If you are here, reading this and it anywhere near 9am pacfic time, you should call me and make sure I'm awake! i'll be forever greatful, so will my friends, I may have a chance of being on time.
this is from an im conversation-- "everyone has the power within themselves to change everything around them, but we choose our ruts because they're comfortable. We choose cubicals because they keep us in boxes and we don't have to see outside of them. We choose to look at our feet instead of the world that's passing us by at light speed.... Read More
Clicking on the smileys=bad idea
Last night was drinking and shopping. It was fun, but my friend Amanda, however nice, makes things akward for me. So it happened yet again that it was Amanda and I +2 men. As it got later and they drunker Amanda continued to flirt more and more, which is all good, but while she's got these guys captivated i'm just... Read More
Saw pygmy and miguelito, got some kale n talked music much. Went n saw the US-Italy soccer afterwards. I was gonna burn CDs now, but have basically messed around on YouTube and here! I should get out to walk; it's too nice out.
"I can't explain glaical motion, or why Los Angeles don't fall into the ocean. . . ."
That's from Presidents of the United States of America's Naked and Famous
which came on while I was studying for my geoligy final. and honestly I can't explain either of those things either, and i'm being tested on it tomorrow.
Fuck!
"bobby brady found an idol in the rubble, had no idea it would cause so much trouble, when greg tried to throw it back in the ocean, there was a rumble, an awful comotion!"
I need something more. Something bigger. Something grander.
I am what became of your child. I found an old baby picture of me. And it was somebody else, not me. It was somebody pink and fat who never heard of sick or lonely, somebody who cried and got... Read More
I'm afraid of losing you, and you're not even mine to lose. I've wondered if I care too much, and if I should try changing that. In a world where no one really cares tho, is it possible to care about another person too much? I don't want to take off running, it's never been my style. I want if nothing else to be there... Read More
Well, I hope that didn't ruin your day. My day was busy and disappointing. Guess there'll be another one starting at midnight, though.
I'm curious about the 1978 Star Trek pinball with the flexing abs. That was pre-Star-Trek-movie, so I guess they just felt the need to ride Star Wars's coattails at the time.
Burgertime, Dig Dug, Galaga... wish they had Battle Zone, but then I played that one a lot on my parents's computer in 1998.
it's funny when I can go read another journal and see so much of myself, so many of my same hang-ups. I see the journal, i find the problem, and I know how to solve it. I apparently have the ability to do that in my own life, but I'm much too lazy to do it. And I certainly don't have the energy to fix... Read More
With mental problems there's a rational and emotional side. Anyone can tell you logically what they should do to solve an emotional problem, but they can't do it. The mind is a uncontrollable thing pretty damned often.
Well, I've had to think about anxiety a lot lately, cuz the job-hunting thing makes me tense to the point where it's like a phobia. I dunno exactly what it is. Maybe the process of my traits being scrutinized by HR people? Fear of rejection? I guess those things, and maybe more. I know rationally that job-hunting is just normal stuff everyone does, but emotionally it makes me anxious.
I may be crazy. Not that that's anything new.
It's the last week before finals.
I have 3 papers to write, and a group project to work on.
Oh and I have an auidtion on wednesday. I'd love to be in the show, but if i'm not, I have my summer to myself, to do absloutly nothing.
my apt is mine again. My brother left... Read More