Sometimes, I wonder how bad shit can get before I give in. And then, it gets worse. Things aren't totally fucked; I just wonder why I always have to deal with adversety. Why nothing comes easily for me. Nothing. Nothing at all......
But I have to admit. If it wasn't for the strugle, I'd get board.
You know, I have no idea when I'm going to see another paycheck. I'm not even slightly alarmed by this. It's wierd. Sense I've left work I've been feeling releived, laid back, unrushed, and more happy in general. I had no idea I've been that unhappy .....
I guess panic will set in when paying the rent looks doubtfull...
I really need to give the D70 some quallity time. Fuck.
Got the new cell phone; I'll be an indipendant contractor as of friday; so I'm half their. I got an N-Gage. Funny thing; I didn't get it for the games. It's the cheapest phone that dose Email and has calendar functions. Oh well!
My email server is half together. I just need to load... Read More
I guess it's about time for a real update. I'm sick as a dog, again. I've been pushing myself at work reguardless witch hasn't been helping, but at least I've got them off my back about my dedication; for now....
I haven't been back in the Gym much, could be part of why I'm sick. I feel like such a pussy....
I'm tired of being supervised by an idiot. That man hasn't made one good decision as long as I've worked with him. You can never respect some one in charge of you who is less skilled then you are.
I'm tired of being over worked and underpaid.
......when I felt like I was an asset I didn't mind... Read More