thanks to everyone for the musical suggestions. feel free to keep 'em coming.
been thinking a lot about short terms goals for myself. you know, things i want to happen within the next few months or so. i haven't compiled an official list yet, but i have some ideas... so i present to you:
Hyena's "To Do" List, Summer of 2005
1. lose 10 lbs....
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been thinking a lot about short terms goals for myself. you know, things i want to happen within the next few months or so. i haven't compiled an official list yet, but i have some ideas... so i present to you:
Hyena's "To Do" List, Summer of 2005
1. lose 10 lbs....
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hmmm. let's see. it's tuesday, right? it must be, because it's trash day. well, that's all right. the week's still young, so to speak, and there's hope yet of making the most of it.
went out for some afternoon drinking with JasonDemon yesterday, because both of us really fucking needed to get out of our houses.
went for a walk with Rhys, since i'm trying...
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went out for some afternoon drinking with JasonDemon yesterday, because both of us really fucking needed to get out of our houses.
went for a walk with Rhys, since i'm trying...
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inkedtrash:
suicidal tendencies. i forgot all about them. im going to download some right now
mngddss:
haha that's great!! Good to know I'm not the only one. Ive had dreams like that, where I think it totally happened but it didn't. Like going to the store to buy milk and then waking up, going to eat cereal, and there is no milk.
Sorry I'm not much into music. I'm more of a movie buff.
Sorry I'm not much into music. I'm more of a movie buff.
i slept almost 15 hours today. i usually sleep about 6 hours.
i assume i must have needed it. gonna try my damnedest to stay up all day today so i can get my sleeping back into the night-time realm. sheesh.
i keep on accidentally looking forward to the non-existant Antarctica vs. the World show tonight. grrr.
and my fingers hurt from sewing, but i...
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i assume i must have needed it. gonna try my damnedest to stay up all day today so i can get my sleeping back into the night-time realm. sheesh.
i keep on accidentally looking forward to the non-existant Antarctica vs. the World show tonight. grrr.
and my fingers hurt from sewing, but i...
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argentumblack:
15 hours.....i did that once after being awake for 36 hours.
it sucked.
it sucked.
beckricci:
Gosh darn it! Sleeping too much (or not enough) gets me all depressed and wierded out for weeks sometimes. I know how it is to adjust from working nights and then switching to days. i hope you find a sleep pattern that works for you soon!
alright. it's mother's day. everyone call up your mum and tell her you love her. i command you.
um. other stuff...
been keeping the odd hours again. going to bed around noon. waking up around six. at least i get to see some daylight this way, although i'd rather be seeing it from the other side of the morning.
in addition to this, i've been...
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um. other stuff...
been keeping the odd hours again. going to bed around noon. waking up around six. at least i get to see some daylight this way, although i'd rather be seeing it from the other side of the morning.
in addition to this, i've been...
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the_product:
it'll get better.
yuriel:
i know the feeling
all too well
not just manic depressive but EVERYTHING
there is no gray area for me
just black and white
billy joel- i go to extremes said it perfectly heh
<3
*hugs*
all too well
not just manic depressive but EVERYTHING
there is no gray area for me
just black and white
billy joel- i go to extremes said it perfectly heh
<3
*hugs*
well, after some time to myself and a lot of scribbling and contemplation, i don't feel much better about what i'm doing with my life. nor do i have much of an idea of what i'd rather be doing with it.
i sit around, let the days turn into weeks, turn into months gone by, and have nothing to show for it. and i feel...
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i sit around, let the days turn into weeks, turn into months gone by, and have nothing to show for it. and i feel...
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argentumblack:
I definately plan on back to college in business just i can move higher up in the company i'm working for currently. Its just much like you i have that common american "fast food" (want everything now) state of mind.
I too wish i could just get in a car, drive all over the states and learn alot about different cultures. I also know that i have to grow up and get rooted somewhere because i'm not to sure on social security being there when i get old.
So what is is and what isn't isn't i guess.
<3 Arg
I too wish i could just get in a car, drive all over the states and learn alot about different cultures. I also know that i have to grow up and get rooted somewhere because i'm not to sure on social security being there when i get old.
So what is is and what isn't isn't i guess.
<3 Arg
providencia:
I say draw yourself into a comic. Be your own Harvey Pekar.
As far as Argentum's road trip. I did that for about a year in a 1980 Crown Victoria with two other guys.
I would spin the knife on a map and we'd go there.
I can't say it helped me find my direction.
I came back and was homeless for almost 5 years.
I then broke out of New Orleans to help a friend with bail.
On the way there the fucker steals a car and I was pinched for it.
He was moved to a prison in OK and I figured that was punishment enough. Strangely, I could have gotten out of the charge on a technicality. I just didn't have anywhere to go so I stayed.
After parole was over (12 years ago now) I only knew what I didn't want to do anymore.
Now I find out something I want to do.
I want a big piece of land somewhere.
I'll work it until my back breaks and spend the rest of my days in retreat.
I'll let you build a house on the northern piece if you like.
As far as Argentum's road trip. I did that for about a year in a 1980 Crown Victoria with two other guys.
I would spin the knife on a map and we'd go there.
I can't say it helped me find my direction.
I came back and was homeless for almost 5 years.
I then broke out of New Orleans to help a friend with bail.
On the way there the fucker steals a car and I was pinched for it.
He was moved to a prison in OK and I figured that was punishment enough. Strangely, I could have gotten out of the charge on a technicality. I just didn't have anywhere to go so I stayed.
After parole was over (12 years ago now) I only knew what I didn't want to do anymore.
Now I find out something I want to do.
I want a big piece of land somewhere.
I'll work it until my back breaks and spend the rest of my days in retreat.
I'll let you build a house on the northern piece if you like.
i'm shutting off my computer for a week. i'm putting it away. i won't be around. i am hiding.
i have shit that i need to do.
important shit.
that i've been neglecting.
see everyone later.
much love.
-Hyena.
i have shit that i need to do.
important shit.
that i've been neglecting.
see everyone later.
much love.
-Hyena.
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sydni:
She's dangerous to look at. *drools*
yuriel:
(was going to say something. didnt. )
going back to being ... not so me.
im so happy you said hello. it means you care. honestly
im serious *hugs*
going back to being ... not so me.
im so happy you said hello. it means you care. honestly
im serious *hugs*
made dinner last night... burritos, complete with fresh mango salsa. unfortunately, i got habenero peppers on my hands and they now burn like hell. like, ten hours later. granted they were feeling better until i had them under hot water doing the dishes... sheesh.
fucking ouch.
did i mention this shit burns?
alot?
have to take the dogs to the vet at 11:30 am. then...
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fucking ouch.
did i mention this shit burns?
alot?
have to take the dogs to the vet at 11:30 am. then...
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jasondemon:
I'm gonna give you a call today. Want to see if you want to go see Hitchhiker's Guide tonight.
joshof13thfloor:
I knew there was a reason I really like you a lot.
I mean, y'know, other tha all of the other far more obvious reasons.
-Josh
I mean, y'know, other tha all of the other far more obvious reasons.
-Josh
for lack of a better entry, i give you:
13 things you might not know (or, for that matter, want to know) about Hyena
1. No less than 3 episodes of Futurama have made Hyena cry; not just get "teary-eyed", mind you, but full blown bawling.
2. Hyena was commited to a mental institution for a week when she was 18. They let her out...
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13 things you might not know (or, for that matter, want to know) about Hyena
1. No less than 3 episodes of Futurama have made Hyena cry; not just get "teary-eyed", mind you, but full blown bawling.
2. Hyena was commited to a mental institution for a week when she was 18. They let her out...
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abadinfluence:
How many times do I have to tell you - you are safe from all ABI freind deletions. This shall stand until the day that I change my mind ... which I cannot forsee ... but if I ever feel the urge, I'll be nice enough to let you know before I do it ... 'cause really ... you rock and my friends list wouldn't be the same without you.
Now ... based on your 13 thingers:
1. I never used to like Futurama. I would go as far as saying I wished it never aired, 'cause I couldn't stand it. But then about a year ago I watched the first episode and laughed my fucking ass off. I have been clamoring for all I can get ever since. Which episodes made your eyes leak? Was one of them the one where Bender and Frye live together with the big ass TV and Bender's antenna fucks up the signal and then he cuts it off to show his friendship to Frye?? That almost makes me wanna cry. Sort of.
2. I was brilliant enough to not show my sorrid suicidal thoughts to anyone that could fathom committing me to any type of institution. Brilliant I say. *nods emphatcially*
3. I quite prefer tap water. Fizzy water is over rated in my opinion ... water isn't supposed to be fizzy.
4. I also take the right side of the bed ... unless it is the left side that has the wall ... then I take that side and have a really crappy night sleep 'cause I'm not on the right side of the bed. I'll go along with the dominant theory on that one I guess ... even though it really has to do with the fact that I have yet to fall through a wall ... but have fallen through the air that sits beside the other side of the bed a couple times.
5. I am turning 25 in a few weeks and can still not comprehend the trick to whistling. I am, however, apparently quite capable of laughing still from me writing about falling through the air beside the bed. Damn rum.
6. In my last year of highschool, I was the Yearbook Editor, Grade Rep on Student Council and voted "Scariest person", "Most Likeable" and Valedictorian. I was the total geek loser that everyone liked. It made me feel special. Bus riding special!
7. I was built to play basketball. But a broken knee cap at age 10 and the total inability to dribble a ball without looking at it at age 24 ... and the fact that my shooting skills suck ass have made me resort to playing .... video games. And damn do I rock the computers ass. In fact, today I beat the computer 176-32 in NBA 2005. I clearly win at life.
8. I am the proud father of ... uhhh ... well ... I take some children to the pool most mornings ... but I'm not too sure how proud I am of them.
9. Bah ... my middle name is Bruce. Beat that. And it is very rare that I ever talk about my middle name. I hate it. HATE it. I am drunk now and will forget this, but I am sure it can be used for blackmail material later. That is how much I hate my middle name.
10. I secretly wish I were cool enough to have an alter ego.
11. I am phobic over spiders, millipedes ... (heck - most small bugs ... actually ... most bugs at that), being anally raped and Richard Simmons.
12. A dirty sanchez is good enough revenge for this negative influence over here.
13. I do a mean impression of Eeyore.
Now ... based on your 13 thingers:
1. I never used to like Futurama. I would go as far as saying I wished it never aired, 'cause I couldn't stand it. But then about a year ago I watched the first episode and laughed my fucking ass off. I have been clamoring for all I can get ever since. Which episodes made your eyes leak? Was one of them the one where Bender and Frye live together with the big ass TV and Bender's antenna fucks up the signal and then he cuts it off to show his friendship to Frye?? That almost makes me wanna cry. Sort of.
2. I was brilliant enough to not show my sorrid suicidal thoughts to anyone that could fathom committing me to any type of institution. Brilliant I say. *nods emphatcially*
3. I quite prefer tap water. Fizzy water is over rated in my opinion ... water isn't supposed to be fizzy.
4. I also take the right side of the bed ... unless it is the left side that has the wall ... then I take that side and have a really crappy night sleep 'cause I'm not on the right side of the bed. I'll go along with the dominant theory on that one I guess ... even though it really has to do with the fact that I have yet to fall through a wall ... but have fallen through the air that sits beside the other side of the bed a couple times.
5. I am turning 25 in a few weeks and can still not comprehend the trick to whistling. I am, however, apparently quite capable of laughing still from me writing about falling through the air beside the bed. Damn rum.
6. In my last year of highschool, I was the Yearbook Editor, Grade Rep on Student Council and voted "Scariest person", "Most Likeable" and Valedictorian. I was the total geek loser that everyone liked. It made me feel special. Bus riding special!
7. I was built to play basketball. But a broken knee cap at age 10 and the total inability to dribble a ball without looking at it at age 24 ... and the fact that my shooting skills suck ass have made me resort to playing .... video games. And damn do I rock the computers ass. In fact, today I beat the computer 176-32 in NBA 2005. I clearly win at life.
8. I am the proud father of ... uhhh ... well ... I take some children to the pool most mornings ... but I'm not too sure how proud I am of them.
9. Bah ... my middle name is Bruce. Beat that. And it is very rare that I ever talk about my middle name. I hate it. HATE it. I am drunk now and will forget this, but I am sure it can be used for blackmail material later. That is how much I hate my middle name.
10. I secretly wish I were cool enough to have an alter ego.
11. I am phobic over spiders, millipedes ... (heck - most small bugs ... actually ... most bugs at that), being anally raped and Richard Simmons.
12. A dirty sanchez is good enough revenge for this negative influence over here.
13. I do a mean impression of Eeyore.
gosifer:
The first time I remember crying because I was scared was in a TG&Y. I lost my mom. I was around 5 yrs old.
I used to deer hunt. In my late teens I did alot of acid and thought it would be a good idea to skin a deer, cure the pelt, and use it as a loin cloth while bowhunting. It itched.
I slur and stutter after 3 beers, but can usually handle about a case before I am shitfaced.
The first 3 letters of my last name are GAS. Ironic since I hate petroleum/oil.
I suck at every instrument I pick up, but pick them up anyway.
I dig girls who fart and laugh about it. As long as its not at the dinner table.
My mom and dad are still happily married after 30 yrs, which may not seem odd, but how many people can say that? That's what I want someday...
I am really great at business and schmuzing, two of the things I hate most in the world. Fucking capitalism.
I seldom use profanity unless online in an attempt to seem more "sophisticated". (Okay that last part was a joke, but I really don't curse often.)
Favorite things to consume for pure pleasure are: coffee, italian red wines, Gauloises/American Spirit/Camel cigarettes, real beer (not shitty american megabrews).
I feel more comfortable high above (in a tree, on a ledge, climbing rocks, etc.) than I do on land.
I used to deer hunt. In my late teens I did alot of acid and thought it would be a good idea to skin a deer, cure the pelt, and use it as a loin cloth while bowhunting. It itched.
I slur and stutter after 3 beers, but can usually handle about a case before I am shitfaced.
The first 3 letters of my last name are GAS. Ironic since I hate petroleum/oil.
I suck at every instrument I pick up, but pick them up anyway.
I dig girls who fart and laugh about it. As long as its not at the dinner table.
My mom and dad are still happily married after 30 yrs, which may not seem odd, but how many people can say that? That's what I want someday...
I am really great at business and schmuzing, two of the things I hate most in the world. Fucking capitalism.
I seldom use profanity unless online in an attempt to seem more "sophisticated". (Okay that last part was a joke, but I really don't curse often.)
Favorite things to consume for pure pleasure are: coffee, italian red wines, Gauloises/American Spirit/Camel cigarettes, real beer (not shitty american megabrews).
I feel more comfortable high above (in a tree, on a ledge, climbing rocks, etc.) than I do on land.
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carryavengeance:
that's why my girl took that picture because she said when she walked outside it looked like i had 3 different piss streams, but the camera didnt pic them all up
jasondemon:
Badass picture. 
I added you to Myspace....so add me back, fool!
I added you to Myspace....so add me back, fool!
the moon's full tonight. there's supposed to be a lunar eclipse in about ten minutes or so. i'm going to go stand in the street and watch it. although all the information i've found says it's not supposed to be that visible. oh well. i like the moon.
right now i'm watching t.v. and drinking coffee.
people are coming to stay at my house on...
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right now i'm watching t.v. and drinking coffee.
people are coming to stay at my house on...
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argentumblack:
yeah...and thats the way that me and joe are...the cool thing about not seeing someone for that long is you always have something to talk about.
I must of missed the lunar eclipse....*le sigh*...oh well at least its a pretty full moon.
I'll give my gramma kiss on friday since i didn't see her this weekend...i'm a bad grandson.
<3 Luna
I must of missed the lunar eclipse....*le sigh*...oh well at least its a pretty full moon.
I'll give my gramma kiss on friday since i didn't see her this weekend...i'm a bad grandson.
<3 Luna
i don't want to be awake.
i literally woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. the left side. i hate it. my back is killing me. i'm not even going to go into the schematics of the odd way i fell asleep on the bed, and subsequent shifting about during the night that led to this phenomenon. it would be way...
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i literally woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. the left side. i hate it. my back is killing me. i'm not even going to go into the schematics of the odd way i fell asleep on the bed, and subsequent shifting about during the night that led to this phenomenon. it would be way...
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yuriel:
im not
gotta get in gear for having no life = grad school haha.
frack.
im anxious. *crosses fingers and hopes his hopes dont get broken or anything*
Hehe.
<3
get in chat yo. its teh hopping!
gotta get in gear for having no life = grad school haha.
frack.
im anxious. *crosses fingers and hopes his hopes dont get broken or anything*
Hehe.
<3
get in chat yo. its teh hopping!
rottenart:
kick ass! expect a new shirt in the mail in a few days! and don't forget to tell your friends that you got it from rottenart.net!
They say "Richard are you gonna go out tonight?"
Well I am uncertain, I ain't feelin' too right
But I rip up my shirt/ Watch the mirror it flirt
Yeah, I'm goin' out, out, inta sight.
Richard Hell & the Voidoids, "Down at the Rock and Roll Club".
a little inspiration from my namesake and fellow Kentuckian, Mr. Hell. because damn. am i beat.
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Well I am uncertain, I ain't feelin' too right
But I rip up my shirt/ Watch the mirror it flirt
Yeah, I'm goin' out, out, inta sight.
Richard Hell & the Voidoids, "Down at the Rock and Roll Club".
a little inspiration from my namesake and fellow Kentuckian, Mr. Hell. because damn. am i beat.
for...
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yuriel:
hmm wierd entry
yuriel:
HEY! <3
hehe
missed ya
i bet it was wierd eh
so erm
may 15th
i gotta have all my stuff into uno by then
ugh im so worried/anxious
i wanna get in
but even if i get in theres housing and other costs to worry about and i dunno if the loan amounts ill get will cover it all and if they dont im shit outta luck cus there wont hbe any jobs i could actually do :\
<3
much love hon
psst be in chat or on im or something more often
hehe
missed ya
i bet it was wierd eh
so erm
may 15th
i gotta have all my stuff into uno by then
ugh im so worried/anxious
i wanna get in
but even if i get in theres housing and other costs to worry about and i dunno if the loan amounts ill get will cover it all and if they dont im shit outta luck cus there wont hbe any jobs i could actually do :\
<3
much love hon
psst be in chat or on im or something more often
Plus with the boy coming in, we might just call it an early night