Sitting in my goddamn sauna of the room, listening to the Canadian federal election results come in. Very frustrated by the fact that they're pretty much calling the election before a single vote has been tallied in B.C. I know it's pretty much not going to turn around, but have a little respect! We're a big province! We count!
I'm all politically riled up. Tee...
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Whew. I'm melting in this weather! We West Coast girls aren't used to extreme heat...
So how am I doing. How AM I doing? Well, yesterday I had one of those horrendous internet experiences- I constructed a huge email to send to a couple of my friends who I haven't been in contact with recently. I spent an hour and a half constructing it. In...
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So how am I doing. How AM I doing? Well, yesterday I had one of those horrendous internet experiences- I constructed a huge email to send to a couple of my friends who I haven't been in contact with recently. I spent an hour and a half constructing it. In...
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wonderpants:
You see, it's working already, you're focusing your anger on something else. 
You can put my genius award here===>______________
You can put my genius award here===>______________
friedbanana105:
i hate when that happens... losing work on the computer, i mean... 
yeah, those sailor boys were all over the place. there were a bunch at Willows over the weekend too, sneaking sips from bottles of MGD hidden under their shirts...
wish i could make next weekend's show but i'm going to be out of town. break a leg!
yeah, those sailor boys were all over the place. there were a bunch at Willows over the weekend too, sneaking sips from bottles of MGD hidden under their shirts...
wish i could make next weekend's show but i'm going to be out of town. break a leg!
Wow. Has it really been two weeks since I've been around? Oh crap. That's what I forgot to write on my list of things to do... "reconnect internet access at home." That goes next to "pick up drycleaning" and "milk." No joke.
So what's new? A lot is new. I got a dog. She is the cutest dog in the world. Of course, I may...
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So what's new? A lot is new. I got a dog. She is the cutest dog in the world. Of course, I may...
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lulumae:
There's my baby!! Thank-you Bettina!!
queena:
I'm going to have to come to your work more often!
Your dog is adorable.
Your dog is adorable.
Maybe I should "log off" someday. If "log off" means shunning all people and going to live in an old log cabin with nothing but a dog, a case of powdered milk and old back issues of National Geographic.
But seriously folks... ("I'll be here all week!")
Did a great show with Bettina the other night- it was an on-the-fly booking, so there was a...
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But seriously folks... ("I'll be here all week!")
Did a great show with Bettina the other night- it was an on-the-fly booking, so there was a...
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hellcatjustine:
where are you, my lovely?
did you really log off?
I miss you.
did you really log off?
I miss you.
vixxen_:
My best friend said that most people go out in to Nature to "get away from it all." He was raised in Nature and he says he leaves the city to come home. What are we but little forest creatures anyway?
I'm reading for pleasure for the first time in ages. Gabriel Garcia Marquez. Makes me wish I could read Spanish.
I'm reading for pleasure for the first time in ages. Gabriel Garcia Marquez. Makes me wish I could read Spanish.
maybe I should log off someday... 
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tangledupinblue:
Took a ring of mine back to Tiffany's yesterday for a new shank. Sent you vibes from the premises. Use them as a magnetic shield against any future onset of the mean reds. That or ten mg valium ought to work just fine.
Hope all is well.
Blue
Hope all is well.
Blue
wonderpants:
It's loooggg, it's log
It's big, it's heavy, it's wood
It's loooggg, it's log
It's better than bad, IT'S GOOD
That kinda log?
You guys should come down to Sea-Town for the day and visit our fine new library.
It's big, it's heavy, it's wood
It's loooggg, it's log
It's better than bad, IT'S GOOD
That kinda log?
You guys should come down to Sea-Town for the day and visit our fine new library.
Okay, so I think I've moved from heartbroken and weepy to bitter and angry. At least this way I tend to be more productive and get my laundry done. Not sleeping much, though.
My wonderful, beautiful sister came to visit for one night. She had to fly to Van for a couple days, so she stopped over. AND (not to jinx it or anything) it...
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My wonderful, beautiful sister came to visit for one night. She had to fly to Van for a couple days, so she stopped over. AND (not to jinx it or anything) it...
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wonderpants:
Growwwlllll!!!
It helps, it helps
P.S.
Seattle officially now has the coolest library in the whole fuckin world...y'all should come check it out
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It helps, it helps
P.S.
Seattle officially now has the coolest library in the whole fuckin world...y'all should come check it out
[Edited on May 25, 2004 1:00PM]
friedbanana105:
any idea what time you go on tomorrow?
Things can always get worse. Things can always get worse. Things can always get worse.
I am very lucky. I am very lucky. I am very lucky.
I will not cry at work. I will not cry at work. I will not cry at work.
I am very lucky. I am very lucky. I am very lucky.
I will not cry at work. I will not cry at work. I will not cry at work.
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mizzzzzz:
dood, its common knowledge that i like poo, yer high!!
hellcatjustine:
things are always changing.
I miss you, bella. I need to do your CD soon. life has been kicking my ass.
smile, pretty lady. so beautiful when you smile.
come be my lobster and drink cosmopolitans and rewrite the story of the world.
xoxoxo
I miss you, bella. I need to do your CD soon. life has been kicking my ass.
smile, pretty lady. so beautiful when you smile.
come be my lobster and drink cosmopolitans and rewrite the story of the world.
xoxoxo
Oh my. What a night.
Starting with the good things... last night I got to see someone I had been missing for a little while. But that's all I get to say about that, really.
Finishing it off with the bad things... after finding out that they didn't need me to serve last night, and after finding out that a girl who I really really...
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Starting with the good things... last night I got to see someone I had been missing for a little while. But that's all I get to say about that, really.
Finishing it off with the bad things... after finding out that they didn't need me to serve last night, and after finding out that a girl who I really really...
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zerosome:
You know those days when you get the mean reds?
The mean reds, you mean like the blues?
No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?
Sure.
Well, when I get it the only thing that does any good is to jump in a cab and go to zerosome's. Calms me down right away.
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The mean reds, you mean like the blues?
No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?
Sure.
Well, when I get it the only thing that does any good is to jump in a cab and go to zerosome's. Calms me down right away.
[Edited on May 15, 2004 9:55AM]
mizzzzzz:
ooh good god lady, im so sorry.
i have a pro-tech helmet you can use for my bmx, its not a scooter helmet, but itll keep your brains in.
let me know
i have a pro-tech helmet you can use for my bmx, its not a scooter helmet, but itll keep your brains in.
let me know
Firstly, I must "shout out" (word.) to two fabulous ladies who have been surrepticiously reading my entries...
Joon- I know who you are, I know who you are! But who is Joon? I'm going to call you because we always need to talk and have tea, and also because I need you to jump Brownie so I can take her and her sick alternator to...
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Joon- I know who you are, I know who you are! But who is Joon? I'm going to call you because we always need to talk and have tea, and also because I need you to jump Brownie so I can take her and her sick alternator to...
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zerosome:
LuluMae smells yummy. And looks awfully cute wearing her winter jacket on a warm sunny day.
hellcatjustine:
you make me smile, lady.
it rained cows and chickens here today. and I have spent the evening being a complete and total dork. a star wars one at that.
thinking of you...
xoxoxo
it rained cows and chickens here today. and I have spent the evening being a complete and total dork. a star wars one at that.
thinking of you...
xoxoxo
*start edit...*
I just got a phone call last night from, well, you know who you are. You said that you read my entry and just wanted to say that you were sorry things were so crappy. Thank-you! I tried calling you back but your phone was off. I know today's the day- I'm thinking about you. I hope you cuddle up and take care...
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I just got a phone call last night from, well, you know who you are. You said that you read my entry and just wanted to say that you were sorry things were so crappy. Thank-you! I tried calling you back but your phone was off. I know today's the day- I'm thinking about you. I hope you cuddle up and take care...
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joon109549:
hmmm. this may show up twice, darn compewter-gadjits. Poopsie, YOU are distrubing me. You say you're OK, but it seems otherwise (lucky (?) for me, you're more forthcoming online than in person). If you want anything ever, call me. I'll loan out Julie to you, pull heads off little (and big) boys, anything! Keep in touch. Hope that crypto-identity-clue got through 
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[Edited on May 10, 2004 3:28PM]
lemonkid:
That too, that too.
I deserve better than this. I deserve better than this. I deserve better than this.
God DAMMIT.
Why do I keep subjecting myself to this self-esteem sucking SHIT? I finally meet someone who treats me with the goddamn respect I deserve. And it's like we have had absolutely nothing but obstacles. To the point where I'm left with nothing but questions.
What the hell happened?...
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God DAMMIT.
Why do I keep subjecting myself to this self-esteem sucking SHIT? I finally meet someone who treats me with the goddamn respect I deserve. And it's like we have had absolutely nothing but obstacles. To the point where I'm left with nothing but questions.
What the hell happened?...
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hellcatjustine:
I heart you. lots and lots
vitriolicunt:
ello again my dear. spoke to you a few journals back and you were kind enough to send me back some love. since i appreciate it, i'm gonna rant at you; that might not be your idea of appreciation in which case tell me or i'll never guess.
i still know how you feel a little bit, unfortunately for us all. cosmically we should all probably agree that we need to experiance the pain and emotional torture of all our relationships or attempts at them falling horribly flat for a while in our lives because then we'll really appreciate it comparitively when it all goes right - but lets be honest thats bullshit right? and why is it bullshit? i'd normally say cos all of us know that there are many people who say they never got it, and logically we all know love really is all down to cupid; the little bastard doesnt make it easy to find the right person at the right time (even, as you said, down to a few seconds of passing in the street or something as well as over months) under the right conditions. little bastard.
i'll finish my rant on a positive note, since i'm terminally sick of my recent pessimism; just incase a example of how i might be able to empathise would be nice, my situation is that i've been breaking up with my junkie of an ex (who never used to be a junkie) for forever, i fell for someone on the site who then decided he was in love with a very good friend of mine; i then started seeing someone who lives 150 miles from me, but that exploded in my face, and now i'm falling for someone else on the site. i dont dare tell him incase i lose a perfectly good friendship after telling him and embarrassing the fuck out of him or it all goes pearshaped in some other way.
but something occurred to me; cosmically (v. into my cosmic alignment theories) 1) i am searching for someone so persistantly and uncontrollably because i am really lonely in london even with my best friends living with me. 2) maybe i am being saved from something much worse that would happen if relationships were to start to work out with any of these people. because my own stability or theirs not being totally sound. like maybe if relationship continued alright with guy 1# then he'd end up bludgeoning me to death in five years time, or if with guy 2# then i would fall so in love with him that when he leaves me for another woman in two years time i go mad, simply mad and have to be locked up with a broken heart. its kind of a 'sliding doors' theory. either way, i'm personally probably best on my own right now if i'm feeling as desperate for a companion as i think i am.
anyway, sorry i ramble; from the way you write you seem lovely, and i'm sure that good things will come to you, but think about whether you're ready.
p.s. what happened to arioch? did he say goodbye?
love n hugs n self esteem boosting thoughts going your way 
i still know how you feel a little bit, unfortunately for us all. cosmically we should all probably agree that we need to experiance the pain and emotional torture of all our relationships or attempts at them falling horribly flat for a while in our lives because then we'll really appreciate it comparitively when it all goes right - but lets be honest thats bullshit right? and why is it bullshit? i'd normally say cos all of us know that there are many people who say they never got it, and logically we all know love really is all down to cupid; the little bastard doesnt make it easy to find the right person at the right time (even, as you said, down to a few seconds of passing in the street or something as well as over months) under the right conditions. little bastard.
i'll finish my rant on a positive note, since i'm terminally sick of my recent pessimism; just incase a example of how i might be able to empathise would be nice, my situation is that i've been breaking up with my junkie of an ex (who never used to be a junkie) for forever, i fell for someone on the site who then decided he was in love with a very good friend of mine; i then started seeing someone who lives 150 miles from me, but that exploded in my face, and now i'm falling for someone else on the site. i dont dare tell him incase i lose a perfectly good friendship after telling him and embarrassing the fuck out of him or it all goes pearshaped in some other way.
but something occurred to me; cosmically (v. into my cosmic alignment theories) 1) i am searching for someone so persistantly and uncontrollably because i am really lonely in london even with my best friends living with me. 2) maybe i am being saved from something much worse that would happen if relationships were to start to work out with any of these people. because my own stability or theirs not being totally sound. like maybe if relationship continued alright with guy 1# then he'd end up bludgeoning me to death in five years time, or if with guy 2# then i would fall so in love with him that when he leaves me for another woman in two years time i go mad, simply mad and have to be locked up with a broken heart. its kind of a 'sliding doors' theory. either way, i'm personally probably best on my own right now if i'm feeling as desperate for a companion as i think i am.
anyway, sorry i ramble; from the way you write you seem lovely, and i'm sure that good things will come to you, but think about whether you're ready.
p.s. what happened to arioch? did he say goodbye?
love n hugs n self esteem boosting thoughts going your way
Phew. What a week. Firstly, I've been working every night since about two weeks ago. Secondly, I've been working some days on top of that. Bettina and I finished shooting my new set and I am so goddamned excited about sending it in... I love it so much! Bettina is the best photographer ever. Hands down. Aren't I lucky that I get to hang out...
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bettina:
You need to come over soon, so we can pick photots to send. And so I can remind you of why you aare so much better than all the crap that's being dumped on you lately. Eff those haters!
vixxen_:
I'll say hi when I make it there! 
I have been a lazy ass after work for weeks and haven't made it to Monday in weeks!! I WILL say hi though.
B
I have been a lazy ass after work for weeks and haven't made it to Monday in weeks!! I WILL say hi though.
B
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