it is fucked up missing someone you never knew, and sad to have loved someone who never really liked you 
I still feel cheated and lied to, having your trust violated just sucks. I still can't believe how bad that was and how shitty and selfish people can be.
The time I spent with my younger daughter turned out to be super positive, we had...
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I still feel cheated and lied to, having your trust violated just sucks. I still can't believe how bad that was and how shitty and selfish people can be.
The time I spent with my younger daughter turned out to be super positive, we had...
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I am feeling good today, my youngest daughter Hannah (20) is here to visit for a week and her and my eldest Nerissa (22) and I went out and had a nice time. It was the first time in over three weeks I could relax and eat a full meal. We had a bizarre 3x bad luck cycle hit all of us three weeks ago...
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fixiefreak69:
Yeah, close personal connections have no substitute. It's good to know that there are cool/rad men who are not all weird and suppressed about feelings, I'm proud of your attitude, you deserve the best- take care, Ed.
thyestean23:
Ah, yes. We remember whats most important when shit hits the fan. Its our nature. I'm willing to bet some good will come around soon. 
this will be a sad day each month for me for sometime
would of been 1 year and 9 months with someone I really fell in love with
instead i was lied to, cheated on and ditched for the better man
feeling splendid tonight for sure
good times
amazingly I am actually feeling worse every day instead of becoming numb, this really sucks and I...
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would of been 1 year and 9 months with someone I really fell in love with
instead i was lied to, cheated on and ditched for the better man
feeling splendid tonight for sure
good times
amazingly I am actually feeling worse every day instead of becoming numb, this really sucks and I...
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thyestean23:
No, not better...not better at all. Not even close to better. No no no.... 
I am sick about what just happened in my life
thyestean23:
...my door is open, always.
...my door is open, always.
thyestean23:
Amen to that, brother. Its all we can do.
the last two weeks really challenged my self worth and made me really think about what matters to me and what I need to be at this stage of my life
1. life is too short for insincere people and people who manifest their issues on others and emotionally vampire them
2. the things you do are way more important than the words you say...
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1. life is too short for insincere people and people who manifest their issues on others and emotionally vampire them
2. the things you do are way more important than the words you say...
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pirateprince:
I despise formality. I had this job where I had to be courteous to hordes of decadent trash. I wanted to strangle them and give all their money to struggling working class families... all I could be was a lowly servant. This really led me to be very forthright with my feelings because I had to contain them at work. Also I have no desire to waste time when I will be dead soon.
I agree with your thoughts on these fucking weak character traits in America. I gotta wear boots to protect myself from all these snakes I'm stepping over. I'm not misunderstanding these people, they are really weak, and lying is the only way they can feel strong, or get anywhere.
I agree with your thoughts on these fucking weak character traits in America. I gotta wear boots to protect myself from all these snakes I'm stepping over. I'm not misunderstanding these people, they are really weak, and lying is the only way they can feel strong, or get anywhere.
thyestean23:
Horribly short on time...making the rounds on the blogs. How you are doing well, nothing like physically working out issues. Drop me a line whenever.
unfortunate update
all of my happy talk will now be on hold as it turns out I get to be in all alone and not sure what the fuck is happening to me mode for the near future
i feel really awful now
update it looks official
i got dumped
close intimacy for 1 year and eight months then in 24 hours shes gone with...
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all of my happy talk will now be on hold as it turns out I get to be in all alone and not sure what the fuck is happening to me mode for the near future
i feel really awful now
update it looks official
i got dumped
close intimacy for 1 year and eight months then in 24 hours shes gone with...
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thyestean23:
been there, done that. Wanna chat let me know.
WOW
I have had some really hard times in my life
too many to blather on about but i mean broke dick down and dirty hard fucking times
yet
Over the last year and a half I have
found a wonderful women who who I love very much and feel we are meant for each other truly
made peace with a very rewarding yet ever...
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I have had some really hard times in my life
too many to blather on about but i mean broke dick down and dirty hard fucking times
yet
Over the last year and a half I have
found a wonderful women who who I love very much and feel we are meant for each other truly
made peace with a very rewarding yet ever...
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shesinparties:
you know that i will be right there with you babe. i am so glad you enjoyed your bday 
I cant get over how good Stiff Little Fingers is
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4wg-hndGQE
pardon the annoying mini banner, these were the best quality i could find
i have the two albums
Nobody's Heroes
and
Inflammable Material
classic punk rock with that late 70s rock feeling
and some other random stuff
and this one freaks me out so bad i kinda teared up remembering Dennis Danell when looking...
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4wg-hndGQE
pardon the annoying mini banner, these were the best quality i could find
i have the two albums
Nobody's Heroes
and
Inflammable Material
classic punk rock with that late 70s rock feeling
and some other random stuff
and this one freaks me out so bad i kinda teared up remembering Dennis Danell when looking...
Read More
shesinparties:
I like your new headline thingy
life sucks for me after a good year of non-reality and happiness
i have feelings of rejection and hate in the worst way
i try to be good but cant make things right with the people i care about
i wish i was no longer around really seriously
i have had so much fucking heartache in my life i cant take anymore
42 years of...
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i have feelings of rejection and hate in the worst way
i try to be good but cant make things right with the people i care about
i wish i was no longer around really seriously
i have had so much fucking heartache in my life i cant take anymore
42 years of...
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My musical tastes continue to degenerate as evidenced below:
and here
and here
and of course my taste in movies might be a little limited
and then there is Q
Q is the man
and then Hackett tells us like it is
and here
and here
and of course my taste in movies might be a little limited
and then there is Q
Q is the man
and then Hackett tells us like it is
shesinparties:
this is not a good Thursday night without you here. i miss you
I was repeatedly reminded for the last week how much and how often humility and pain overcomes the brief moments of happiness I work so hard to create for myself
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thepiperunner:
Patterson Park Mini-ramp opened up on Friday, just FYI.
shesinparties:
Happy one year babe. I love you with all my heart
