'll try for longer, if i can. but. we'll see. i think it would be asking a bit too much. meh. anyway. i'll talk to you when i hear more.

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. that's all i have to say at 9am after being told i could have cancer. yeah. i'm awake now but at least i have SOME good news. (don't freak, beck. i have a biopsy on thursday.) i'm doing enough for the both of us.

rawr. head still. out of sorts. but in an achey way, and not as much... the other way. going to the coffee shop to get some chai tea and write a bit. things taste less like poison now and more like plain ol' mucous. yay for beck. love muchly. and soon. i'll see you. <3 too.

rawr, sigh. at least there was some feeling-better-ness going on there. madlove.

slept crappily last night. again. up at 7. again. hopefully today i'll actually get a hold of you. or you'll get a hold of me. or. something... bah. it's supposed to rain today. i hope it is not so cold. nothing new on this end of the world. i'm going to try to make some phone calls today and get the time off i need. wish me luck, i have a bad feeling about it.

i slept crappily last night as well. bah for us. today is.. hum.. tuesday.. so. i'll cally ou on one of my breaks or you can call me after 4:30 my time when all the big wigs leave.. we're not supposed to have phones on the floor any more but eh. you know. must.hear.your.voice.
luck, luck, luck, babe. with the getting-the-time-off. i'm crossing my fingers cause i would surely love to have you with me. so.selfish. <3

i wish i could have had that dream. my dream was that i was in the bar, and everyone was trying to make me play led zeppilin. and i don't like led zeppilin. at all. and then there was this thing where everyone was dressing up as led zeppilin, except they told me i couldn't because my legs were too fat. but. i think i was secretly happy. because. i swear, fuck led zeppilin, mel. fuck them. they are not that good. they really aren't.

saw goat this morning, he said he called you. i was sad because i tried to call before i went to work, but my phone went dead half-way through dialing your number. but. i miss my mel.

and. above all. mel... i really just don't think led zeppilin is that great. please tell them to leave me alone about led zeppilin. i just. don't. like. that. band. at. all.

rarg. this job is driving me mad.

i will try to call tomorrow, i am off work all day. yay of all yays! i love you, babe. i wish i could talk to you right now. i wanted to ask you some things. anyway. talk to you later.

love.
-beck.

MEH. MEH TO LED ZEPPLIN.
pure hate and loathing for them. as i. i hate them too. ah. we are not alone, beck.
i will beat them and tell them to leave you be. because there will be NO playing of led zepplin in the bar.
i will call you tonight, if you want. i should also send you a new phone. i have one i do not use that is neat looking but it is not cordless. meh. any way.
i have not talked to goat today but i talked to him yesterday laying on jules. we talked about vortexes. and about the fact that i really should relocate.
i work tomorrow but you call me any way if we don't get in touch tonight. i love you, babe. i've got to go back to work. tell goat the dream. it was neat as fuck. madlove.

sorry about your great aunt.

thanks. me too. but i'm more sorry about my sister. heh. i'll live. i just hate that room, that one room. meh.

Hope you have a great Thanksgiving!

oh lord i hate holidays but you know what. THANK YOU FOR SAYING SO. you too. really. <3

i <3 against me! a great deal.
when i first got my vertical bridge done, i had it pierced with a surface bar, which is. fairly normal. but the rises were too long and i hit every thing on fucknig earth with my forehead it seemed so i switched to tygon. it was all right for a while but never actually allowed my vertical to.. heal as much as a surface piercing can heal, which isn't much but eh. finally, i went to get a custom surface bar and turns out my vertical has rejected a little, so it's too small (height) to get a custom s.bar and i ended up with. a curved barbell. and it's been the best damn thing on earth.
my vertical is bound to reject completely sooner or later but for the last.. hmmmm... almost 2 years? maybe more. it has been just fine. it takes hella work to keep it happy, though. it's not a piercing for the lazy because it can be a real bitch. however. it is my favorite. <3
and. don't care how you got here but feel free to come back. i love your hawk. mine is not nearly as neato.

i forgot to say that, yeah. i keep all 17 of my piercings.. wait, i guess it could bne 18, i don't remember but any way- i keep them all in at work. i work at an MHMR facility and deal with a lot of violent behavior and have never had one ripped out until today. HAH- TODAY.
they sent us a new client the day before yesterday and she attempted to rip all the earrings out of my ears today. fun. i'm going to try to get plugs tomorrow if i can find some money!

uhg. camera charging, i'll get you the pic soon. (couldn't find it on mine or rhys' computer). so. retake. i have to work for andrew tomorrow night. day before thanksgiving. i am going to the track- the race track, you know, horses and all- for opening day on thanksgiving. to hell with the turkey. the only turkey i'll be putting in my mouth is that of the wild variety. um. bourbon. yes. god. i wish i was home instead of here. right. now. i hate my fucking job sometimes. grrr. more coherrent thoughts later. but. much love to you, my pretty.
-beck.

take your time, i'm sure you'll have a spare moment today to get the camera working to get that pic. no.problem.k?
i wishi were going to the race track too! are you going with juan or some one else? sounds a grand way to spend the fucking holiday. guess where i'll be?
oh yeah. that's right. tardwood. i'll be working. yippee. but seeing i don't so holidays any way.. who cares?! (oh. and overtime helps.)
any way. sitting here waiting to go to work with white tea and oatmeal. just out of the bath. smoking. i don't want to go to work. call me today randomly if you get bored. madmadmadmadlove. <3mel