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I know I asked you about your b'day plans a few days ago. However, I didn't formally wish you a happy b'day. So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Happy Birthday!!! If I was still there I would totally bake you cupcakes!

That's great news. I'm learning that a change in meds isn't that unusual. I just had mine changed because I was waking up in the morning feeling dopey and sluggish.

I can relate to loneliness. I've been alone for almost three and a half years since my wife's passing. I'm still suffering. Having a new woman in my life doesn't seem to make that much difference.

I love your new profile pic. You have the most beautiful smile.

i was gonna go to san fran but my brother said it wouldn't work out. damn.

i hope life is good! i want a hug from you soon.

Hope you're fully recovered.

No flu so far. Keeping my fingers crossed. Good to hear that you're better.

I've been sneezing and coughing and all stuffy nosed. It's horrible! We both need to get better, if for nothing else but the dancing! Love you hard!

I just got hit with it on the 26th. Strange indeed. Thankfully it's over.

I know, he looks ridiculously pissed.

And of course it matters! I think you matter to more people than you know!

Mine is Feb 5th. Aquarius kicks ass although you're like a psuedo Aquarius, right on the cusp. Hehe. =P

Do what I'm doing... pack your shit, run home to live rent free in your parent's basement, take a job you loathe (but will pay twice as much as you are making now) and hide in a cocoon for a while.

I totally understand "broke". I'm findindg out that it's possible to deal with a bad situation. I'm feeling better. For a change, I'm somewhat hopeful. Besides the medication and therapy, you in particular have been an inspiration during my bleakest times. I'd like to believe I've been some help to you as well.

Needing people isn't a fault, it's a strength. Remember, no man (or woman) is an island.

One of your best qualities is that you have the ability to recognize your strengths and weaknesses. That's impressive, especially when it's exhibited by such a young person as yourself. It's also very obvious that you're a good person, someone with both passion and compassion.

You're right about the meds. I was doing too much thinking yesterday. As a result, another depressing blog. Fortunately, I got calls from two of my good SG friends, which really helped. I'm also grateful for the responses after posting my last blog. It doesn't matter if the comments are directly related to the things I said or not, it's just good to know that people have me in their thoughts.

I continue to care about you. Hope you're having a good day.

It's so scary to need people. My best friend killed himself two and a half years ago and I have this intense fear of losing the few close friends that I do have now. But I just love them as much as possible and keep my energy focused on the good of it, not the worry of losing it.

I agree completely with the person above me, I really admire how you acknowledge your weaknesses, things you fear, etc. and then talk about how to work on them, how to become stronger, more open, whatever. I'm very grateful that I get to read your thoughts!

I hope your friend is doing ok.

that is great

Great to hear.

No reason to feel like a failure at ALL. You are handling the single most important thing first.

Since when is recognizing and taking care of your priorities evidence of being a failure. Taking care of your health will enable you to accomplish the other things on your plate.

Time is on your side. You're going about things the right way.

I'm sure I've said this before. You are very brave to post things like this. You find it necessary to vent, and more power to you for doing so. It's obvious to me that these posts have a cathartic value, just as some of my posts serve the same purpose for me.

While not dealing with the same subject matter as you, I coincidentally posted a very serious blog a little over an hour ago. I hate that I find it necessary to do this, but realize how even more painful things would be if I didn't have this outlet.

You have wonderful qualities. I feel that I do as well. Unfortunately, being a good person doesn't always translate into being in a good place.

Good for you, let is stay up. You have these feelings, so let them out!
It sucks that we can change ourselves, learn from experiences, grow, etc but some people just SUCK and are shitty people forever. I guess acceptance of that and just keep working on ourselves is all you can do.

yea, i ca relate. hopefully the new year will make things better.

Sorry love, I hope you are feeling better today.