Always stirring up trouble. Thank God. Sort of like a muse of mayhem. Everyone should have one---although, take it from me, they tend to be karmically expensive.
Could it be that she is steering Dive Bar contestants in my direction?
So as a general philosophy I believe that you decide the kind of person you want to be. Of all the things in this world the one thing you can control is who you are. You can't control other people. You can't control the weather, the world, politics, the environment, society... but you have total control over your own... Read More
i struggle with alot of this myself. ive always felt unsure of how to be or how to act in front of people and because of this alot of times i feel I am just pretending to be something. I've gotten alot better with fitting in with people but thats mainly because i know how much of me I can show. I just made a friend that i can actually be myself around and i realized how much of myself i wasnt showing people.
i dont know if we could really make ourselves into a certain type of person because i really think our core person will be there no matter what. I guess you can only hope the core of you is a good person, and work on fitting in where you can and find those special people who are willing to get to know the real you.
Based on what I just read & the few opportunities I've had to talk to you real to real... I'd say you are a very self aware human being. And I don't see how that could prevent you from being who you truly are.
I've had a few challenges over the course of my life regarding the core of who I am. The thing that I've decided is that it's not so much about trying to change that person you may see yourself as but more about working towards a cognitive & truthful perception of your self. There may be some details... some "habits"... some conditioning within our lives that could use some work. That's the case with most people. I know that there are things in my own life that I'm looking to improve upon for various reasons. But when I take an honest look at my core... at who I am (or at least what I can see of that now) I have to acknowledge that it is a terribly beautiful evolution that will at least continue until my last breath in this body. That doesn't free me from the responsibility or desire to better my self. It simply allows me not to become stuck in some image of my life past, present or future. It allows me to live in this body... in this mind, with this heart as a living being that is greater than the thing I should have been or thought I was. The moments of our lives may be the things that define us. But to try & extract that definition from any single moment or experience is to create an incomplete vision of ourselves. Who you were then is who you are now is who you will be. Once you allow yourself that simple liberty all the other aspects of being human become a lot more malleable. We all construct our selves. It's what human animals do.
You are a good & strong woman M... that much is easy to see from the outside. Whatever you may feel are weaknesses in your heart... well, embrace them as you would your own beauty. Then you are in a position to effect change instead of being affected by it.
love to you little Sista...
It is, in fact, a wonderful life...
j
-awareness/education (students & staff)
-compost units for the residents halls (which can be used for fert. by the maintenance crew).
-better, healthier, and farm fresh food on campus....I'm thinking a farmers market once a week held on campus. This one is going to be a bit tricky, because we have a company who runs all our food/catering/cafeteria stuff, and they've completely monopolized food on campus. And they are evil.
-Big recycling mini-campaign. Alameda county is going to donate more recycling bins for us to use on campus.
is there ever a right time, i guess you just have to do it. but i know that's not easy always. at least things are a bit better now so that's something right?!
Something I hate: when people act astonished that you don't know something they know
There is forced surprise and undertones of superiority in this reaction. I hate it. It makes the unknower feel embarrassed, angry, anything besides interested. It's reactions like that which make people afraid to speak up, for fear or public humiliation. I try to never do this. I'm sure I have at... Read More
Yes, but I was not in Los Angeles on my actual birthday, and neither was anyone else, as it was on Thanksgiving day. So my roommate and I, having our birthdays a day apart, decided to celebrate once everyone was back in town.
Assignment: find me the sleekest/coolest/blackest/most high tech digital clock for me bedroom.
I'm a big fan of clocks. I like clocks a lot. If I had money for unnecessary things I would have a wall of clocks. As it is, I only have one wall clock at the moment and it has decided to stop working correctly. I now have the need for a clock... Read More
I believe we leave around 2-ish on Friday. I'm not sure what we've got going on that morning. I think MOMA was on the table. I'm down but I don't know if Maxx's mom is really a Zeit kind of woman, you should check with him.
yesterday on the train I tried to ignore a very public breakup.
There was a couple sitting on the Gold line. He looked like a young Keith Richards, he carried a long black umbrella. She looked like a mix of pre-makeover Courtney Love and Brittany Murphy in a fitted dress suit. I tried to ignore them for as long as possible but they were having... Read More
I just had the realization that I'm going to be here for this months drink night, despite the fact that I thought I wasn't! Since I havn't had the time or money for anything else since then, that should be fun!