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Well...I think I'm depressed. I've been looking at myself lately...and even Vandilous pointed out some obvious symptoms today....I haven't been feeling well...I've been sleeping WAY too much....I have no energy to do anything...no motivation....I was looking at my life the other day and realized I'm not doing much with it. I have all this talent...all these dreams and aspirations and I'm not doing a damn thing about it...so I decided to go to a school for liberal arts...the only problem with that is the only liberal arts universities around here are Christian universities (and I don't know how well they would handle me) and the normal universities are more geared toward medical careers. I think I want to major in vocal performance, with a minor in visual arts and creative writing....the only university I can find in Jackson that has a large department for each of those is Belhaven College. Hmmmm....I think I'll go visit the campus and see what their reaction to me is! lol I've just got to get out of this rut. I'm 27 years old and I stay at home doing the same chores day in and day out, watching the kids and screaming the same things at them...don't hit your sister...don't tear that up...stop jumping on the couch...you're going to break that door if you don't stop beating on it like that...I'm about to go insane! I just need to feel like I'm accomplishing something. When I'm old and gray, I don't want to look back on my life and realize I had none....sigh