jayye

oh hooray! spent the weekend in holland, worked out, hit the batting cages, did a shoot this morning at the beach and got some sun yipee. now im back in good ol' east lansing. work at ae tomorrow at 9. and you know what that means.... i get to see my judakis

leave me some love <3

apnea and benni have a new set, and the new suicidegirl is adorable!

tis a good day in sg land...

masochism (ms-kzm)
n.

1. The deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from being humiliated or mistreated, either by another or by oneself.
2. A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences.
3. The deriving of sexual gratification, or the tendency to derive sexual gratification, from being physically or emotionally abused.



hmm...

it occurred to me that my journal time is wayyyyy off from the actual time. its 821 pm right now...

so last night my friend came to visit, we went out to dinner in west bloomfield, then decided to go get drunk in canada. so drove all the way back to east lansing to pick up my roommates, drove to canada, got lost, found the bars, they were closing. went to the casino, they dont serve alcohol past 2am, so we spent some money on...
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maybe its manipulation, whos to say
and maybe im a fool but its my life
i hate to love to love to hate you, but theres no end for me in sight
so ill be hooked on hating you while you continue to suck me dry

youre just too beautiful
another fool am i
youve got me down on my knees...




i love him.

life hurts me

got real drunk last night. sleeping alone sucks. did a shoot today, went well. have another one tomorrow that im not really looking forward to. i miss jude. im going to the house tonight for daveys birthday so maybe hell be there? i know im going to get drunk again, thats for damn sure.

just made the boys mac n cheese

peace.

bad mood bad mood BAD MOOD

my cd player is skipping. i dont feel good. and someone very special lied to me, and doesnt care to see me, and im doubting him and everything he says now.

cry.

i am totally bored today. boo.
i have a shoot in elan tomorrow, and one in plymouth on saturday... and i have no idea how i am going to get there! shittttt.

did my two sg sets with alison today roar! hopefully the single and the multiple get accepted cause theyre hotttttt. alisons a cutie, i hope you all get the pleasure of seeing her soon! and me even though i dont like the way i look on camera i have faith our photographer will do a good job with the edits hehe

have the day off...
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