i've been hanging with AlwaysBeingBlue for the past coupla days.
she rules my world.
we got matching tattoos of kerouac quotes like the geeks we are.
but she has to leave this morning
take care of her, sinead.
x
p.s. my gig was the awesome last night. tony fell through his kit at the end and i pushed the rest on top of him. so...
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she rules my world.
we got matching tattoos of kerouac quotes like the geeks we are.
but she has to leave this morning
take care of her, sinead.
x
p.s. my gig was the awesome last night. tony fell through his kit at the end and i pushed the rest on top of him. so...
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devoured_by_envy:
was good again, you are all very rock n' roll, you should all wear eyeliner 
devoured_by_envy:
ah go on...I will if you will :p
i stretched my ear from nothing to 8 mil last night just to distract myself from other stuff. it felt good.
go team self destructive tendencies!
x
go team self destructive tendencies!
x
worldofviolets:
haha chris that makes me scream. your ear is going to hate you forever. you better be nice to it. make up with it, buy it some flowers or bake it some cookies or something.
xxx
xxx
devoured_by_envy:
hardcore 
it's all just flesh
your skin under my fingernails.
and i'm picking it out
with the shards of a shattered mirror
that won't reflect my face.
i've done the silent shake
the dry heave dance.
i've learnt all the moves.
kept my face fixed
my eyes low
and i didn't miss a beat.
your skin under my fingernails.
and i'm picking it out
with the shards of a shattered mirror
that won't reflect my face.
i've done the silent shake
the dry heave dance.
i've learnt all the moves.
kept my face fixed
my eyes low
and i didn't miss a beat.
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poppystrike:
Thank you. I do wish you were happy. And that I were too. We'll get there. I hope x
jaqueline_:
I'm tired now. And I still hate work, so it was nice to get away from it for this weekend. Can you believe I'm listening to Hilary Duff? How sad. Love you x
i'm off this morning to a job i no longer have.
and to tell the weekenders they're unemployed.
how is it, even though i've been made redundant by the faceless corporate fuck that is Virgin, i still manage to reason that it could somehow be my fault?
my head spins with words, ideas, hope, fear and anger.
like i didn't have enough to think about...
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and to tell the weekenders they're unemployed.
how is it, even though i've been made redundant by the faceless corporate fuck that is Virgin, i still manage to reason that it could somehow be my fault?
my head spins with words, ideas, hope, fear and anger.
like i didn't have enough to think about...
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fanny:
that is the fucking problem with corporations
they hold no responsibilty themselves - they are not the people they are made up of (employees), they are not real beings, they are non-entities
so you blame yourself
DON'T!
they hold no responsibilty themselves - they are not the people they are made up of (employees), they are not real beings, they are non-entities
so you blame yourself
DON'T!
devoured_by_envy:
Aint your fault.
You are great
Barely known you a month and your already someone I regard as a good friend
You are great
Barely known you a month and your already someone I regard as a good friend
i got made redundant today.
stop to think about it.
the word i mean.
redundant.
sums up how i feel.
i need someone to hold.
i need someone to stroke my hair while i sleep.
i'm so fucking lonely and scared.
i'm so scared.
x
stop to think about it.
the word i mean.
redundant.
sums up how i feel.
i need someone to hold.
i need someone to stroke my hair while i sleep.
i'm so fucking lonely and scared.
i'm so scared.
x
i'm too old for this, as i was brutally reminded today.
i'm going out tonight to bar fight
to blur the faces
that make the scene.
i'll spill my guts
into my glass
and tomorrow
forget where i've been.
but it's alright baby
cause you're not asking
but i'll tell it all
as you comb your hair
and fix your face
just how i like...
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i'm going out tonight to bar fight
to blur the faces
that make the scene.
i'll spill my guts
into my glass
and tomorrow
forget where i've been.
but it's alright baby
cause you're not asking
but i'll tell it all
as you comb your hair
and fix your face
just how i like...
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devoured_by_envy:
I love you really 
fanny:
heeeeey
sorry it has taken me this long to respond to berfday greetings
i was gonna come next weekend but now i am reconsidering
i think i will know after tonight and will let you know
btw... i hope yer ok
sorry it has taken me this long to respond to berfday greetings
i was gonna come next weekend but now i am reconsidering
i think i will know after tonight and will let you know
btw... i hope yer ok
this sky is murderous
jet black and peeling.
this static is deafening
keeping me from sleep.
i'm clutching at stars
but they're burning my fingers
and the blisters spell desire
devotion
your name.
so i'll live in those words
and the scars that they'll leave
i'll set fire to tomorrow
and i'll make you believe.
xxx
jet black and peeling.
this static is deafening
keeping me from sleep.
i'm clutching at stars
but they're burning my fingers
and the blisters spell desire
devotion
your name.
so i'll live in those words
and the scars that they'll leave
i'll set fire to tomorrow
and i'll make you believe.
xxx
poppystrike:
That's one for the site my boy. Words rule, but only when they descibe actions. Words alone are nothing xXx
poppystrike:
Every un-played senario tormented his docile mind.
Such as the dripping tap. Groundhog day of instincts.
The future contained within the past;
The jump you won't make, the climb flawed by gravity.
The glass slipper a five and a half to her six; make it fit if you want to.
Your hand in hers, your tandom strides peeling the skin, bubbling.
But still the dance goes on.
You bask in the mellow summer heat.
She tires, autumn leaves spiral atop one another. Corpses of desire.
A seasonal metaphor of the ill-fitting pieces.
In spring a face-less soul weeps upon her cloth-bound ankles, the perfect number hidden beneath.
She waits for the icicles of your eyes to leave winter.
A flat-pack screen to make previous flings contradictory when you return.
When you return to the future.
xXx
Such as the dripping tap. Groundhog day of instincts.
The future contained within the past;
The jump you won't make, the climb flawed by gravity.
The glass slipper a five and a half to her six; make it fit if you want to.
Your hand in hers, your tandom strides peeling the skin, bubbling.
But still the dance goes on.
You bask in the mellow summer heat.
She tires, autumn leaves spiral atop one another. Corpses of desire.
A seasonal metaphor of the ill-fitting pieces.
In spring a face-less soul weeps upon her cloth-bound ankles, the perfect number hidden beneath.
She waits for the icicles of your eyes to leave winter.
A flat-pack screen to make previous flings contradictory when you return.
When you return to the future.
xXx
i need to escape here.
it sucks so bad that my best friend isn't close by all the time.
"we are the lost
the incestuous souls
our tongues drip with irony
and cheap liquor
fingers thrust forward
to embrace what they may
" i won't hold my breath"
it's all for the best
i swear i used that line
back in the day.
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it sucks so bad that my best friend isn't close by all the time.
"we are the lost
the incestuous souls
our tongues drip with irony
and cheap liquor
fingers thrust forward
to embrace what they may
" i won't hold my breath"
it's all for the best
i swear i used that line
back in the day.
well check...
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poppystrike:
I don't even know what to ask for anymore. Madness. I'll be down next week for your gig, spurring on the crowds and on the look out for any low-flying team bricks. Hehe. Keep him OUT of the venue. We'll do the website soon. I've been busy doing very little of anything this weekend, but i'll start writing soon. Promise xXx
jaqueline_:
herro, how are you? i'm ristening to frankie goes to horrywood, rerax.
i'm so ronrey. actuarry, i'm not but i'm hungry so i'm going to go eat food. mmmm, vegatabres.
much rove xxx
p.s. you great guy, ret's be friends forewer.
i'm so ronrey. actuarry, i'm not but i'm hungry so i'm going to go eat food. mmmm, vegatabres.
much rove xxx
p.s. you great guy, ret's be friends forewer.
i wish i couldn't predict my pattern of behaviour so accurately and know i can't do anything about it.
i wish i hadn't realised that the reason people leave me and fuck me over is because i make them.
but i'm so grateful the people i love most in this sorry world are willing to stick by me anyway.
more than any amount of telling...
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i wish i hadn't realised that the reason people leave me and fuck me over is because i make them.
but i'm so grateful the people i love most in this sorry world are willing to stick by me anyway.
more than any amount of telling...
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jaqueline_:
the freaks now compliment me. it's getting scary.
but anyway, i think it wouldn't be a problem in the slightest if you got a freakishly similar tattoo to me. i do however draw the line at you getting it tattooed anywhere on your forehead because that is just silly.
much love xxxxx
but anyway, i think it wouldn't be a problem in the slightest if you got a freakishly similar tattoo to me. i do however draw the line at you getting it tattooed anywhere on your forehead because that is just silly.
much love xxxxx
jaqueline_:
oh and p.s. we should so get matching jt leroy inspired tattoos.
today i leave my bubble.
i wish everyday was waking at noon to neighbours, home and away and AlwaysBeingBlue, but it can't be.
and it makes me really fucking sad because i'd kind of convinced myself in the last week that it could.
Blue, i miss you. and i hereby announce to the whole world...well...SG (which seems to be the whole world sometimes) that...
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i wish everyday was waking at noon to neighbours, home and away and AlwaysBeingBlue, but it can't be.
and it makes me really fucking sad because i'd kind of convinced myself in the last week that it could.
Blue, i miss you. and i hereby announce to the whole world...well...SG (which seems to be the whole world sometimes) that...
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poppystrike:
Darling you are the bestest. I know we always talk about it, but we have to hope that one day we will do all that stuff - otherwise what is the point of anything?
It went ok today. I've got more referrals coming my way, and she wants me to go to some group therapy thing bullcrap wotsit shindig. Maybe not.
Will call you later. It's not pathertic that you don't want to go back to work - however old you get xXx
It went ok today. I've got more referrals coming my way, and she wants me to go to some group therapy thing bullcrap wotsit shindig. Maybe not.
Will call you later. It's not pathertic that you don't want to go back to work - however old you get xXx
there are words in my head that i can't form. like it's a new language. there are things that i want to be and things i want to do.
there's too much to think about, always.
there's a need to escape and the overwhelming desire to scream until my throat bleeds.
there's the realisation that people's lives carry on around you and despite you.
every...
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there's too much to think about, always.
there's a need to escape and the overwhelming desire to scream until my throat bleeds.
there's the realisation that people's lives carry on around you and despite you.
every...
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insomniphobiac:
hey dude. AlwaysBeingBlue told me (and everyone who reads her profile) to come tell you that you are her best friend.
_elliott_:
yes! yes! finally somebody gets it! high five! you're great!
yeah yeah, i've been meaning to update this week, but i've been having one of the best times of my life in brum so bite me!
how cool is getting to see three of my favourite bands in two days, getting my head shaved, buying the fucking coolest shoes, new slacks AND seeing team america whilst smoking and drinking it up every night all in...
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how cool is getting to see three of my favourite bands in two days, getting my head shaved, buying the fucking coolest shoes, new slacks AND seeing team america whilst smoking and drinking it up every night all in...
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worldofviolets:
yeah get your head out, i wanna see it. haha!
xxx
xxx
poppystrike:
It was an awesome week darling. Much fun was had. You is the bestest. Big kiss 
x
x