jay81

I dont know if any one will be interested but I am going to tell you a story. This is the story of how a hippy like me came to the dicision to lease my body to the goverment .

First you have to understand what an acid hangover feels like. Acid is by far my favorite drug( wich saddly I havent done in almost...
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There is an angle that sits upon my grave.

He speaks to me threw whispers to save.

My blind ears refuse to see what my eyes cannot breath.

I say, "You don't know my travels, my eulogy shall be written by none but me!"

So then he whispers to me threw my own voice.

My blind ear begains to see in visions of the painful...
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To try and fail preoccupies the subconsiousof my mind so that I feel I may never attempt anything unless I get over it. Its strange because the Paradox presents itself as to how I can simultainiously want to do, to learn, to achive, to amass, to impress, and to express all the while knowing that thats all glamor. I want to be happy. I want...
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Karma is a bitch
The cab driver gave me too much change and I gave him the difference back
later some bitch I was fucking with apparently stole a hundred dollars from me
what a fucking whore
she went threw my fucking wallet

eh fuck it

I guess it is just a lesson learned

I just gotta remember to be a little less trusting of...
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hey I am relly drunk.
I have no I dea why Im on the computer except that this is kinda like the calm before the storm. I am quite sure , considering that I have not been out in a month and the semister starts next weekend that I am destined to rondeveu with a bar and regress to primate thinking.

By the way I...
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I have never been so happy to be broke in my life. I just spent 1500 on a new prs, a 2x12 fender amp, a stomp box, a multi effects pedel, a processer, and 2 cords. It was just too good of a deal to let pass by. Its all good I get paid soon then I am going on vacation for 10 days and...
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I am such a sloth. I recently got sick so I was bed ridden for a few days, well my roommate has the sopranos 1st,2nd,and 3rd seasons on dvd. I had never seen them before and now between that and the new dark tower book comeing out, and finals I have been a total hermit for nearly two weeks. and to think their are 2...
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hello

did any one see that riddick movie?
I loved pitchblack but someone told me that the chronicles got the same reviews as gili

did anyone else see the emergency brodcast today. it was some breakingheadline news shit on cnn were they cut threw the comercals to announce that they were evacuating the whitehouse. they didnt know why but they knew that the white house was being evacuated. they started say that they thought there was a plane possibly inbound for the white house but they were not sure....
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well that last journal has been up long enuff.

It is memorial day weekend and I have comfermed this weekend that I am a total asshole. What I really need is someone to compleatly annihilate my heart. I diserve it for the things I have done.

wait . fuck that.
fuck feeling guilty.
is not worth my time.

ah .... thats better. almost forgot feeling...
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Ambitious destinies coherse the fallen to conceed,

to being complacent with themselves,

a sigh of tedium escapes me ,

as I realize it will go on.

Safely...tucked away.. hiding behind goals

faith fades...to involuntary...habits of a cold

heart bends... forceing trends...of uninstinctual roles

crying dried...tears now...of an empty soul.

hollowed hopes blind the sullen of need,

to be more than a shell of whats concieved,...
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