melaniac

I went to a bar last night for the first time since November.
It kinda felt like the twilight zone.
I was so scared that I would buy something.

I have been sober since November from all drugs and alcohol.
When I woke up this morning I couldn't remember everything from last night, I was so scared that I fucked up and bought a drink...
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Nervous breakdown is coming on.....
School is getting to be too much
My boss cut back my hours, so I can't pay the bills
My pills are working very well
My ex keeps messing with me
I havent seen my friends in months
I just wanna curl up and cry
I almost wish I was back on the lithium so I cant feel anything at...
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Time
It's never worth my time
Blue shine
Bleeds into my eyes

I still
Sleep on the right side
Of the white noise
Can't leave the scene behind

Could I be anything you want me to be
Its always meant to be seen

When you see yourself in a crowded room
Do your fingers itch, are you pistol-whipped?
And will you step in line or...
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Another day, another dollar. Manager meeting at 9am on my day off. How lame is that? Cost control, spread sheets, waste variance, labor percentages....omg. I need a vacation.

My car inspection is 4 months late. Gotta get this done. I have had 3 nightmares about getting pulled over and getting a ticket for expired inspection sticker...haha. Shows how lame my dreams are these days.

Dermatologist...
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Being a manager is over rated....I wish I could goof off at work and have fun and be silly....but no, I have to be serious and set an example......I just want to dance and sing and shake my booty lalalalala

I love clerks...."One ring to rule them all." Next time I make onion rings at work I will have to act out this scene. For some reason, I don't think anyone will understand....makes me sad. Thats what I get for working with kids. "Pillowpants is her pussy troll."