I think I may have figured something out. I think I know what people... want.
See, some may say that people strive for success, or love, or a sense of meaning or usefulness. I think that people just want to feel special. That kind of encompasses all of the things that people seem to want and sums it all up. I want to feel special,...
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See, some may say that people strive for success, or love, or a sense of meaning or usefulness. I think that people just want to feel special. That kind of encompasses all of the things that people seem to want and sums it all up. I want to feel special,...
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I got a new job, and guess what... it doesn't suck!
I trained last night, so between my set going up and my training shift, it was a pretty good day. I'm now a server, and no longer a coat check girl. In other words, they let me out of the booth and I get to play with the grown-ups. And it's a different and...
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I trained last night, so between my set going up and my training shift, it was a pretty good day. I'm now a server, and no longer a coat check girl. In other words, they let me out of the booth and I get to play with the grown-ups. And it's a different and...
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What a nice way to start my day!
I woke up feeling quite pale and wan, as I've been fighting this flu that's going around. I finally drag my sorry a** to the computer, and there I am, all summery and naked. Remember when it was warm outside? Ha ha.
Please direct all compliments to Bettina, as the set was all her. Hell, all I...
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I woke up feeling quite pale and wan, as I've been fighting this flu that's going around. I finally drag my sorry a** to the computer, and there I am, all summery and naked. Remember when it was warm outside? Ha ha.
Please direct all compliments to Bettina, as the set was all her. Hell, all I...
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evil_audiosoul:
your new set is awesome!!!!! and i just need to tell you i love your back piece oh so much, i'm a sucker for tree ink especially when it is done right!
wadewalker:
Sure you're bubbly, when you're standing over the churning pot of human limbs you're cooking up. 
Hmm. I think the real LuluMae has returned.
Where did she go, you ask?
She went all wack because she was letting the stresses of school and home life get her down. But it's okay. She's back with a vengeance. She decided not to let the few poopy things outweigh all the good things in her life.
BA-DA! (that's me. back with a vengeance.)
XOX-L...
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Where did she go, you ask?
She went all wack because she was letting the stresses of school and home life get her down. But it's okay. She's back with a vengeance. She decided not to let the few poopy things outweigh all the good things in her life.
BA-DA! (that's me. back with a vengeance.)
XOX-L...
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pantsonfire:
your scooter is awesome. we should race sometime!
dharmabox:
a scooter, a cute girl with bangs and she gets all nekkid. How could anyone not want to be a suicide girls member!!!!!
"Listen...you know those days when you get the mean reds? ... the blues are because you're getting fat or because it's been raining too long. You're just sad, that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?"
-Breakfast at Tiffany's
Last night I had a really bad panic attack. I...
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-Breakfast at Tiffany's
Last night I had a really bad panic attack. I...
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webigailboop:
i have really bad panic attacks sometimes too. i think one of the worst things about them are how random they are, how you won't even be thinking about anything at all and all of a sudden you feel like you're losing control. it really helps to have good friends that understand and can help though.
micah:
I get panic attacks every night before I go to bed. I've had them for years, so I'm used to them....but every once-in-a-while I'll be kept awake for hours stressing about the same ol' shit I always have to deal with.... meh...
"I am as unpredictable as the nervous park squirrel!"
What a weird night.
It was one of those evenings that was filled with drama (and not necessarily the good kind), a little bit of drinking, and quite a bit of fun despite all the weirdness that ensued. The night ended really well, though, and I guess that's really what counts.
But now I have a...
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What a weird night.
It was one of those evenings that was filled with drama (and not necessarily the good kind), a little bit of drinking, and quite a bit of fun despite all the weirdness that ensued. The night ended really well, though, and I guess that's really what counts.
But now I have a...
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impboy:
heyoo. i sailed in here one day, for a trip to sg is not complete without a visit to the torchbearers of classic pin-up style, namely you and bettina! and you seemed in a bad place. so i check up again, and you seem in a slightly better place. still a little confused. so take this for what it's worth from a stranger.
a while back one of your sg peers (fyi, it was presley) put something up on her journal detailing some kid on myspace that killed himself. testimonials left from his friends showed so much distress and pain he left, that huge hole he left in other people's lives by leaving them, and presley said that she hoped, just maybe, it would cause people to take the phrase 'love life' more seriously. that resonated with me, you see.
took me a LONG time to learn this. may take you a while, too. but hope is something you have to be vigilant about....
like this is MINE and NO ONE'S gonna take this from me!
once you insist on this, and tell your despair to fuck off, it DOES give you strength, or show you the strength within yourself.
(well, at least, it works for me. and i've had AWFUL things said to me. :-)
naked pictorials or not, i don't like seeing people suffer needlessly like this. so i had to say something, whether or not it applies to you - you know better than i do if it does, right? and if it doesn't, who knows? maybe one day it will.
you take care.
PLURH,
)O->
a while back one of your sg peers (fyi, it was presley) put something up on her journal detailing some kid on myspace that killed himself. testimonials left from his friends showed so much distress and pain he left, that huge hole he left in other people's lives by leaving them, and presley said that she hoped, just maybe, it would cause people to take the phrase 'love life' more seriously. that resonated with me, you see.
took me a LONG time to learn this. may take you a while, too. but hope is something you have to be vigilant about....
like this is MINE and NO ONE'S gonna take this from me!
once you insist on this, and tell your despair to fuck off, it DOES give you strength, or show you the strength within yourself.
(well, at least, it works for me. and i've had AWFUL things said to me. :-)
naked pictorials or not, i don't like seeing people suffer needlessly like this. so i had to say something, whether or not it applies to you - you know better than i do if it does, right? and if it doesn't, who knows? maybe one day it will.
you take care.
PLURH,
)O->
wadewalker:
Ummm...dessert potluck tonight Ms. Sweet Thang. Don't forget!
Exams are over. The semester from HELL is over.
You can't see me right now, but I'm doing a little happy dance.
Now it's weird... I walked out of my exam, and it was kind of like "okay, that huge weight which has been keeping me preoccupied for weeks is over... now I have to start thinking about all the crappy-ass stuff that I've been...
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You can't see me right now, but I'm doing a little happy dance.
Now it's weird... I walked out of my exam, and it was kind of like "okay, that huge weight which has been keeping me preoccupied for weeks is over... now I have to start thinking about all the crappy-ass stuff that I've been...
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cricket:
thanks!
thanks!
lemonkid:
Well.. we should definately do something before I run off for X-mas.. what I'm not sure.
But Hicksville Island is the greatest.
But Hicksville Island is the greatest.
It's a great big wide world,
and we are drained of our colours.
We used to love ourselves,
we used to love one another.
and we are drained of our colours.
We used to love ourselves,
we used to love one another.
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anouck:
awwww...no candids 
wonderpants:
School is almost done...Gawd, let it end 
I think I've reached my critical mass point or something.
My mother woke me up this morning (my first "no school, I get to sleep in!" day) by throwing the paper against the wall. It's a stupid story, but someone keeps delivering us a paper every morning. But they have notes attached that say "Merry Christmas" from the carrier, so I just think he has...
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My mother woke me up this morning (my first "no school, I get to sleep in!" day) by throwing the paper against the wall. It's a stupid story, but someone keeps delivering us a paper every morning. But they have notes attached that say "Merry Christmas" from the carrier, so I just think he has...
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lemonkid:
Living with your parents sucks.
It's true.
Living alone can be very tough though.. I've found having nice sane roommates is the best for me. But this took awhile!
It's true.
Living alone can be very tough though.. I've found having nice sane roommates is the best for me. But this took awhile!
quadshot:
I moved out when I was 16 or 17. And I have gone back for no more than 2 months since. I have lived with roommates, by myself and with a girlfriend. By myself is the best. Hands down. No contest. There may be a bachelor opening up in my building... $400 inclusive, and they're nice, right downtown... I have no advice other than; read 32 Stories!
I think I've reached my critical mass point or something.
My mother woke me up this morning (my first "no school, I get to sleep in!" day) by throwing the paper against the wall. It's a stupid story, but someone keeps delivering us a paper every morning. But they have notes attached that say "Merry Christmas" from the carrier, so I just think he has...
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My mother woke me up this morning (my first "no school, I get to sleep in!" day) by throwing the paper against the wall. It's a stupid story, but someone keeps delivering us a paper every morning. But they have notes attached that say "Merry Christmas" from the carrier, so I just think he has...
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What a no good, very bad, horrid, awful, craptacular day.
I had school all morning, finished off my retarded comp sci project and got it handed in, volunteered all afternoon (aka- cleaned out a linen closet the size of a bathroom, hauled 25 bags of new, not-sorted linens up three flights of stairs, sorted them and crammed them all in) and came home in the...
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I had school all morning, finished off my retarded comp sci project and got it handed in, volunteered all afternoon (aka- cleaned out a linen closet the size of a bathroom, hauled 25 bags of new, not-sorted linens up three flights of stairs, sorted them and crammed them all in) and came home in the...
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user092840:
I feel that pain. Shit. I wish I could send you some yummy eats through email
Hope things look up for you soon sweetie.
Hope things look up for you soon sweetie.
pocketrocket:
Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson 
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson
you you you
There has to be some middle ground, a compromise. Where we can shoot for our dreams, without abandoning the things we truly love, the ones we truly love, and who love us equally in return. What good is it to be ruler of the world when you have no one to share it with?
[Edited on Jan 10, 2004 3:41PM]